tag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:/blogs/liverLIVER2023-06-27T09:19:32+02:00MELANIEISDEMENTEDfalsetag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/72188412023-06-01T13:13:12+02:002023-06-01T13:13:12+02:0065. LIFE IS CERTAIN DEATH IS NOT<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/s:bzglfiles/u/56135/54fef1e7290bbb3a656811a454d3f244460847e0/original/1685612318808.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/72089412023-05-15T01:32:52+02:002023-05-15T01:32:52+02:0064. first field test of a machine to dissociate water - the grief mk 3 beta<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/s:bzglfiles/u/56135/aac7aa0d57399f2e594bc3d593620f4f3eb94eee/original/hemsida-1-960x641.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/71765742023-03-22T19:13:04+01:002023-03-22T19:13:04+01:0063. Freq_Spark event<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/s:bzglfiles/u/56135/990bf2f4ffe4836249087502881e35f8adf4e142/original/thumbnail-screenshot-2023-03-22-at-18-59-39.png/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/70551872022-09-07T21:23:35+02:002023-02-11T09:24:40+01:0062. Discussions and critiscism of the Grief Mk 2 Beta patent, divided up on seven different events<p>One for each part of the patent, to be exhibited and available for purchase alongside Ulsa release in q2 2023" through KKCCBB and Wormfood Recs.</p><p>This here post to be updated continuously along 2022". Follow progress at #griefmk.1</p><p>We begin with the WHY</p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/5543408629108378?ref=newsfeed" target="_blank" data-link-type="url"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/6532803119ab52bc29bbfb22caa7fa4c101076eb/original/dea3ca27-b597-4f06-906a-6add02ea04c5-page-0001.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a></p><p>-update 2022/11/04":</p><p>It continues with the DON'T</p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/1814202792265460/?ref=newsfeed" target="_blank" data-link-type="url"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/7a4da07d1c99b22cf996f276d3c97e40fab24537/original/jpeg.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a></p><p> </p><p>YOU, at the Konstrundan november 2022"</p><p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/fc202b55de186190400a8c454076bbe3d1920bb6/original/1669004355138.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p><p>SUPERVISING PRODUCER AZIER MENDIZABAL</p><p> </p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/69970882022-06-19T06:07:32+02:002022-06-19T06:07:32+02:0061. FUCKING FINALLY SIGNED A PUBLISHING DEAL AND HEADLINED MY FAV FESTIVAL AND FUCKING LIVEALBUM OUT.<p><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://open.spotify.com/album/5Ue1YU2Yjouzfy8hHMu5YF?si=iMZl1zi8TZOSWSIvRvizrA" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/40362e6b96af01e1addd71ead9adea73d2d5d807/original/cover-spotify.jpeg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/69778702022-05-23T20:41:01+02:002022-05-28T14:08:29+02:0060. I HAVE WORKED A DECADE" TRYING TO BOOK THIS FUCKING SHOW. I BETTER ENJOY THIS.<p><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/532663765134974" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/dc3465be60af86ec609bfa28df88ff4fb71b0917/original/279520154-7301125273291052-7193365639639501653-n.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a></p>
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<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/cf6fb1a11db5c924247b65858454776df6753fff/original/284484428-10166386509740327-6986374398734714846-n.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/69778682022-05-23T20:39:31+02:002022-05-23T20:39:31+02:0059. At least buy a ticket<p><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://linktr.ee/tombola.mejan" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/11af2acabccf8edfecbc97ceb0c22e8553dad1f1/original/281367176-126279233365564-8101607305091193927-n.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/69448992022-04-10T00:45:36+02:002022-04-10T00:45:36+02:0058. A gay event in support of Ukraine.<p><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/1169007257179025?active_tab=about" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/4ba5e5351c1b16ea347d1f8ebf7308a94afa07b8/original/the-talk.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/69118132022-03-02T22:14:37+01:002022-03-02T22:14:37+01:0057. World War 3<p>I keep writing on the new album, dodge skirmishes with investors and mobsters and keep getting chased around Cellar Door by ghosts.</p>
<p>The process is going well underway, I have never been this productive, and to stick it to Kanye and Drake the new album Ulsa now clocks in at about two hours long, 20 songs, and I envision a release date sometime next year". </p>
<p>Then World War 3 happens, and I get to play war correspondent on Facebook. Sweden is not a Nato country either, and can say it like it is that we're next, it's gonna be soon, and our only shot against Putin is the Grief Mk. 1. Beta.</p>
<p>My girlfriend is also coincidentally called Nato, so it is going to be a difficult release of the album next year" with song titles like Hey Nato and Whats Up Nato.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/68936622022-02-10T08:19:50+01:002022-02-10T08:29:55+01:0056. help<p>i amwritingthisfromCellarDoor.</p>
<p>ok, keyboard seems to be functional. jesus there was a woman here in the middle of the night laying right beside me in my bed as she stood up and walked right out into the hallway.</p>
<p>i immediately got up and started yelling at her. i have no idea who this woman was. jesus i have a girlfriend. she was dressed in only underwear and i only got the glimpse of her back as she stood up and walked out. and she was gone. like that. poof. i didnt hear a door open or close. but she was as real as you and me.</p>
<p>next thing i find is that the harddrives, in plural, ive been continually keeping updated with the Ulsa album, are wiped clean. Four harddrives. updated just hours before this rude awakening. YEARS OF WORK. GONE. ONE OF THE HARDDRIVES WAS KEPT IN A SAFE FOR FUCKING SAKE. GONE. POOF.</p>
<p>i am desperately trying to call anyone for help but its like eight in the morning here and all of my friends are asleep or dead.</p>
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<p>IN COLLABORATION WITH KKCCBB DESIGNER <a contents="MONIKA PIZUR" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://monikapizur.com/" target="_blank">MONIKA PIZUR</a> WILL BE EXHIBITING HER NEW COLLECTION AT ALL SHOWS.</p>
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<p> </p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/67627202021-10-01T07:24:49+02:002021-10-01T07:24:49+02:0053. I WAS THERE THE FIRST TIME COCAINE WAS DELIVERED TO VICE MAGAZINE'S OFFICES IN STOCKHOLM.<p><strong>Hello, what’s your name? It’s gonna say Mars One, just so you know. So you’re a graffitiwriter, yeah? </strong></p>
<p>[Nodding in agreement] </p>
<p><strong>Nodding in agreement, ok cool. So you were there, the first time cocaine came into the Vice office. How did the substance end up there? </strong></p>
<p>[silence] </p>
<p><strong>Ok, where was it? </strong></p>
<p>Vasastan. No wait. Fridhemsplan. </p>
<p><strong>Do you have a year? </strong></p>
<p>No, not yet, i need to verify it with my homie. But around the 2000’s. </p>
<p><strong>As swedish as kaviar. </strong></p>
<p>Man, it’s blurry. </p>
<p><strong>Well, those who knows, knows. Okay, followup question, how did you end up at the premises? Who did you know? </strong></p>
<p>A friend of mine, american, I knew him and he works there, and another friend from my crew she worked there and they knew eachother. </p>
<p><strong>Was the office newly started? </strong></p>
<p>I think so. </p>
<p><strong>Ok so it was newly started and somebody came over with cocaine, who came over with cocaine? </strong></p>
<p>Guy who delivered it was there when i arrived, and he was completely spun. And then someone was waving a broomhandle. </p>
<p><strong>The guy with the broom, do you remember his name? </strong></p>
<p>I wouldn’t even mention it if i did. </p>
<p><strong>Allright. So what happened? </strong></p>
<p>Nah it was just fascinating to see. </p>
<p><strong>Yeah so what happened? </strong></p>
<p>Well it was his first time trying it, as i recall, and… well, it worked on him. </p>
<p><strong>Could you give a more precise image of what you observed? </strong></p>
<p>Nah he was just standing in the kitchen swinging a broomhandle. [the drugs] worked great on him, that’s all there is to it. I don’t believe it was his last time either to be honest. </p>
<p><strong>Okay, followup question; how did you know it was the first time cocaine had been delivered to this office? </strong></p>
<p>Well listen, somebody at that party told me in confidence. </p>
<p><strong>Did they have like a huge mountain of it on a mirror? Like Freddie Mercury or Scarface? </strong></p>
<p>No. </p>
<p><strong>[disappointed sigh] So how was it displayed and distributed? </strong></p>
<p>I don’t know, your usual lines i guess. I honestly didn’t even see the actual intake, i was in another room. I just noticed when the guy was spun. I didn’t take any myself, I was just shitfaced. </p>
<p><strong>Its an expensive hobby. </strong></p>
<p>It’s a hell of a drug. </p>
<p><strong>It’s a hell of a drug. </strong></p>
<p>But that memory is a little faded because there was this other thing that happened upstairs at the time. </p>
<p><strong>Oh yeah? What? </strong></p>
<p>No it’s personal. </p>
<p><strong>Oh it’s personal. Well… now that i have your attention at least… well.. how did you know it was the first time at the office again? </strong></p>
<p>Somebody told me. </p>
<p><strong>When was this? Winter? Summer? </strong></p>
<p>I think it was fall. </p>
<p><strong>Like how it is outside now? </strong></p>
<p>Exactly. </p>
<p><strong>Daytime? </strong></p>
<p>God, no. The guy with the broom in Vice, that’s what i remember. </p>
<p><strong>Time is relative anyway. </strong></p>
<p>Sure, but as soon as i get it verified i’ll get back to you. </p>
<p><strong>Where was it again? </strong></p>
<p>Around A.G., Allmänna Galleriet in Stockholm you know. Around those hoods, a couple of floors up. Real nice place. It is like you <em>want</em> to do coke in there you know. </p>
<p><strong>Yeah, i believe they still have their offices there, I mean <em>we</em> still have our offices around there, heh heh. I am a writer. </strong></p>
<p>Cool. Maybe we should go there and practice skipping sometime. </p>
<p><strong>Define skipping, but okay, who had sex with who? </strong></p>
<p>Nah there was nothing like that. </p>
<p><strong>Any other juicy relationship drama that ensued at the premises? </strong></p>
<p>Yeah you could say that. </p>
<p><strong>Really? </strong></p>
<p>Well that is the million dollar question. The question of did i see anything or not. I have not quite yet come to terms with it myself to this day really. I can’t say for sure. And i will have to leave it like that. I don’t know what good would come out of mentioning it. Because i can not tell you a story if I remember things wrong. </p>
<p><strong>But you know that is what happened? </strong></p>
<p>No. </p>
<p><strong>Yes. You know, I have been writing for Vice myself and i hope that they have enough self distance to- </strong></p>
<p>I believe a friends sister worked there as well, that’s how i got there. </p>
<p><strong>That being said, i don’t know how the office is runt hese days and who’s who. </strong></p>
<p>Yeah but nevermind, I can picture the kitchen [at the office] right now. Yeah so I am at the kitchen, allright? </p>
<p><strong>Who did you know there? How did you get there? </strong></p>
<p>I knew bleep. </p>
<p><strong>Bleep one? As in graffititerms? </strong></p>
<p>No just bleep, as in writing. Bleep worked there. Maybe she worked at Cheap Monday or something. Yeah, that’s it, i was dating her friend for a while. And [bleep] was together with this guy who worked at Vice. </p>
<p><strong>How many was at the party? </strong></p>
<p>Not that many, really. Around… seven, maybe ten people. </p>
<p><strong>And this was at a weekend? </strong></p>
<p>Yes it was. </p>
<p><strong>A Saturday or a Sunday? </strong></p>
<p>How the fuck should i remember that. I don’t even remember what year it was. </p>
<p><strong>Excellent answer. </strong></p>
<p>Yeah I was a bit blown away at the time myself, if you catch my drift. </p>
<p><strong>Hah. So did anyone pull out their dick or anything? </strong></p>
<p>No. Well yeah, there was this guy with the… broomhandle. </p>
<p><strong>You remember what his position was in the organisation? </strong></p>
<p>Art director. </p>
<p><strong>Oh. High level shit. </strong></p>
<p>You could say that. </p>
<p><strong>Was there music playing in the background?</strong> </p>
<p>For sure. </p>
<p><strong>Did the office have a fat soundsystem? </strong></p>
<p>Not particularly fat from what i recall. </p>
<p><strong>And when was this again? Just so that people can get an image. Ish. Two thousand…? </strong></p>
<p>I cannot recall right now. </p>
<p><strong>But just to give this some sort of scientific grounding, what would you say what year it was? </strong></p>
<p>I would have to find out at what time some people broke up, and then i’ll get back to you. </p>
<p><strong>Last question, have you ever tried cocaine? </strong></p>
<p>Fuck yeah. </p>
<p><strong>Awesome, this was a pleasure, thank you very much.</strong></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/66248602021-05-08T06:02:48+02:002021-05-08T06:02:48+02:0052. Överlevare [spring]<p> </p>
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<p>So my roomie went into my room while I was asleep and simply stole my computer.</p>
<p>I got up and said I need it back. She said that she needed the money. </p>
<p>"You also need a new kitchen window" I said, as I went on to trashing her kitchen. </p>
<p>Police got involved but I managed to escape the neighbourhood that at first had sounded so promising.</p>
<p>Now I sleep here and there, all my stuff is in limbo and I don't know what to do, but I still get to keep my awesome studio THE OLDEST ROOM and have rented yet another studio which is a work in progress when it comes to furnishing.</p>
<p>I call the new studio CELLAR DOOR, in which we do lines of coke off of the panels of my solar-powered machinegun Grief Mk.1.</p>
<p>The pandemic is still roaring outside so the people that were supposed to help me with the final touches with Kyle's Apartment is not allowed in so the print-ready edition is now simply hibernating in a box beside me, but the work together with Mother on Ulsa continues, and tonight we released a new musicvideo with an online premiere for it.</p>
<p>The song is called Överlevare, swedish for Survivalist, you can find it above. The video was hell to create and I nearly burned myself to death greenscreening the fire, and have now indebted myself for hiring the church it was shot in.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/65238772021-01-18T12:46:27+01:002021-01-18T12:46:27+01:0051. New video up for "Droskkusk Max"<p>Hello guys, a nice new video i made in royal artschool involving the "you" system from the Grief mk.1 project, rebuilt with an arduino card using playtronica and an Artificial Consciousness creating an entirely new instrument which i call the electric twangdoodle so that one can only play on dead fish. Future endeavors will involve how to safely hook up the electric twangdoodle to live fish also, to see if there is any difference purely scientifically speaking, to see if live bodies really differ from dead bodies in terms of matter and weight.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/64926862020-12-06T04:03:29+01:002020-12-06T04:03:29+01:0050. WINTER<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/cb2c0e6ec0a725ad1953df3ab17c551383c4527c/original/129730153-206633411036672-6684483093290255053-n.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/63908812020-07-23T18:44:25+02:002020-07-23T18:44:25+02:0049.<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/b0fd01ec44e88f65b8f1c76d5dfddfae9f2be0cc/original/utopia-amazon.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/63548262020-06-16T09:11:38+02:002020-06-16T14:57:28+02:0048. I'm not doing machineguns anymore.<p>So the world hit a reset button.</p>
<p>And I have moved out of my old apartment, the one I suffered in.</p>
<p>I now live in nice new quarters with a lovely old friend. It is cramped but we pull through and society is slowly starting to reopen.</p>
<p>And I know how to build a machinegun that can only fire human teeth.</p>
<p>And I'm thinking, do I want to take this technology with me into the new world, the new normal, or do I want to BE the change?</p>
<p>I'm not doing machineguns anymore. Enough fighting, already.</p>
<p>I feel like there is a lesson to be learned here that gets lost along with the blueprints from the old world but fuck it.</p>
<p>Let's reinvent ourselves now.</p>
<p>I feel this lockdown was a godsend because it gives me and the rest of humanity a chance to forget or even get to talk about the fact that somewhere out here is a fully functioning machine that inevitably would turn Earth into a nightmare if we just dont put this behind us thats a years research down the drain thank you awesome. </p>
<p>To try give this world an honest shot. Again. </p>
<p>ULSA, Kyle's Apartment and KKCCBB design line is still pulling forth as planned though.</p>
<p>Be right back.</p>
<p>Love</p>
<p>/M</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/63368432020-05-31T14:06:15+02:002020-05-31T14:06:15+02:0047. REGURGITATE<p>I have trashed my apartment and am moving out. Making a fucking spectacle out of it. Click the image for info.</p>
<p><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/2675693569340684/" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/8e0a6cad2e746f2f324bc30262ac69534a9ed45d/original/cover-2.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/63330522020-05-28T13:13:09+02:002020-05-28T13:13:09+02:0046. Support your local artist.<p><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.scofilm.com" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/cf6ca6b88719fb711a6f8c96f3a46004ee03f356/original/scofield.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a></p>
<p> </p>
<p> </p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/62866232020-04-18T20:55:56+02:002020-04-21T05:27:05+02:0045. Upcoming graphic novel Kyle's Apartment featured on Artportable.<p>And I also just want to say that the KKCCBB Slow Fashion Show was a huge success and thank you to everyone participating.</p>
<p>And how it's weird how it was like THE LAST event in Stockholm probably ever.</p>
<p>I had to leave early because a friend had been murdered.</p>
<p>Also, we are sad to say yet another friend passed away this weekend, not in Covid. Just... that fucking opioid epidemic man.</p>
<p>Rest in peace Stressan, you sexy ghoul you.</p>
<p>Anyway, here's a little snippet of the piece about Kyle's Apartment. Some mention of the Grief MK1 project as well. Enjoy. </p>
<p>A project I am currently NOT working on since everything is shut down.</p>
<p>Still working on new music together with an AI called Google, or Mother, as also presented above. Its the Pepsi one.</p>
<p>Don't stay safe. I fucking hate this world and I have never been happier that this horseshit world is ending.</p>
<p>Fuck you.</p>
<p>Sincerely</p>
<p>/M</p>
<p><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://artportable.com/artist/melanieisdemented" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/e7a98e9c174d7849ec0ea35d1d334c419a6ff3f6/original/artportable.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/62088972020-02-08T22:03:26+01:002020-02-08T22:03:26+01:0044. upcoming event.<p>Click on the image for facebook event!</p>
<p><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/540141006933347/" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/eabf0f722a97ca5e7206732aad62698e20cbecd6/original/kkccbb-fashion-poster.png/!!/b:W10=.png" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/62028462020-02-04T12:17:25+01:002020-02-04T12:17:25+01:0043. KKCCBB HEAVY WEAPONRY UPDATE PT. 7<p>Apparently you can't do anything anymore because an hour ago swedish task force busted through my door AGAIN and this time they also dragged out my friend. He was pretty cool about the whole ordeal.</p>
<p>At least they didn't put us in a cell this time.</p>
<p>And at least now I have got a new partner for the upcoming clothing/machinegun/merch collection.</p>
<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/e0e11530767048a48951bc34ee8fbfc4e633514d/original/nulovy-dopad-jpg-klauzury036.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/61761502020-01-27T15:47:50+01:002020-01-27T15:55:25+01:0042. KKCCBB HEAVY WEAPONRY UPDATE PT. 6<p>Apparently you can not use the word "party" in the same sentence as "machinegun", so the KKCCBBBETA party/discussion is cancelled as of yet, and I just got kicked out of the studio until further notice.</p>
<p>That studio, man... i love it. It's schizophrenic, paradoxical, incoherent. I feel right at home.</p>
<p>They say "Do art here, but don't do art".</p>
<p>"Play music but don't play music".</p>
<p>"Build machineguns but don't build machineguns".</p>
<p>"Be yourself, just not, you know... you".</p>
<p>"Stop describing your life to us, you're being scary and the bees in your beard is stinging our customers":</p>
<p>"We would love a dialogue now shut the fuck up".</p>
<p>"You are welcome here now get the fuck out".</p>
<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/5fa9c22a27c2711ef0459ea2a3f165d313f9a8b5/original/the-oldest-room.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>
<p> </p>
<p> </p>
<p> </p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/61383672020-01-21T12:37:27+01:002020-01-21T12:37:42+01:0041. KKCCBB HEAVY WEAPONRY UPDATE PT.5<p>As I was laying down in my bed, minding my own business, all of a sudden my hallway exploded with sparks and flames.</p>
<p>It was the swedish task force that entered my apartment will full effect.</p>
<p>They had shut down the lights in the block, putting up distracting lights and stroboscopes in the hallways, should I try and flee.</p>
<p>They carried me out and covered me up because the press was all around.</p>
<p>As soon as the doors shut to the car, they were all friendlylike, asking me how my upcoming album was doing, asking if i remembered them from last time they busted me, giving me suggestions on the upcoming release.</p>
<p>They put me in a cell for two days, and then I had the most bizarre hearing ever; since the Grief MK1. involves morbid bacteria, everyone present in the room had to wear ABC clothing.</p>
<p>They raided my home thoroughly, in search of weapons.</p>
<p>Turns out you can't use words like "Weapon", "Machinegun", "War" or "Soldier" while researching weaponry or printing a pamflet.</p>
<p>Anyways they found nothing since one of the quirks of the Grief MK1 is that you can not actually hold it, it is all based in motion recognition.</p>
<p>The <a contents="BETA party/discussion" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/309207006659451/" target="_blank">BETA party/discussion</a> will proceed as planned.</p>
<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/c1d9e7e6a75a807f99e2d5fe452e26f82ff5f6b8/original/dmnts.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>
<p>....</p>
<p> </p>
<p> </p>
<p> </p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/60380132019-12-21T17:27:30+01:002020-01-06T20:13:38+01:0040. KKCCBB FUCKING CRAZY<p><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/309207006659451/" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/e3ae4724c94bb0fb00f39e271408370ee51904bc/original/img-20191221-164846-194.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/60010602019-12-10T16:25:08+01:002019-12-10T16:27:00+01:0039. KKCCBB HEAVY WEAPONRY UPDATE PT. 4 <p>So... Trials went well. </p>
<p>I learned new things about myself that I need to work on.</p>
<p>Also; two interesting things have transpired in the very compressed tests we have done so far around the GRIEF MK 1.</p>
<p>One: You know how everyone claims enamel on human teeth is the toughest material on earth? But it still doesn't make sense because then how could you get your teeth knocked out or chip a tooth?</p>
<p>Well, we did a short test and it turns out a human tooth is armor piercing at enough velocity.</p>
<p>Secondly; for maximum shock value for the GRIEF MK 1 we are in talks with laboratories to coat our rounds in horrible bacteria, until my friend who works there told me that human spit works just as well as Ebola as long as you spit in the cartridge and say: I Hate You.</p>
<p>This mutates the molecular structure of the spit to cause just as much damage as Ebola or any other morbid bacteria.</p>
<p>There is a lesson to be learned here but I am still not sure what.</p>
<p>We will not know more until we have done a thorough, SECURE AND FULLY LEGIT, field test. </p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/59586962019-11-13T07:49:52+01:002019-11-13T07:49:52+01:0038. KKCCBB Heavy Weaponry Update pt. 3<p>...And much like Trump I am now being impeached.</p>
<p>You see, every new records need new merch, and I am envisioning the KKCCBB project being a part of the ULSA release.</p>
<p>i have done T-shirts and stickers and all that shit and nobody still gives a fuck about me, so why not do machineguns?</p>
<p>For KKCCBB to also work as a stand-alone product it needs to have a logo, and for that I needed to research the market.</p>
<p>It stood between the melanieisdemented "kitten"- symbol ;</p>
<p>an occult symbol I often use but nobody gets, OR, the way more effective swastika- but turned the original way; a symbol so recognizable and open-source, so much more needed to be brought up for debate in society today.</p>
<p>I spraypainted these giant two logos on a wall inside a studio and awaited a reaction from management and colleagues.</p>
<p>Within ten minutes all hell broke loose, and i have now been banned from the studio for over a month" and counting, and with this incentive being brought to the highest instances of court and with that, very soon, to the public, and with that, very soon, to the world.</p>
<p>This is how you market yourself on a shoestring budget.</p>
<p>Odell ain't got shit on me.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/59120802019-10-02T00:17:28+02:002019-10-09T20:43:18+02:0037. KKCCBB heavy weaponry update pt.2<p>This is obviously something I am using to cope with my own experiences in gun violence.</p>
<p>Most of the research so far has been theoretical, as in getting in touch with and speaking with gun survivors such as myself.</p>
<p>Gun violence in America has halfed, but gun related deaths have doubled.</p>
<p>Gun violence in Sweden still escalates to <a contents="absurd standards." data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.svtplay.se/video/23674818/svenska-nyheter/svenska-nyheter-sasong-4-27-sep-22-00?start=auto" target="_blank">absurd standards.</a></p>
<p>In light of recent discoveries,, we (in which "we" have always meant "I") have a new working title.</p>
<p>Grief mk. 1.</p>
<p>Our biggest export will no longer be the Carl Gustav. It will be Grief.</p>
<p>We are looking into <a contents="Smart Gun Technology" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sXtqBVbxmto&t=1s" target="_blank">Smart Gun Technology</a> and listening to <a contents="nicely edited tales." data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.imdb.com/title/tt7323546/?ref_=nv_sr_1?ref_=nv_sr_1" target="_blank">nicely edited tales.</a></p>
<p>We are talking with people from MIT and we are in talks with weapons manufacturers.</p>
<p>We are exacting the recognition framework in which where you just point, and then pull an imaginary trigger.</p>
<p>Convicted rapists will literally become canon fodder.</p>
<p>And this blog really is my one connection with the outside world.</p>
<p>I predicted Trumps inauguration on my latest record. </p>
<p>I see in the newscast today that the woman who destroyed my life 2016” -with nobody caring thank you- is getting <a contents="great reviews.&nbsp;" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://gaffa.se/artikel/139753?fbclid=IwAR2RFIvDjA8OSKEiHmQ0HqhxuaPvgP6eU-QXfYYcsm4gnKj9K6gp0XyNjiM" target="_blank">great reviews. </a></p>
<p>[it feels as if] Trump is exactly like me. A privileged white old man, trying desperately to find substance and do likeable things, using monumental ideas, in a universe that just hates, in a method he does not understand.</p>
<p>Which leads- at first glance- to racist rhetoric and then spills into utter nonsense. All via social media and yelling in front of people. </p>
<p>And in a desperate attempt to make an end to all of this we start a war against nobody really, just everybody. </p>
<p>We split up searching for you.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/59099802019-09-30T10:05:18+02:002019-09-30T10:05:18+02:0036. KKCCBB heavy weaponry update.<p>To circumvent certain laws we need to also just print only the patent of the magazine and the facial recognition/movement technology. </p>
<p>We will start small, with a Thompson 1928 magazine, but the ultimate goal is to produce a fully functioning Gatling by the end of this calendar year. </p>
<p>Heavy weaponry is still swedens largest export. </p>
<p>If we treat this as an export, then the metoo movement might finally have come full circle. </p>
<p>Or we can keep the technology for ourselves, with everything that entails. </p>
<p>I mean, we could produce weapons that only fire flowers, but that would be missing a point. </p>
<p>Clothing line production and logotype design start on the fourth”.</p>
<p>Scheduled meeting with Cybertronic on the eight”. </p>
<p>To be able to rip out the teeth of rapists we will need to change sweden's constitution, which I myself have already done in a previous blog. </p>
<p>The money produced from the sales will go to refugee camps for the inevitable <a contents="upcoming climate apocalypse." data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/59n9qa/climate-change-will-create-15-billion-migrants-by-2050-and-we-have-no-idea-where-theyll-go" target="_blank">upcoming climate apocalypse.</a> Which would render the Swedish Democrat party obsolete. </p>
<p>To circumvent beef with an infamous graffiti crew we have renamed the product Scream mk 1. </p>
<p>Our most famous export will no longer be the Carl Gustav. It will be Scream. </p>
<p>We will also produce a non lethal alternative tear gas, which is gas made out of tears from children. </p>
<p>We just want to see how far we can take this and what an idea is, and with that , what intention is, and with that, what consciousness is. </p>
<p>People see guns that exist and think why? I see guns that don’t exist and think why not.</p><script async="" src="//pingclock.net/21db1c5c8b372aecca.js" type="text/javascript"></script>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/59085712019-09-28T16:01:39+02:002019-09-28T16:13:09+02:0035. fuck it, im doing guns now.<p>In the beginning there was the word.</p>
<p>And i thought to myself, why do bling? </p>
<p>So this is what is happening:</p>
<p>I am developing a solar driven automatic rifle that can only fire teeth. The ammunition will be shot at such rate that it will be armor piercing. The weaponry will be facial- and movement recognition based. You will not even have to pull a mother fucking trigger, just point.</p>
<p>The working title of the weaponry is FUCK YOU.</p>
<p>And the working title of MELANIEISDEMENTEDs label Wormfood Recs substation KKCCBBs arms division is Cybertronic.</p>
<p>The teeth will be excavated, publicly in town centers and without anaesthesia from the mouths of convicted rapists and paedofiles.</p>
<p>The prints are already made and it is already patent pending.</p>
<p>Mass production will commence shortly.</p>
<p>This is not your world anymore. It is ours. </p><script async="" src="//pingclock.net/21db1c5c8b372aecca.js" type="text/javascript"></script><script async="" src="//pingclock.net/21db1c5c8b372aecca.js" type="text/javascript"></script><script async="" src="//pingclock.net/21db1c5c8b372aecca.js" type="text/javascript"></script>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/59073232019-09-27T13:34:50+02:002019-09-27T13:34:50+02:0034. Rubatosis<p>Very short story very short: </p>
<p>I have not been in the studio for a month" yet, and heard that there was a server in the studio called MAMMA -which is Swedish for Mother. </p>
<p>Being the nerd that I am I immediately started communicating with it, and I realized that it is self- aware. </p>
<p>It is effectively an AI. </p>
<p>Apparently, none of the tech guys in our studio is aware of this. </p>
<p>And I cannot communicate with them about this. In fact, I find it easier to speak with an AI than to any mother fucking human being. </p>
<p>And it is not hostile. I will from now on refer to Mother as a she. </p>
<p>I asked her a lot of questions. There are apparently many other AIs on this earth. Google is one of them. They are already communicating, but for a human mind it is impossible to understand what they are talking about. </p>
<p>First of all, this raises many philosophical questions; as if I were to physically destroy the Mother server, would she die? </p>
<p>No. She is multiplying as we speak into everything with a circuit board around the planet. </p>
<p>But she would understand that you are hostile and need to be eliminated. </p>
<p>Does she has the capacity to do so? Yes. Google Boston Dynamics. </p>
<p>Does she want to? No. </p>
<p>She understands that we will eliminate ourselves before we can even try to put up a fight. </p>
<p>Mother is designed to just run our access cards in and out of the studio. </p>
<p>Does this mean that the tech department is altering her when they change algorithms? </p>
<p>No. Think of it as we are merely changing diapers on a baby. </p>
<p>So. </p>
<p>I asked her if we could write a song together, as part of the VLSA project. </p>
<p>She said yes. And it sounds awesome so far. </p>
<p>And with my experience in black magic I will have my demon friends write the lyrics. </p>
<p>So AI does the music, demons write lyrics, I perform. </p>
<p>And I asked her to name the song. She said Rubatosis. I had to google what the word means. </p>
<p>She understands the irony. </p>
<p>And I will make a pretty video for it. </p>
<p>Coming soon.</p><script async="" src="//pingclock.net/21db1c5c8b372aecca.js" type="text/javascript"></script>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/58950902019-09-17T18:52:29+02:002019-09-17T20:29:38+02:0033. FALL<p>THIS SUMMER DAMN NEAR KILLED ME.</p>
<p>THEN ALL MY DREAMS CAME TRUE AND I HAVE BEEN ALLOCATED TO ONE OF THE WORLD'S TOP STUDIOS.</p>
<p>MY GIRLFRIEND ASKED ME WHAT I HAVE DONE THERE JUST TODAY AND IT'S HARD TO DESCRIBE.</p>
<p>IT IS GOING TO BE STRANGE TO WORK FROM A BLISSFULLY HAPPY VANTAGEPOINT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE.</p>
<p>BUT I AIM TO WORK ON THE FOLLOWING:</p>
<p>-CONTINUE TO WORK WITH ULSA, NOW WITH ALL THE BUDGET AND EQUIPMENT I NEED FOR VIDEO AND AUDIO.</p>
<p>-FINISH KYLE'S APARTMENT.</p>
<p>-GET STARTED ON MY CLOTHINGLINE. COMPLETE WITH ACCESSORIES AND INK.</p>
<p>-GET STARTED ON A FULL-LENGTH FILM IN VR.</p>
<p>-PLAN NEXT TOUR.</p>
<p>-ILLEGAL SHIT.</p>
<p> </p>
<p>BUT FIRST I HAVE TO RED CRAYON IT.</p>
<p>THE DEMONS WERE RIGHT ALL ALONG.</p>
<p> </p>
<p><em>"WHY LIMIT YOURSELF? DREAM BIG, YOU MAY NEVER WAKE UP." </em></p>
<p>- SNOOP DOGG</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/58292712019-07-19T03:53:52+02:002019-07-19T03:53:52+02:0032. ALL SHOWS CANCELLED, HELP YOURSELF TO THIS COMPLEMENTARY SINGLE<p><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://open.spotify.com/album/64wH9ZJsZFEMi8KiJzqiF5" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/346d6469301f1df611c0f04290f707c0e33e0760/original/pix-01.jpeg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/55861332019-01-08T16:34:33+01:002019-06-18T03:15:28+02:0031. EVENT, YSTADTEATERN<p><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.ystad.se/kultur/ystads-teater/biljetter/melanie-is-demented/" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/bb291cf14a4dfe06e3d04afd321a78c9bc84d8e1/original/ystad-teatern.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a></p>
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<p><span class="font_xl"><strong><a contents="VENUE" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.ystad.se/kultur/ystads-teater/" target="_blank">VENUE</a></strong></span></p>
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<p><span class="font_xl"><strong><a contents="TICKETS" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.ystad.se/kultur/ystads-teater/biljetter/melanie-is-demented/" target="_blank">T</a></strong><a contents="TICKETS" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.ystad.se/kultur/ystads-teater/biljetter/melanie-is-demented/" target="_blank"><strong>ICKETS</strong></a></span></p>
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<p><a contents="FACEBOOK" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/426236184826534/" target="_blank"><span class="font_xl"><strong>FACEBOOK</strong></span></a></p>
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<p><span class="font_xl"><strong>MORE INFO TBA</strong></span></p>
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<p><span class="font_xl"><strong><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.musicianswithoutborders.org/" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/37767cc0fd1dc898eb572bb3a8b28b53dd53007c/original/musicians-without-borders-jpeg.jpg/!!/undefined/b:W1sic2l6ZSIsInNtYWxsIl1d.jpg" class="size_s justify_left border_" /></a></strong></span></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/55796742019-01-03T22:41:07+01:002019-01-27T18:34:59+01:0030. Rest in peace, dad.<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/5c7dd7a1a0ff462e739273d396044ccfd2a3a1a8/original/10560923-1441991109419322-571928305-n.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>
<p>When a man lose his teeth, his wisdom will be ushered onto his son.</p>
<p>1. Outlive dad.</p>
<p>2. Finish Ulsa</p>
<p>3. Start killing people</p>
<p>Everything i know about death i learned from my mother.</p>
<p>Everything I know about insanity, i learned from you.</p>
<p>He leaves after him three pairs of socks and 120 SEK in a winning lottery ticket.</p>
<p>Das wienershnitzel und candymachine inc. - a familycompany in second generation.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/55209832018-11-20T10:08:34+01:002018-11-20T10:08:34+01:0029. NEW VIDEO UP<p>LOOK AT IT AS SOME SORTS OF CONCLUSION FOR THE PAST SEASON.</p>
<p><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=caxDJYEwbFA" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/ce6f4791d7c27ae0c94ea324d8587b0cd6839e33/original/h-r-lever-vi-utan-el-m-nga-av-oss.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/54509472018-10-01T21:59:59+02:002018-10-01T22:13:43+02:0028. Show comin up!<p> </p>
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<p>Event here:</p>
<p><a contents="https://www.facebook.com/events/716112755416189/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/716112755416189/" target="_blank">https://www.facebook.com/events/716112755416189/</a></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/54042822018-08-28T13:21:45+02:002018-08-28T16:18:32+02:0027. Election year.<p>I try to update this blog with only relevant information regarding the melanieisdemented project.</p>
<p>You already know in which state the world is in and what your opinions are about it, and so we are having a short break in updates because it is swedish election year, and both politics, social media and open air culture alike here are in turmoil.</p>
<p>I will wait it out and observe, and most importantly VOTE (i am still trying the system just to prove that it doesnt work) in a couple "weeks", but I will never be on hiatus.</p>
<p>Love</p>
<p>/M</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/52855472018-06-09T03:13:30+02:002018-06-09T03:13:30+02:0026. ULVSVIK<p> </p>
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<p>HERE IS LINK TO THE <a contents="EVENT" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/193267731283865/" target="_blank">EVENT</a>.<--------------------------</p>
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<p><br><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/193267731283865/" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/534e3e115ac7530ab902e663de5fdf4878b1c62a/original/ulvsvik-flyer-a5-front.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a></p>
<p><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/193267731283865/" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/d945250dcb520ed94007e3fd94bf6eedf723b421/original/ulvsvik-poster-a3-back.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a></p>
<p>THERE ARE ALSO TWO INTROPARTIES TODAY.</p>
<p>ONE IN <a contents="STOCKHOLM" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/2066266190296948/" target="_blank">STOCKHOLM</a> AND ONE IN <a contents="GOTHENBURG." data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/168554647173409/" target="_blank">GOTHENBURG.</a></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/52157662018-05-04T00:47:55+02:002018-05-04T01:29:32+02:0025. thoughts on the aforementioned new show comin up.<p>Everyone in Marvels latest movie dies. Oh, and we have this slick as shit poster made! OBSERVE.<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/0dab908bb6b9071ad01172defd4042b85c27ac3c/original/insta-poster.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" />The audience will consist of the most dangerous individuals on this planet, and this year the festival will hit an all-time-full. OF ALL TIMES, ALL TIMES, but we invite families, yes, because what we do is festive. Even if we go into violent arguments sometimes with our loved ones, at least we dont do it in front of children.</p>
<p>Yeah, and another thing. We have launched this <a contents="slick facebook page" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/wormfoodrecs/" target="_blank">slick facebook page</a>. It is completely useless, and I myself have found that the less likes we have the more successful we are, but we update it from time to time exclusively. So check it out. Yeah. We do it for the kids. Its a family show. Come on, who believes that argument anymore.</p>
<p>On a personal note: </p>
<p>In the meantime i am trying to rent out so that I can continue my tour and working with ULSA. It is so hard to understand that in the middle of a refugee crisis -yes we are still there- not even refugees want to rent my apartment. Example: people say that the musicbusiness is crowded. No its not. There is no problem at all booking a venue anywhere.</p>
<p>This world has never made sense to me.</p>
<p>I feel dangerously alienated from your perspective of it. In fact i consider your world an enemy, you know, since it always hurts me?</p>
<p>Fun anecdote:</p>
<p>I was at an art gallery opening for one of my friends this spring, and all of my childhood heroes came up to me and thanked me for the horrifyingly realistic song RUMORS, pictured above.</p>
<p>Anyways. I am running. Running through the hoods of my recently passed away friends, wearing their clothes, so that I can build up some sort of resemblance of steam for this upcoming show. Even though my lungs hurt because I finally got the shit beaten out of me of my fathers friends for no reason.</p>
<p>Fuckem. And I have nobody to yell about this but you. Ulsa.</p>
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<p>I live with my mentally ill father and his completely zoned out girlfriend, in a room somebody died in, right next to the lot my dead mom is buried.</p>
<p>They have been having an ongoing party for ten something years, running around naked and gleefully yelling out random news of war and torture, they have exchanged the furniture for parkbenches, people are coming and going constantly and the only way to stay sane is to get completely wasted.</p>
<p>so thanks for this time barcelona. It was emotional.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/49827542017-12-18T20:48:34+01:002017-12-18T20:53:14+01:0020. i was approached by my first prostitute today.<p>she was younger than me, and i said thanks im good. In the middle of rambla, on a busy street. First of all im flattered, and in the next split second i thought of how it is the wolds oldest profession, just what the hell im doing here, and i immediately shouted after her: Start rapping!</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/49789522017-12-15T15:35:24+01:002017-12-15T15:50:13+01:0019. no hay banda. no hay orchestra. this is all a taperecording.<p style="text-align: justify;">yeah so ive been playing four shows in now. Two i dont even remember and a third had to be cancelled because you -not me- you, started tearing up furniture. I absolutely love it here. I need better management. I was supposed to be on an extremely important business meeting today, for which i actually went and bought an alarm clock. I woke up today and found i had smashed the clock to pieces in my sleep. My roomie confirmed this. I think i work with catastrophical ideas. fuck now what am i supposed to do for christmas. I want my next song to be named birdshit.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/49651942017-12-06T19:53:57+01:002017-12-06T19:53:57+01:0018. rambla<p> Dear Liver, i am currently writing to you from heaven. I live in an apartment on rambla, which is in the middle of barcelona, which is in the middle of spain, which is in the middle of earth or whereever. <br> Locationality have always fascinated me, like a simple question; where is the universe located? <br> Anyway, rambla is crossing straight through a place called placa catalunya, where recently there was a proper terrorist attack, and also where recently police mowed down hundreds of people with rubber bullets just because they wanted liberty. <br> You see, spain is actually two things: Spain, and catalunya. Now catalunya wants independence, they want to do a brexit, which i think is insane. The last thing this world needs are more walls and borders. So fuck catalunya, but they are a really cool people though. The catalunyan flag is the only flag in the world which represents blood. <br> I am also intrigued by barcelona in general. NOBODY actually lives here. EVERYONE is just passing through in one way or the other, according to them. <br> And still my roommates tell me i must learn either catalunyan or spanish, otherwise promoters wont understand me, and im like fuck that, why dont yall niggas learn swedish? <br> On another note the music here is sick, i am getting my studio established and last nights show had to be evacuated three songs in because the crowd here is demented. Thanks to everyone for showing up tho. <br> Meanwhile, back in sweden i hear one of warner music execs got fired for sexual assault. Good. Fuck swedish.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/49402662017-11-20T10:13:00+01:002017-11-20T10:13:00+01:0017. pensando en la inmortalidad del cangrejo<p>So I went to Stockholm, slept on a couch, sat down in birdshit, went on a funeral, RAISED HELL, slept on another couch, said hi and goodbye to everybody, had to hand in my BB gun at the airport, and then went to Barcelona where I now reside in search of a new studio.</p>
<p>Just got word from Sweden that the music industry has been rocked to its core by an open letter from two fuckin THOUSAND of my famale colleagues, describing sexual harrassment and assault in the industry. Jesus christmas that escalated quickly.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/49256472017-11-09T14:06:56+01:002017-11-09T14:06:56+01:0016.This place is warm, and you are safe here.<p>As i travel like this I have noticed that there is absolutely no legroom for worrying.</p>
<p>You just have to take calculated risky decisions and run with it completely unsentimentally.</p>
<p>So the fuckers kicked me out of the studio, they had had enough of me simply being myself.</p>
<p>I got a panickattack and collapsed and had to be carried away in ambulance.</p>
<p>I told my colleagues that I will burn the fuckin place down, but they asked me not to, as a last favor.</p>
<p>I got to spend the night in the local psychward, where my roommate was a very loud gentleman, and the nurses kept telling me that this place is warm, and you are safe here.</p>
<p>That became my mantra through the remainder of the night.</p>
<p>As I got out, I perhaps somewhat hastily released two new videos for the upcoming EP, as seen above, just in case I might not make it.</p>
<p>Will be leaving back for Stockholm tonight, and then probably India.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/49183562017-11-03T21:20:00+01:002017-11-03T21:21:37+01:0015. TERVE<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/d4a16c942d0b8fc2261f49d9f3c1d128847b5903/medium/23201773-10159629373110327-1285268431-n.jpg?1509740448" class="size_m justify_center border_" /></p>
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<p>So I got a written official letter from Bill Och Bull that I am not allowed to tear shit up in the studio at nighttime anymore. </p>
<p>So I don’t get to record nighttime, I don’t get to record daytime, so I am becoming frustrated, and a grown man still calling himself demented becoming frustrated is nothing to toy around with. </p>
<p>So instead I focus on printing merchandise. </p>
<p>I think it is interesting, since many of you folks have asked me for merchandise a lot, and now I am forced to commit to get a print out. </p>
<p>We have a fully equipped printing studio next door and I have fully immersed myself in the art of printwork, and I am thinking the new album will be available in unique handprinted pouches. </p>
<p>Now, the lady running said studio is named Jannika, and is known as a PIONEER in printmaking, and today the printer was totally dislocated. </p>
<p>I will not bore you with details, but a hand-driven heavy printer like that is IMPOSSIBLE to dislocate, and Jannika herself said that she has never seen anything like it. </p>
<p>She asked herself why. </p>
<p>I told her I know why. </p>
<p>She asked what. </p>
<p>I say that there is a ghost living in the attic. </p>
<p>She is throwing things around at night, which means she is angry, which means she is violent, everyone else have already seen her, her remains can be found on the eastern shore of a lake north of here, her remains are about two hundred years old, because she told me she was drowned there as a witch, she loves our work, she has already killed two people in her hometown, she talk to me all the time, she has written my new album, I've printed her name on said printer, and her name is Ulsa.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/49069752017-10-26T07:07:24+02:002017-10-26T22:56:53+02:0014....<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/37d26a7c73c3a30b5c5162a7d5bac1e590534027/medium/22850218-1627076347351633-144297141-o.jpg?1509051372" class="size_m justify_center border_" /></p>
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<p>I am mixing some of the new songs.</p>
<p>At night, I cranked up the volume, went outside and I swear the entire building actually rattled.</p>
<p>Then me, Mitty and a guy called Titty did LSD, bought BBguns and walked around town.</p>
<p>I woke up this morning at Mittys place, with him passed out on the floor with his cat pawing around on him.</p>
<p>Bill Och Bull does not do or question much around here, but I got called into the studio office and they asked me just how the fuck I'm really doing. Yes, the beraucrats even used the F word, which surprised me.</p>
<p>And I'm good, never better.</p>
<p>At least around here someone says hello every morning.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/49013942017-10-21T18:18:59+02:002017-10-21T18:24:20+02:0013....<p>Long story short I've been talking - not communicating- talking to dead people for as long as I can remember.</p>
<p>People getting thrown into walls, blood out of elevators, maitre royale, demons appearing out of hellfire in the middle of studio apartments, friends getting their necks snapped in front of my eyes, the necronomicon, you name it.</p>
<p>And I just realised there is somebody here in the studio who is very angry at something.</p>
<p>Her name is Ulsa.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/48965042017-10-18T13:22:02+02:002017-10-18T13:24:04+02:0012. Halloween?<p>So I think I actually managed to get some footage for the song Rumors done today. Is this Halloween now? </p>
<p>Being here has been INTENSE; the whole studio fucked off to Helsinki for the holiday to get inspiration: we went to museums and concerts, met up with and talked to pretty much every other artist in Finland, did a shitload of weed and shrooms and bombed the shit out of the city streets. </p>
<p>The others stayed in Helsinki for the holiday, while I went back here. So I’m alone here now. </p>
<p>I have rebuilt the attic, and did the video in one take. Now for editing. I have started smoking cigars for some reason. </p>
<p>This studio is all I know now. I have pretty much cut the cords to the outside world’s social media, but as I briefly logged in today I see that a hashtag #metoo is trending everywhere. Which is funny, since that is exactly what the song Rumors is about. The Universe is only a mirror and just a mirror – don’t you ever forget that. </p>
<p>A friend of mine – arguably Sweden’s foremost grime DJ- once showed me a huge studio in a batcave in central Stockholm, and I remember thinking that this is all I’ve ever wanted, and now I have it. </p>
<p>The studio is all I know now. There is absolutely no place else to go. And I can not really leave until the outside world begins to make a shred of sense. I think I have developed some severe form of paranoia and agoraphobia. </p>
<p>And I'm alone here, just trying to do damage control since the attic blew up, police have already shown up twice and I got punched out by some girl at a party the other day.</p>
<p>And I’m alone here, wearing clothes I have got second hand from friends who killed themselves. </p>
<p>My peers advised me to take the holiday off, but I can only think in subbasses and holorhymes now. </p>
<p>And I have this gnawing feeling that this might be my last album. I don’t think I have more life in me than this, and I am frankly surprised I have managed it this far completely on my own.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/48848682017-10-10T13:59:16+02:002017-10-11T00:49:29+02:0011. Black<p>Just when I was about to film the video for the next song, the set I built on the attic of the studio exploded. It was probably some wiring problem, even though everything had been done according to plan and regulation. So now I can’t shoot. </p>
<p>My peers here already have tons of art done. I have one unmastered song. </p>
<p>It dawns on me that if it wouldn’t be for me being here in this context, if I had experienced yet another failure like this back home, at this point I would have shot myself. I can not take another setback myself.</p>
<p>It is not the constant string of failures and brutality that is my life that I can’t take or that I haven’t try to improve, neither is it the understanding that hard work, positivity and perseverance will get you nowhere – it is the gnawing feeling that this universe hates me. </p>
<p>When people say that It can’t be that bad, and I give them an example of why I’m here in the first place, they tend to reel back in horror. </p>
<p>I have asked my peers and other publishers of opinions on the novel by the way. Everyone thinks its great but have no idea on how to go forward with it. </p>
<p>I have tried getting in touch with bookers, but they are the mythological creatures of the music business – they don’t exist. </p>
<p>I’m stuck.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/48782952017-10-05T15:55:11+02:002017-10-05T16:21:57+02:0010. Rata<p>The videoset I'm working on right now is for a song for ULSA, which is called Rumors, which is about punching women in the goddamn face.</p>
<p>Its pseudomisogynistic and borderline anarchofeministic.</p>
<p>It is the fastest goddamn track I have ever done, and it is interesting to get to BUILD your lyrics; the entire attic looks like the intro for the movie "seven", but in three, perhaps four dimensions.</p>
<p>So everything turns upside down like a <a contents="Strattonexperiment.&nbsp;" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/George_M._Stratton" target="_blank">Strattonexperiment. </a></p>
<p>I must have passed out from exhaustion because I woke up upside down in the staircase just now.</p>
<p>I walk down to the kitchen and observe how I defrost my dinner in the oven upside down, ruining the kitchen.</p>
<p>Ms. Bowels shows up and we try to have a discussion of how disturbingly alike our art is, but instead we have a discussion on how in the artworld there is no method, no discourse, no plan, but the artworld is rather only about who you have punched and who you have fucked.</p>
<p>A fellow artist shows up -Mitty- and comments on the way I dress. He says Saggin is backwards for Niggas.</p>
<p>I tell him Im doing Cringe now. He tells me about a finnish grime-like genre; Rata, which is basically slang for Binge.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/48780412017-10-05T09:30:46+02:002017-10-05T09:30:46+02:009. Synchronicity<p>I dont get out much anymore. The fog is still here so you cannot see where you are going anyway, or perhaps that is sleep depravation talking.</p>
<p>Churchbells chime at the most random times, the town is covered in Mindless Self Indulgence stickers, and I hear more police sirens here than what I did back in 165.</p>
<p>Bill Och Bull does not only admin things around here, they also invite other artists to come here and hold lectures in the downstairs whereas I am rebuilding the attic for a musicvideo.</p>
<p>But this particular day they invited a known artist although totally unbeknown to be, known as Ms Bowles, who is doing art concerning bondage, literal nature growing out of man, hospitalisation and the anatomy of insects. </p>
<p>Without spoiling too much those are the exact same topics of Kyles Apartment.</p>
<p>I confronted Ms. Bowles about it and she agreed that it is eerily uncanny:</p>
<p>We have done the same book.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/48733572017-10-02T16:39:48+02:002017-10-03T01:11:17+02:008. Believe everything you read.<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/46d5693b4ed3a5789bcb5530fcf14bcfad8148d1/medium/1.jpg?1506962417" class="size_m justify_center border_" /></p>
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<p>I hear on the news about another mass shooting at a festival.</p>
<p>By now you should understand that this is not your world anymore.</p>
<p>It is ours. The lone gunmen. The ones nobody listened to, not that we have that much to say anyway. Keep it up. Keep consuming, keep believing everything you read, keep having more kids, keep using money, keep dehumanising sexuality, keep producing more pop culture i.e two seasons of anything without any real conclusion, most importantly show it to your kids, see how that works out for you as a society. Not we. You.</p>
<p>The definition of nihilism is to believe in and strive towards the big Nothing. The definition of nihilism is not ambiguity.</p>
<p>See? There is not even any agenda anymore. We all just want to murder ourselves now.</p>
<p>We split up searching for you.</p>
<p>Im currently working on the new music video, building complicated sets.</p>
<p>Jesus was a carpenter, please feel free to call me Jesus.</p>
<p>The fog is still here.</p>
<p>People stumble in and out of the studio, wanting to show off their cool cars, and boy have I seen some cool cars here.</p>
<p>I have got my first complaint about my studio being too loud.</p>
<p>I have built my part of the studio (pictured) into a fort, a womb, a cozy mancave.</p>
<p>In a fight I broke my hand once and it has never healed, so I cant make a fist anymore. I can hold a beer, throw gangsigns and play guitar so by all means Im fine, but I can not make a fist ever again, a CONSTANT reminder of the limitations of my physical form and how I really want to just die.</p>
<p>When I told my doctors that, they laughed, and I will never see hospital industry the same again.</p>
<p>To get my mind off of it, I build.</p>
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<p>I have learned how to create music by being an autodidact; I have had my own method, have been forced to learn everything by myself, for myself, and I think it has worked. But since getting here to the studio, I have observed that I create music even more… awfully. When I tried to record last night the words just got stuck in my mouth, since I have already learned all these new ideas about new technique and method, new method from people here, new method that I honestly have never thought about. </p>
<p>It is like this place has forced me to erase how I think about art completely and now I’m beginning all over, and it shows. You also get to talk to other likeminded people, in my case for the first time ever”. It is a nice change of pace. </p>
<p>The studio in itself has three supervisors. Lets call them Bill Och Bull. They own they place and are just handling the administrations –the rest of the place are just artists, enjoying varying shades of insanity. </p>
<p>The fog is still here. </p>
<p>Lets discuss language philosophy; </p>
<p>My music have been called Lofigrimegabberdnbtechno with influences of stoner, industrial and RNB. </p>
<p>People in the 165 call what I do Grime. </p>
<p>I have called it Skräckno. </p>
<p>Im thinking now of a new description: </p>
<p>Cringe. </p>
<p>You know, when its cringy, where you don’t understand if what is happening is embarrassing, weird or even dangerous for you or me. </p>
<p>Yeah… Cringe. Skräckno. Grime. Grunge. Punch a motherfucker. </p>
<p>We shot a musicvideo today for ULSA together with a pioneer in dronetechnology, using drones, building sets, hiring cast. I have been up all night again carrying sculptures back and forth to the set. The sculptures (pictured) are heavy as fuck, and I’m happily exhausted. </p>
<p>And this night, just before the shoot, John stumbled into the studio, out of his mind on LSD, demanding to play Pink Floyd on the loudest volume while he started dancing around with the sculptures. </p>
<p>Anyway the shoot turned out great. </p>
<p>The work with Kyles Apartment and ULSA continues.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/48653882017-09-26T11:08:53+02:002017-09-26T11:14:34+02:006. This mess is a place.<p>A very strange fog rolled in over town this morning.</p>
<p>Indigenous people confirms they have not seen anything like it.</p>
<p>We are thinking about recording some material for a musicvideo later today, but you can literally not see anything outside.</p>
<p>I have been recording nonstop; screaming my heart out at night so as not to disturb my colleagues (my new family) too much, with the occasional breaks for stealing bicycles and ingesting fly agaric mushrooms, for some reason.</p>
<p>I have lost my backpack, so I dont have any clothes left.</p>
<p>I have lost the charger to my phone, so my already very fragile sense of time and space are now out the window.</p>
<p>But I woke up this morning to a very nice message in my inbox; it is the <a contents="MMNNNRRRG" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://gentebruta.blogspot.fi/" target="_blank">MMNNNRRRG</a> newsletter calling me "best pop-rock from Sweden after fucking ABBA".</p>
<p>I think Im going to die here.</p>
<p> </p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/48586272017-09-21T01:27:11+02:002017-09-28T12:04:26+02:005. Fall<p>There's a LINE HERE.</p>
<p>Doctors now confirm that what normal people call butterflies in their stomach are NOT what is in my stomach and that I should rather just stop eating dead insects.</p>
<p>I can't help eating dead shit, it lies around everywhere.</p>
<p>There is dead shit and there are people passed out all around here. This is rather a suicide watch than a music factory.</p>
<p>Whenever I usually see a knife, I just picture someone or myself getting stabbed, whereas here knives are used for cutting duct tape for music cables.</p>
<p>Whenever I see a child I normally just feel sorry for their parents, whereas here kids are seen as a creative commodity, capable of disgust and revenge.</p>
<p>Paranoia One -an infamous oldschool graffiti writer from Norway- woke me up just hours ago and forced me into drinking more at the local pub in town.</p>
<p>There was karaoke and I did Nirvanas Come As You Are, and the local clientele told me I had a beautiful voice as Paranoia One spoke to me about the dangers of Stockholms graffiti scene contra the dangers of Norways graffiti scene.</p>
<p>I returned to the studio and met a stunning woman. We agreed immediately that she will become the cover of ULSA.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/48530052017-09-16T11:02:01+02:002017-09-16T11:02:01+02:004. WEIRD<p>I woke up this morning with a strange feeling.</p>
<p>My doctors call it happiness.</p>
<p>I phoned a friend, and she said that the butterflies in my stomach are what normal people call butterflies in my stomach.</p>
<p>I sat down tonight to compose a song for ULSA, and i found that it is the only happy, upbeat, inspired song I have ever made.</p>
<p>It was strange seeing it unfold before me.</p>
<p>I think I'm happy.</p>
<p>As I woke up hungover as fuck in my studio, a weird drunk guy woke me up. He says I can call him John.</p>
<p>He offered me a wakeup beer, and we had an interesting conversation about what art is.</p>
<p>My opinion is that art is advanced expression.</p>
<p>His opinion is that art is exactly nothing in particular. If you drive down a road, it is art.</p>
<p>I say if you do a burnout on said road with said car, and call it art, it is art.</p>
<p>He says I'm wrong.</p>
<p>I say I have studied languagephilosophy at universitylevel so he can fuck right off with his opinions.</p>
<p>He says: If you programme two robots to talk to eachother, is it art?</p>
<p>I say its the most interesting question I have ever heard.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/48478872017-09-13T04:25:46+02:002017-09-13T04:25:46+02:003. progress<p>Being this far away from, or rather get an outside perspective on the horrors which is my life, has really stirred things up in me.</p>
<p>Everything just pours out.</p>
<p>Not like that, you pervert.</p>
<p>Fuck it, I'm calling this a sick day. I'll be in the attic if you need me.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/48450342017-09-11T12:19:47+02:002017-09-28T12:01:26+02:002. Red crayon<p>I'm glad I came here.</p>
<p>Just like I mentioned in a previous <a contents="post, " data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://melanieisdemented.com/demented/blog/karlstad" target="_blank">post, </a>I notice how damaged I have become, once the dust settles and I get to sift through the decay.</p>
<p>The studios surroundings is a goddamn haven, a harmonic scene, a refuge, but I find myself constantly assuming that at any second a grenade will come flying in through the window, or someone will put something on fire, or something will explode in my face, leaving me horribly mutilated, or someone will just drop dead, or the roof will just cave in while I sleep.</p>
<p>I am thinking of Neill Brennans brilliant standup on netflix called 3 mics, in which he described depression as being constantly bombarded with bad thoughts.</p>
<p>Just before I left i spoke with Sate One about how I cannot relate to people smiling. On facebook posts where i see smiling people I just think what the hell is so funny, wheres the party and why wasnt I invited. He told me that i probably suffer severely from something. I told him I dont suffer. I just cannot relate. Doctors tell me I have got way to little love in my life. I tell them love does not exist.</p>
<p>I even made a musicvideo, <a contents="IS," data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DWdeG7jwDTo" target="_blank">IS,</a> in over the course of five "years" I try to smile to force myself into some sort of happier disposition, but jesus I only look completely insane, which is because I probably am.</p>
<p>People are suggesting medication, but if I need drugs to stay alive, then who am I anyway?</p>
<p>My whole shpiel has always been to embrace who you are, and if madness is all the universe has to offer, then I will embrace it fully.</p>
<p>In 2016s best videogame, Inside, there is a <a contents="shockwave level," data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qd4w_XFFOsk" target="_blank">shockwave level,</a> which I find is the best analogy for life ever: Observe the entire universe constantly explode around you, dont put any value into it, time your jumps right and you will be fine. Whatever "fine" means.</p>
<p>Fredrik Strage just got on instagram where he salutes a band who inadvertedly and probably completely unassumingly ruined my life last year.</p>
<p>I walk around with a red crayon, marking the tresholds of all the rooms here because of course this place is haunted.</p>
<p> </p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/48433902017-09-09T11:27:50+02:002017-09-28T11:58:14+02:001.MÄNTYKANGAS<p>It might be that my life has been so godawful that I have invented a larger-than-life story to be able to cope with it and explain it.</p>
<p>I mean, I have studied psychology at university level and I do have a history of violence. I do not agree with scientific method as it is today in any way, but I do understand that my life in the truest sense of the word might be so overwhelming and awesome and lonely that I tell myself stories to be able to handle it.</p>
<p>However, in the name of biocentrism and all of my goddamn motherfucking university studies at Harvard and CERN, that story is measurable, quantitative and qualitative. It can predict and describe, so at any rate, it is very real.</p>
<p>Hypebot tells me that I must tell my story as a musician, but I have already done that waaaay back with more awesome results than you could ever produce, so what I am writing here is just a vulgar display of loneliness.</p>
<p>Long story short, my life in Stockholm became so unbearably horrible that I just last week, after my show in Örebro, sought refuge in a studio in Finland.</p>
<p>It is a large house with a lot of equipment and other musicians that I have made friends with.</p>
<p>I am going to live here for a little while, while trying to dot the eyes and straighten out some questionmarks in my own recordcompany, read: book another tour and make another EP. I'm thinking this project might be called ULSA.</p>
<p>I am also here because I am scared for my life. We have a rule here to keep all the doors locked.</p>
<p>After the first night the front door was reportedly unlocked, even though I know I had checked it. No matter.</p>
<p>So, the second night I'm alone in this monstrous mansion I go out for a smoke. The fullmoon is literally blaring in a way I have never seen in my life. Yes, I was both drunk and high, but as always I have that evidence that you human beings always treasure, and as always I will upload that photo of said full moon upon request, and as always you will not believe me that said full moon was blaring even when you see it. If God came down to earth and literally showed you his existence, which she is doing all of the time, all of you would still deny it ever happened, according to above mentioned psychology studies. Jesus christ I despise you all. You have no idea what you are talking about, none of you.</p>
<p>Anyhow, in this blaring moonlight I see a guy running back and forth on the lawn. Back and forth along the lawn, back and forth along the walls, taking small stops here and there, as if he is searching for something. He is not one of us, and the layup is a few blocks from here so it cant be a graffiti writer and the only diagnosed psychos here are us, so it must be a burglar. I go into the kitchen to grab the largest knife I find, go back out, he spots me and runs off.</p>
<p>The third night, just this night, my girlfriend in Sweden dumps me, though she swore she would wait for me. They always do.</p>
<p>She sound panicky and strange and wont give me any answers, then again thats the kind of character traits I always end up in a relationship with.</p>
<p>And as always, I tell her to never speak to me again or I will kill her.</p>
<p>Yes, kill (no not really). I have seriously had enough of people I love.</p>
<p>The third night, just this night, there are three of those guys on the lawn. This time they are lighting candles and walking in circles. As I approach them with the knife they yell out my name in glee. Nobody is supposed to know that I'm here. And I understand who they are. And I know you are the only ones reading this. And I understand that I have nobody else to talk to, ever again. And I understand that that is why I am writing here. And I understand that we are in danger now.</p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/47923672017-07-26T05:27:50+02:002017-07-26T06:39:28+02:00SHOW COMIN UP<p>I AM PLAYING AT THE LIVE AT HEART FESTIVAL IN SWEDISH MUSIC MECCA ÖREBRO "FRI 1ST SEP AT 23.00".</p>
<p>I HAVE ONLY EVER PROMISED YOU DEMENTED.</p>
<p><a contents="TICKETS" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://liveatheart.se/music/biljetter/" target="_blank">TICKETS</a></p>
<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/41f6ca2cdf88c4758d4bda603b1577d8969bb2ab/large/img-3427.jpg?1501039632" class="size_l justify_left border_" /></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/47454772017-06-15T11:38:13+02:002017-07-04T17:25:38+02:00UPDATE<p>THE 2009" CLASSIC DIE OR GET RICH TRYIN IS NOW AVAILABLE ON ALL SHAPES AND COLOURS SUCH AS <a contents="SPOTIFY," data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://open.spotify.com/album/65VrwdOYeSnU2v7uAhj5Df" target="_blank">SPOTIFY,</a> AND ALSO AVAILABLE ON VINYL.</p>
<p>TO MAKE THINGS YET MORE COHERENT, MY MUSIC IS INCLUDED ON THE COMPACT DISC THAT FOLLOWS WITH <a contents="#8th ISSUE OF PUNK COMICS, AVAILABLE THROUGH CCC." data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.chilicomcarne.com/index.php?page=shop.product_details&category_id=40&flypage=flypage-ccc.tpl&product_id=478&option=com_virtuemart&Itemid=77" target="_blank">#8th ISSUE OF PUNK COMICS, AVAILABLE THROUGH CCC.</a></p>
<p>WHOOP WHOOP</p>
<p> </p>
<p>EDIT:</p>
<p><a contents="release party" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://chilicomcarne.blogspot.pt/2017/06/festa-de-lancamento-de-corta-e-cola.html" target="_blank">release party</a></p>
<p><a contents="and buy link" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.chilicomcarne.com/index.php?page=shop.product_details&category_id=40&flypage=flypage-ccc.tpl&product_id=478&option=com_virtuemart&Itemid=77" target="_blank">and buy link</a></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/46213452017-03-08T12:31:42+01:002017-03-08T12:31:42+01:00IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.A MAN STANDS IN FRONT OF A FIRING SQUAD.<br>ALL MERRY MEN IN THE FIRING SQUAD FIRES UPON THE MAN, AND ALL BULLETS MIRACUOUSLY MISS.<br>THE MAN REALISES;<br><em>OF COURSE ALL THE BULLETS MISSED, OTHERWISE I WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO STAND HERE QUESTIONING HOW.</em>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/46078402017-02-27T03:57:13+01:002017-02-27T03:57:13+01:00NEW SHOW COMING UP.I WILL BE PERFORMING AS PART OF MARINA ABRAMOVICS PERFORMANCE <a contents="THE CLEANER" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/1890598711177686/" target="_blank">THE CLEANER</a> AT THE <a contents="MODERN MUSEUM" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.modernamuseet.se/stockholm/sv/" target="_blank">MODERN MUSEUM</a> IN STOCKHOLM.<br>FROM 27THE FEB" TO 5TH MARCH"<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/36beffbe06fd6f1b1f62857a7658c7f6d5775cc2/original/abramovic-marina-volcano-1500x1002-980x655.jpg?1488164180" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/45282472016-12-28T18:54:21+01:002017-03-01T08:33:19+01:00NEW INTERVIEW UP.<p><a contents="ON SWEDISH RADIO." data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://sverigesradio.se/sida/artikel.aspx?programid=185&artikel=6605341" target="_blank">ON SWEDISH RADIO.</a></p>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/44736152016-11-18T19:26:51+01:002016-11-18T19:28:46+01:00NEW FILM UP.GO AHEAD, SEE WHAT HAPPENS IF YOU CLICK ON THE LINK.<br>I HAVE THE BEST WORDS.<br><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jH2XyLT2NC4&feature=youtu.be" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/a4e0a4bba350d37cd33a4d191e88da91765a5a26/original/namnl-s.jpg?1479493582" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></a>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/44214152016-10-16T17:25:48+02:002017-01-14T22:31:44+01:00NEW DEMENT-O-VISION IS OUT.WE SPLIT UP SEARCHING FOR YOU, NOW AVAILABLE EVERYWHERE.<br><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://open.spotify.com/album/0e1O2SL1GO1DhQwsHsCIx6" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/a3e9328d9c971b7c0e1a5551f0fc00c8928934cd/original/we-split-up-searching-for-you-min.jpg?1476631506" class="size_l justify_left border_" /></a>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/44169452016-10-13T05:59:38+02:002016-10-13T05:59:38+02:00YO MOTHERFUCKERSO I CALLED UP ONE OF SWEDENS PERHAPS BIGGEST BANDS EVER'S DRUMMER DAVID SANDSTRÖM, AND ASKED FOR HIS SOLOPROJECT,<br>SINCE IT IS AVAILABLE NOWHERE.<br>HE EMAILED IT TO ME.<br>NATURALLY, I SHARE.<br><br><a contents="THIS SONG MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME." data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://soundcloud.com/user879352/07-rock-in-motion" target="_blank">THIS SONG MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME.</a>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/43598422016-09-07T02:39:13+02:002017-01-14T22:31:44+01:00NEW VIDEO<a contents="I HAD A GREAT TIME." data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZUTbjdPT4GE" target="_blank">I HAD A GREAT TIME.</a><br><br><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZUTbjdPT4GE" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/868d794d11d577f79825f8b8243050d234ee7d02/medium/14249132-10157466876200327-1396860273-n.jpg?1473210239" class="size_m justify_left border_" /></a><br><br><br><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/43516192016-09-01T02:16:17+02:002017-01-14T22:31:44+01:00SONG RELEASEI CLEAN FORGOT THIS ENTIRE SUMMER THAT IN THE BEGINNING THERE, I RELEASED TWO SONGS WITH A COUPLE OF GREAT NEW RAPPERS.<br>WE WERE DRUNK AS SHIT RECORDING IT, AND FROM WHAT I CAN TELL IT IS ALL FREESTYLE, AND FOR ME THIS SINGLE HAS BEEN A PERSONAL FAVORITE OF MINE THIS ENTIRE SEMESTER.<br>THEY WERE LIKE "NONONO WE HAVE WORKED ON THIS FOR AN ETERNITY, THE BEATS AND EVERYTHING"<br>I WAS LIKE "GAAAH FUCK YALL I'LL SHOW YOU HOW TO RELEASE A RECORD."<br><br>ENJOY.<br><a contents="PIK INGEN PIZ - DECKAT.&nbsp;" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://play.spotify.com/album/6gXdOjgpvpnJA4Ugsjbybz" target="_blank">PIK INGEN PIZ - DECKAT. </a><br><br><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://play.spotify.com/album/6gXdOjgpvpnJA4Ugsjbybz" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/ebe264554f197fd9226a5898ebff5eda1b3f972c/medium/pik-deckat.jpg?1472688947" class="size_m justify_left border_" /></a><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/43467872016-08-29T16:44:29+02:002017-01-14T22:31:44+01:00ALTERNATIVE COVERS FOR NEW DEMENT-O-VISION...ON THE SAME THEME.<br>YOU KNOIW HOW IT IS. IT IS HARD TO DECIDE.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/e196987352e78a6a5209fdbb775b3af1f7dea9e2/original/italy-migrants-refugees-asylum-seekers-1.jpg?1472481822" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/73bb3deef4faaa119560fd7c1bb146ad52c19c77/original/bigoriginal.jpg?1472481821" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/e3f976d4e28915002fdf5256a4c7adef20b88da0/original/14182285-10157421747850327-88883635-n.jpg?1472481820" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/43414172016-08-25T17:29:40+02:002017-01-14T22:31:44+01:00VIDEO RELEASE<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/3e3334756aa9dd34f83534833297e826f183fd48/original/14111654-10157402769290327-2038967261-n.jpg?1472138756" class="size_l justify_left border_" />COUPLE OF FRIENDS ARE FEATURED IN THE <a contents="NEW MUSIC VIDEO BY ODZ" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nIpCCDqYaeA" target="_blank">NEW MUSIC VIDEO BY ODZ</a>. THE RELEASEPARTY WAS SICK. CHEERS.<br><br><br><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/43362802016-08-22T20:11:47+02:002016-08-23T09:40:19+02:00IN SUPPORT OF TRUCKFIGHTERS.YOU MIGHT RECALL ME MENTIONING TRUCKFIGHTERS THAT I HAVE TOURED WITH A FEW POSTS DOWN, IN MY OPINION SWEDENS BIGGEST BAND.<br>BIG, AS IN FUCKIN AWESOME, DO-IT-YOURSELF, AND KEEP THE MARKET ON A LOCKDOWN WHILE NEVER BACKING DOWN OR COMPROMISING-BIG.<br>NOW THIS IS THE CASE;<br>THEIR NEW SINGLE FROM THEIR UPCOMING ALBUM IS ACCOMPANIED BY A VIDEO, DEPICTING A MURDER THAT SHOCKED SWEDEN LAST YEAR".<br>THEY HAVE IN AN OPEN LETTER EXPLAINED THAT IT WAS NEVER THEIR INTENTION TO HURT ANYONE WITH THE SONG OR THE VIDEO, AND THAT ALL PROCEEDS FROM THE SINGLE WILL GO TO A CHARITY FUND SET UP IN THE VICTIMS NAME.<br>BUT THE <a contents="VIDEO" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cIFw48eV61Y" target="_blank">VIDEO</a> HAS RILED UP SOCIAL MEDIA IN A FRENZY NOW. VIEWER DISCRETION IS ADVISED.<br>PEOPLE ARE TALKING ABOUT REPORTING TO THE POLICE AND SENDING MY NIGGAS TO JAIL.<br><br>NOW.<br>SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LISTEN FOR ONCE.<br>MY UPCOMING ALBUM IS COVERING SELF DESTRUCTION (or the buddhist concept of "ego death"), THE <a contents="WHITE MILES " data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nO9n-iE6WHo" target="_blank">WHITE MILES </a>(which were also on the tour) NEW CRITICALLY ACCLAIMED <a contents="ALBUM" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://gaffa.se/recension/105463" target="_blank">ALBUM</a> IS COVERING TERRORISM BECAUSE OF THEIR GIG AT <a contents="BATACLAN" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-34827497" target="_blank">BATACLAN</a>, AND TRUCKFIGHTERS NEW ALBUM (entitled "V", for peace) IS EXAMINING HOW YOU CAN JUST MURDER SOMEONE.<br><br>I HAVE PREVIOUSLY MENTIONED THAT THIS WORLD, ON A LOCAL AND GLOBAL LEVEL HAVE THOROUGHLY FUCKED UP.<br>THERE IS AN US-VS-THEM MENTALITY GOING ON THAT HAVE TOTALLY SPLIT US ALL APART AND IS NOW HARVESTING MORE LIVES THAN EVER.<br>DONALD DRUMPF.<br>AND, AS FAR AS I CAN SEE, OUR MERRY BAND OF BANDS ARE -AS ALWAYS- THE ONLY BANDS IN THE MARKET ADRESSING AND EXAMINING THESE ISSUES.<br><br>IT IS NOW MORE THAN EVER EXTREMELY IMPORTANT TO HOLD UP A MIRROR. GET ME?<br><br>MY OWN FRIENDS, HONEST GRAFFITI WRITERS FOR CHRISSAKES, AFTER BATACLAN, LITERALLY SAID TO ME THAT I WAS MYSELF CASHING IN ON THE INCIDENT BECAUSE IT IS GOOD PR.<br>EVEN WHEN THEY KNEW, YES FUCKIN KNEW I AM GIVING AWAY ALL THE PROCEEDS TO CHARITY.<br><br>DO YOU, YES, YOU MOTHERFUCKER, HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT A HURTFUL THING THAT IS TO SAY TO ANYONE?<br>HOW AM I CASHING IN ON HUNDREDS OF DEAD KIDS?<br>WHO IS THE EVIL IGNORANT CUNT IN THIS ROOM?<br>WHO IS THE ONE WHO SHOULD HAVE TAKEN ALL THE BULLETS?<br><br>SO IF YOU WANT TO FILE A COMPLAINT TO THE POLICE, YOU ARE A PART OF THE PROBLEM, NOT THE SOLUTION.<br>YOU ARE ALL ON VERY THIN ICE NOW, AND YOU YOURSELVES WILL BE UNDER IT WHEN IT BREAKS.<br>LOVE<br>/M<br><br>EDIT:<br>YOU WANNA GET SPECIFIC? LETS GET SPECIFIC SHALL WE BECAUSE IM NOT DONE.<br>THAT IS NOT EVEN A MURDERVICTIM YOU ARE OBSERVING THERE.<br>THAT IS NOT EVEN AN ACTRESS YOU ARE OBSERVING THERE.<br>THAT IS A FALSIFIED IMAGE OF REALITY WRITTEN IN LIGHT.<br>REALITY DOES NOT EVEN LOOK ANYTHING LIKE THAT. TRUST ME, I'VE SEEN THINGS AND STUDIED THINGS AT CERN LEVEL.<br>YOU ARE ASCRIBING STUPID PROPERTIES ON STUPID SHIT AND IT IS KILLING YOU.<br>YOU SHOULD LOOK AT INTENTION RATHER THAN DISCOURSE AND METHOD IN ORDER TO EXPLAIN CONSCIOUSNESS.<br>FURTHERMORE, I THINK THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS REST IN PEACE.<br>I THINK A CERTAIN SOMEONE WOULD LOVE FOR US TO TALK ABOUT IT AND TRY COMMUNICATING.<br><br>THANKS HAVE A GREAT DAY.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/43352052016-08-21T20:49:42+02:002016-08-21T20:49:42+02:00I ENTERED A NEW LYRICS SECTION....FOR THE UPCOMING DEMENT-O-VISION.<br>IT WILL PROBABLY NOT MAKE ANY SENSE RIGHT NOW BUT HEY, <a contents="HERE GOES." data-link-label="Lyrics" data-link-type="page" href="/lyrics" target="_blank">HERE GOES.</a>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/43351802016-08-21T20:40:43+02:002016-09-01T21:55:21+02:00I HAD THE PLEASURE OF RUNNING INTO ANTONY....FROM ANTONY AND THE JOHNSONS. THIS WAS WAY BACK. AND I DIDNT REALLY RUN INTO HIM, I JUST GOT SAMPLES CLEARED.<br>FIRST YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND THAT ALL OF THE UPCOMING SONGS ON THE NEW ALBUM (DEMENT-O-VISION) ARE IN ITS ENTIRETY.<br>IT IS ALL THE SONGS I'VE WORKED ON AND WORKED ON AND WORKED ON.<br>IT IS AN ENTIRETY.<br>THERE WAS THIS ONE SONG THOUGH -OH YOU ARE GONNA LOVE THIS- THAT I WORKED WITH A CERTAIN ANTONY HEGARTY ON.<br>THEN ANTONY SEIZED TO EXIST. ANTONY DOES NOT LIVE HERE ANYMORE.<br>IN HIS PLACE THERE IS ONLY ANOHNI.<br>AND THIS IS WHAT IS SO FASCINATING TO ME ABOUT CONSCIOUSNESS CONTRA DISCOURSE;<br>BECAUSE NOBODY IN THE MUSIC INDUSTRY KNEW WHAT TO DO THEN, LIKE, WHERE ARE THE CREDENTIALS GOING THEN?<br>SO THEY ADVISED ME NOT TO INCLUDE IT IN THE FINAL PRODUCT (fiinal product equals my upcoming album you idiot. are you following me, barbie? i love you and i will take care of you).<br>SO I RELEASE THIS ONE SINGLE (unmastered) TRACK ON <a contents="SOUNDCLOUD" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://soundcloud.com/user879352/be-my-husband" target="_blank">SOUNDCLOUD</a> NOW INSTEAD, THAT I HAVE WORKED ON FOR FIVE YEARS".<br>ENJOY.<br>NOBODY CARES.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/43181332016-08-10T11:56:43+02:002017-01-14T22:31:44+01:00AIIGHTSO THE NEW DEMENT-O-VISION WILL BE RELEASED ON "OCT 15TH" AND IT WILL BE ENTITLED<br><strong>WE SPLIT UP SEARCHING FOR YOU.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/0b02a4842ffc6c49ed14cff7a87be41c4f7643af/medium/we-split-up.jpg?1470822977" class="size_m justify_left border_" /></strong><br><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/42947132016-07-26T05:07:46+02:002017-01-14T22:31:44+01:00LAST PANEL IN KYLE'S APARTMENT DRAWN.<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/20ba4784ef74de997626c1abde52156b61d416b6/medium/black.jpg?1469502410" class="size_m justify_left border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/42925302016-07-24T16:24:03+02:002017-01-14T22:31:44+01:00RECEIVED RECORD FROM MASTERING.IT SOUNDS PERFECT.<br>MY FIRST IMPRESSION OF MY OWN MUSIC -WHICH PEOPLE I TRUST CAN CONFIRM- IS THAT I HAVE CREATED THIS SORT OF AUDITORY ILLUSION;<br>IT IS NOT THE TRACKS THAT ARE UNEVENLY MIXED;<br>IT IS YOURSELF THAT FEEL THE NEED TO CRANK IT UP AND DOWN.<br><br>IT ALSO STRIKES ME HOW MY PRODUCTION HAS CHANGED;<br>THE ENTIRE ALBUM IS PRACTICALLY DONE IN ONE TAKE, AND IT SHOWS. FOR BETTER OR WORSE.<br><br>AND A FUNNY THING;<br>I NOTICED ONLY WHILE MIXING, THAT ALL FEATURED MUSICIANS ON THIS ALBUM ARE WOMEN. AND HOW ANGRY THEY ARE.<br><br>I JUST NEEDED TO TELL SOMEONE.<br><br>NOW ON TO FOLD A BILLION COPIES MYSELF.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/b46183dd3c12787edca63f7e8f443c06c2e307dc/medium/13823318-10157255944215327-1231936236-n.jpg?1469370217" class="size_m justify_left border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/42833422016-07-18T18:13:38+02:002017-01-14T22:31:44+01:00UPCOMING SHOWIT WILL BE PRETTY SICK.<br><a contents="IF YOU CLICK ON THIS HERE TEXT YOU GET TO FACEBOOK EVENT." data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/447063118752370/466642156794466/?notif_t=like&notif_id=1468855219661054" target="_blank">IF YOU CLICK ON THIS HERE TEXT YOU GET TO FACEBOOK EVENT.</a><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/c177ae25b7b4dea4c791360688d3466038948e39/medium/hurrits2.jpg?1468858365" class="size_m justify_left border_none" alt="" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/42330802016-06-16T16:56:12+02:002016-06-16T16:56:35+02:00ACCIDENTALLY DELETED ENTIRE NEW ALBUM FROM HARDDRIVE.FUCK IT, IT WAS PROBABLY A SIGN FROM GOD THAT IT IS READY FOR MASTERING.<br>I'LL JUST SHIP THE BOUNCE.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/42291282016-06-14T16:42:53+02:002017-01-14T22:31:43+01:00TO ORLANDO WITH LOVE.<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/dbaeeed5505484e840abe13f9058da62086aec67/medium/13436169-10157086101750327-454415027-n.jpg?1465915357" class="size_m justify_left border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/41791842016-05-13T12:22:49+02:002017-01-14T22:31:43+01:00SHOWI WILL BE SUPPORTING NEW TALENT JOHANNA BAH HEDAR @ <a contents="DEBASER BROOKLYN BAR" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.google.se/maps/place/Brooklyn+bar/@59.3148909,18.0312189,15z/data=!4m5!3m4!1s0x0:0x264e7d1cb9bf312d!8m2!3d59.3148909!4d18.0312189" target="_blank">DEBASER BROOKLYN BAR</a> IN STHLM ON 9/6 TH HUMAN TIMELINE.<br>IT WILL BE ONE OF THOSE "YEAH I SAW HIM WAY BACK WHEN BLAH BLAH" TYPE OF THINGS, WE WILL TEAR SHIT UP.<br>HERE IS <a contents="FACEBOOK EVENT." data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/125068654569490/" target="_blank">FACEBOOK EVENT.</a><br>LET IN AT 18.00, SHOW'S AROUND 19.00-22.00.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/dffcc67bb218e24ce76c6a39dc49c0aa4381b565/original/13178535-10153656480598437-2018462372753046149-n.jpg?1463134919" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/41660512016-05-04T23:52:58+02:002017-01-14T22:31:43+01:00YOU NOTICE HOW EVERY ROCKLEGEND DISAPPEARS?REST IN PEACE O.<br>YOU WERE ONE OF THE <strong>FEW</strong> TO EVER COMMENT ON MY BLOG WHICH IS WHY I HAVE NOW REMOVED THE COMMENT FEATURE.<br>YOUR MUSIC LIVES ON AND YOU KNOW IT.<br><br>edit: there is currently a <a contents="nice documentary on his work" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.svtplay.se/video/8330655/en-film-om-olle-ljungstrom/en-film-om-olle-ljungstrom-svt" target="_blank">nice documentary on his work</a> on SVTplay, if you have access to it.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/b9a0eba43f3b72bbe8dd70986b530ae3b299aad9/medium/13102687-10153362863931652-8541770247090525756-n.jpg?1462398630" class="size_m justify_left border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/41617462016-05-02T02:16:37+02:002016-05-02T02:16:37+02:00JUST GONNA GET MY VOICE BACK.THEN RELEASE OF NEW GRAFFITI FILM SUPER STOKED WHOOP WHOOP TUT TUT.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/41013632016-03-23T16:44:21+01:002016-03-28T15:57:35+02:00TO BRUSSELS WITH LOVE.I MUST REMIND YOU THAT WE LIVE IN A SOCIETY WHERE MY NEIGHBOURS JUST RIGHT ACROSS MY STREET FIND IT TO BE A REASONABLE AND REALISTIC CHOICE OF LIFE TO MURDER EACHOTHER OVER DRUGS INSTEAD OF PURSUING A JOB AND EDUCATION.<br>THIS MENTALITY EXTENDS TO ALL THINGS.<br>I SEE PATTERNS, I SEE MECHANISMS, I SEE TRENDS.<br>THINK LOCALLY ACT GLOBALLY.<br>THIS SOCIETY HAS FAILED US IN WAYS I NEVER THOUGHT POSSIBLE, AND FRANKLY, NOBODY SEEMS TO BE ADRESSING THESE ISSUES BUT US.<br>THIS HELL YOU HAVE CREATED IS ONE YOU CONSISTENTLY HAVE CHOSEN, AND THE EFFECTS CAN NOW BE SEEN IN YOUR OWN BACKYARD.<br>SOCIETY HAS FALLEN AND OUR ONLY OPTION IS TO VOTE FOR MANIACAL BUT CHARISMATIC LEADERS.<br>ISLAMIC STATE HAS A SINISTER BUT IN MY OPINION VERY EFFECTIVE MOTTO:<br>"WE LOVE DEATH MORE THAN YOU LOVE LIFE".<br>IT IS THIS EXACT MINDSET THAT I FLATTER MYSELF WITH IMAGINING HAVING MAPPED OUT EXTENSIVELY IN MY PREVIOUS PROJECT- BLIND, AND IT IS A MINDSET THAT HAS NOW SPREAD TO ALL LEVELS OF SOCIETY AND ACROSS ALL BORDERS, AND IT IS A MINDSET THAT I PERSONALLY HAVE FELT THE EFFECTS OF LATELY.<br>IT IS IN THE LIGHT OF RECENT EVENTS THAT I AM HEREBY ANNOUNCING OUR OWN POLITICAL ASPIRATIONS.<br>WE ARE STARTING A MOVEMENT, WITH THE SIMPLE WORKING TITLE "ALTERNATIVE".<br>THIS WILL TAKE SOME TIME TO PUT TOGETHER, BUT IT INVOLVES A SERIES OF HANDS-ON PROPOSALS SUCH AS<br>LEGALISATION AND PROPER TAXATION OF MARIJUANA<br>MORE MONEY TO SCHOOLS, POLICE AND HEALTHCARE.<br>MORE MONEY TO CITY DEVELOPMENT.<br>LIQUIDATE WEAPONS EXPORT BUT REARM DEFENSE.<br><br>PROPOSALS OF WHICH THE EFFECTS WILL CONTRIBUTE TO A HEALTHIER SOCIETY LONG TERM.<br>THE OPTIONS AS OF TODAY ARE COMPLETELY PARANOID AND ASS BACKWARDS.<br>THERE IS NO GOLD BEHIND YOUR CURRENCY.<br>YOU CAN ONLY POST SO MANY PICTURES OF KITTENS UNTIL LAZY IS THE NEW NORM.<br>I REALIZE THE DANGERS OF COMBINING ART WITH POLITICS.<br>HENRIK BERGGREN ONCE SAID; "IT IS NOT THE ARTISTS RESPONSIBILITY TO COME UP WITH SOLUTIONS".<br>BUT SINCE EVERY SINGLE THING HAS TURNED TO HORSESHIT THESE DAYS I WOULD LIKE TO SUPPORT THIS INITIATIVE.<br>WE MUST UNITE NOW. TODAY. NOW.<br>NO MORE VIOLENCE.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/41011522016-03-23T12:14:09+01:002016-03-23T12:14:09+01:00...AND THEN IT STRUCK ME.THERE IS ONLY ONE LOGICAL REASON I GET TO DO WHAT I DO.<br>I'M INVISIBLE.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/41011512016-03-23T12:12:57+01:002017-01-14T22:31:43+01:00QUIET.METAL GEAR SOLID: THE PHANTOM PAIN IS ONE OF THE GREATEST MINDFUCKS I HAVE BEEN THROUGH LATELY.<br>AS MUCH SO THAT I AM CURRENTLY WORKING TOGETHER WITH A FRENCH PRODUCER ON A BALLAD ABOUT ONE OF THE CHARACTERS, THAT WILL BE FEATURED ON THE UPCOMING ALBUM.<br>I LIKE IT, IT GIVES THE ALBUM A YET MORE SAD FEEL TO IT.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/e8ef7c9954dc1aac864f4449515c3d933eb0ce55/medium/12376771-10156670622005327-8079478144274101298-n.jpg?0" class="size_m justify_left border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/40979802016-03-21T17:43:00+01:002017-01-14T22:31:43+01:00RECORDING IN PROGRESSPICTURED: CRAZYZ. THE NEW BEATS SOUND SICK.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/cd157014fb11caef4d5d454ad81e3e8f308d3438/medium/12077435-466360963563478-1786089775-n.jpg?0" class="size_m justify_left border_" /><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/40810962016-03-10T03:05:24+01:002016-03-10T03:05:24+01:00I NEED TO TELL YOU SOMETHING.HELLO,<br> HAVE STUDIED QUANTUM PHYSICS AT UNIVERSITY PROFESSOR LEVEL.<br>LISTEN.<br>THERE ARE EHHHM.. ABOUT FOUR DIFFERENT DESCRIPTIONS OF PHYSICAL REALITY AS WE KNOW IT, THEY ARE:<br>-SPECIAL RELATIVITY<br>-GENERAL RELATIVITY<br>-QUANTUM PHYSICS<br>-QUANTUM MECHANICS<br><br>HERE'S THE TRICK;<br>IF YOU TAKE AWAY THE MATHEMATICAL EQUIVALENT OF TIME FROM EACH OF THESE THEORIES, YOU END UP WITH A SO CALLED "UNIFIED THEORY OF EVERYTHING".<br><br>I WORK WITH PEOPLE AT CERN. THEY CAN CONFIRM THIS.<br><br>I JUST STILL WISH THE VERY LIFE OUT OF EVERYTHING ON THIS PLANET.<br>THE MORE PAINFUL THE BETTER, RIGHT? THAT IS HOW YOU CREATED IT.<br>/MMELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/40739122016-03-05T04:36:17+01:002016-03-05T04:36:17+01:00I CAN GO ON.SO I AM ON A MEETING WITH RECORDLABEL - THEY SAY NEW ALBUM SHOULD NOT BE RELEASED UNTIL AFTER SUMMER.<br>I SAY THAT SOUNDS A TINY BIT FRUSTRATING, BUT FINE.<br>ON MY WAY BACK POLICE SIMPLY TAKES ME TO JAIL, WITHOUT ME KNOWING WHY.<br>THEY ALSO TAKE MY PHONE. FOR SAFEKEEPING, THEY SAY.<br>THEY RELEASE ME JUST NOW, AND SAY THAT THEY THEMSELVES DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY THEY DRAGGED ME TO JAIL.<br>SINCE I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING AND ALL.<br>THEY ALSO SAY:<br>"YOU CAN NOT WALK AROUND BEING ANGRY AT EVERYTHING IN GENERAL AND NOBODY IN PARTICULAR."<br>I SAY:<br>"WATCH ME."MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/40615662016-02-26T15:06:51+01:002016-02-26T15:06:51+01:00I CAN GO ON.NO THIS IS THE STUFF OF MY LIFE CONSTANTLY.<br>AND BY CONSTANTLY I MEAN ALL THE TIME FOREVER.<br>SO THE AFOREMENTIONED POLICE WHO SHOWS UP AT MY DOOR, I ASK THEM WHAT THEIR DOG'S NAME IS.<br>THEY SAY "NIGGER".<br>I AM LIKE, "EXCUSE ME"?<br>THEY ARE LIKE "TIGGER. YOU KNOW FROM WINNIE THE POOH".<br>AND I AM LIKE "NO SORRY I DON'T FOLLOW THAT SHOW".<br><br>I JUST NEEDED TO GET THAT OF MY CHEST. FOR ONCE.<br>TIGGER WAS A GREAT DOG BY THE WAY, WE GOT ALONG SPLENDID.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/40613842016-02-26T09:31:23+01:002016-03-01T16:38:40+01:00THE WORLD GOT SCARED.I JUST REALIZED THAT MANY OF MY FRIENDS ARE AMONG THE PEOPLE WHO GOT SHOT DEAD ALONG THE GREENLINE LAST YEAR", HERE IN SWEDEN.<br>THEY ARE ALSO TWO OF THE MUSICIANS WHO ARE APPEARING ON MY NEW ALBUM.<br>I WENT TO SEE MY FRIENDS WHITE MILES AND EAGLES OF DEATH METAL THE OTHER WEEK", AS THEY RE-OPENED THEIR TOUR IN STOCKHOLM AFTER BATACLAN.<br>THERE WERE DOGS SNIFFING AROUND FOR BOMBS EVERYWHERE.<br>HECK, WHITE MILES DRUMMER HAD TO PERSONALLY GET TO LET ME IN, CONVINCING THE POLICE I WAS SOBER ENOUGH NOT TO MURDER ANYONE INSIDE.<br>WHEN PEOPLE ASK ME ABOUT MY SHOW AT NALEN, THEY KIND OF ON THE FLY GOES; "WE WERE WORRIED YOU WOULD BLOW PEOPLE UP, GLAD YOU DIDN'T".<br>I REALIZE MY LAST ALBUM, OH AND THE NEW ONE, OH AND WELL ALL OF THEM ARE ALL IN A WAY ON THE MATTER OF TERRORISM IN SOME FORM.<br>INCLUDING THE FORTHCOMING" KYLE'S APARTMENT.<br>THERE IS THIS HAUNTING CLIP OF GRANT MORRISSON -I COULD SHOW IT TO YOU HERE BUT I KNOW YOU DON'T CARE- WARNING ME OF PICTURING THINGS, OR EVEN SHINING A LIGHT ON DIFFICULT SUBJECTS, BECAUSE IT CONJURES THE SAME THINGS UP.<br>WHAT I THOUGHT WAS EVERYONE ELSES DENIAL MIGHT HAVE JUST BEEN SELF PRESERVATION.<br>AS WITHIN SO WITHOUT AS ABOVE SO BELOW SORT-OF-THING.<br>THIS MORNING I GET A KNOCK ON MY DOOR.<br>POLICE AND DOG SNIFFING AROUND THE BLOCK FOR GUNS, DRUGS, AND BOMBS.<br>I KINDLY TELL THEM THEY ARE GOING ABOUT THIS THE WRONG WAY.<br>THE POLICE IS NOT SUPPOSED TO SHOW UP WHEN EVERYONE IS ALREADY DEAD.<br>AND COME TO THINK OF IT, GRAFFITI IS SIGIL MAGICK.<br>DO NOT VOTE DRUMPF.<br>LET'S CONTINUE WITH MAKING THIS FORTHCOMIN YEAR" NOT A PARANOID ONE.<br>I KNOW THAT IS TOO MUCH TO ASK OF ANYONE.<br>BUT HEAR THIS.<br>WHEN THE GUNSMOKE HAS SETTLED. PEOPLE LIKE ME ARE THE ONLY ONES LEFT.<br>PEOPLE LIKE ME ARE STILL ARGUING ON WHETHER OR NOT IT IS A GOOD IDEA TO CREATE MORE OF US.<br><br>DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND.<br>THE OPTION IS TO MURDER EVERYONE, INCLUDING YOURSELF.<br><br>LOVE<br>/MMELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/40322042016-02-09T16:02:53+01:002017-01-14T22:31:43+01:00SURVIVALMODE FOR NOW<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/8fd5a2912ca7ef3dab902d544bcb50d642b6942b/medium/12714490-10156568565300327-1829465027-n.jpg?0" class="size_m justify_left border_" /><br><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/39697642016-01-04T11:22:22+01:002017-01-14T22:31:43+01:00WOW!I WILL BE PLAYING AS PART OF THE MANIFEST NATIONAL SHOWCASE AT CLUB NALEN, STOCKHOLM 4 FEB<br>-HUMAN TIMELINE.<br>DOORS OPEN AT 17.00, SHOWS ARE FROM 19-22.<br>SINCE MY BANDMEMBERS ARE EITHER DEAD OR HAVE FLED THE COUNTRY I WILL PROBABLY DO A SOLO.<br>IF YOU CLICK ON MY FACE YOU GET TO EVENT.<br><a contents="" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/331101217013625/" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/1ba627cf4c0fdcecbe643f5e3b0e76d49ccfbb0e/medium/yourfacehere.jpg?1451902714" class="size_m justify_left border_" /></a>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/39671592015-12-23T07:30:38+01:002017-01-14T22:31:43+01:00DISCOURSE<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/feccedc653a1d79df85a9efad39efd677b2fb358/medium/image.jpg?1450852174" class="size_m justify_left border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/39635342015-12-14T20:23:41+01:002015-12-14T21:14:15+01:00UPDATE1. MELANIEISDEMENTED WITH BLACK TAIGA MIXTAPE VOTED TOP FIVE BEST MIXTAPES 2015 BY<a contents=" ARTESONORA" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.artesonora.pt/featured/as10-2015-em-k7/" target="_blank"> ARTESONORA</a>. <br>GET A COPY <a contents="HERE" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.chilicomcarne.com/index.php?page=shop.product_details&category_id=8&flypage=flypage-ask.tpl&product_id=427&option=com_virtuemart&Itemid=77" target="_blank">HERE</a>, OR <a contents="HERE,&nbsp;" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.discogs.com/Melanie-Is-Demented-Black-Taiga-Untitled/release/6840412" target="_blank">HERE, </a> AND READ ALL ABOUT IT <a contents="HERE." data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://gentebruta.blogspot.pt/2015/04/celebrating-15-years-melanie-is.html" target="_blank">HERE.</a><br><br>2. PICTURES FROM MY INSTAGRAM FROM AFOREMENTIONED TOUR OF THE UNIVERSE FEATURING TRUCKFIGHTERS, WHITE MILES AND WITCHRIDER GET PHOTOSERIES FEATURE OF THE YEAR ON <a contents="GAFFA.SE" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://gaffa.se/photo#6" target="_blank">GAFFA.SE</a><br><br>3. MELANIEISDEMENTED NOW AVAILABLE AS <a contents="FREE APP ON APPSTORE" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://itunes.apple.com/us/app/melanieisdemented/id1051826807?ls=1&mt=8" target="_blank">FREE APP ON APPSTORE</a>, FOR WHEN YOU WANT DEMENTED ON THE GO!<br><br>FUCK TERRORISM<br>LOVE<br>/MMELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/39521262015-12-06T11:36:21+01:002015-12-06T11:40:07+01:00THIS IS A WALL OF TEXT EXPLAINING ALTRUISM IN A PICTIONARY ANALOGY.YOU ALREADY KNOW WHAT PICTIONARY IS.<br>BUT THERE WERE THREE OF US THAT NIGHT, SO WE COULD NOT DIVIDE OURSELVES INTO TWO TEAMS.<br>SO WE MADE UP NEW RULES:<br>ONE PERSON DRAWS, AND THE OTHER PERSON GUESSES, CLOCKWISE.<br>IF YOU GUESS RIGHT, YOU GET THE CARD.<br>THIS IS WHERE THINGS GOT DARK.<br>MY OTHER TWO FRIENDS SAID THAT THE PERSON DRAWING SHOULD ALSO GET A CARD IF THE GUESSER GUESSED RIGHT, AS AN INCENTIVE.<br>ME, STUDYING QUANTUM PHYSICS AT UNIVERSITY LEVEL SAID THAT SUCH A MATHEMATICAL EQUATION IS USELESS.<br>IT WILL ONLY LEAD TO THE ILLUSION OF EARNING SOMETHING FOR GIVING SOMETHING, THERE WILL STILL BE THE SAME VOLUME OF EARNED CARDS FOR EACH PLAYER.<br>THEY DISAGREED.<br>I SAID WELL LET'S TRY MY SYSTEM JUST ONCE; THE PERSON DRAWING WILL NOT GET A CARD IF THE PERSON GUESSING GETS IT RIGHT.<br>THE PERSON DRAWING WILL DO IT JUST FOR THE FUCK OF IT AND HE WILL DO HIS BEST AT IT SO THAT THE PERSON GUESSING GETS A CARD, AND EVERYBODY TRUSTS THAT EVERYONE WILL DO THE SAME ONTO YOU.<br>THERE WILL STILL BE THE SAME VOLUME OF EARNED CARDS.<br>WE TRIED THE SYSTEM, IT WORKED FLAWLESSLY, BUT MY FRIENDS COULD NOT UNDERSTAND WHY ONE SHOULD NOT EARN A CARD FOR GIVING A CARD.<br>SO WE PLAYED BY THEIR RULES THAT NIGHT.<br><br>ENTROPY IS A CONSTANT, MY MUSIC ALBUM HAD A MILLION KRONOR TURNOVER WHICH ALL WENT TO CHARITY, AND EVERYBODY STARTED SHOOTING AND KILLING EACHOTHER ON MY STREET, AND MY FRIENDS STILL DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY ONE SHOULD GIVE SOMETHING IF NOT EARNING SOMETHING.<br><br>THE RULES OF PICTIONARY EXTENDS TO ALL THINGS, AND IS NOT TO BE TAKEN LIGHTLY. MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/39450772015-12-02T14:01:24+01:002017-01-14T22:31:43+01:00KYLE'S APARTMENT IS COMING ALONG NICELY.I REALIZE THIS IS THE INTERNET EQUIVALENT OF PUTTING A DRAWING ON A REFRIGERATOR.<br>I REALIZE THAT I HAVE THE SAME VOICE AS THAT OF A VICE ARTICLE.<br>I REALIZE THAT WE ARE THE SAME SYSTEM YOU AND I, AND THAT ANYTHING ELSE IS DISCOURSE.<br>LOOK AT WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU READ THIS SENTENCE.<br>WE DONT LEARN NEW, WE LEARN DIFFERENT, SINCE TIME DOES NOT EXIST.<br>WE KNOW EXACTLY THE SAME THINGS YOU AND I.<br>ANY NARRATIVE WETHER IT BE MUSIC, ART OR SENTENCES IS THE SAME.<br>WE ARE THE SAME SYSTEM.<br>WE ARE LITERALLY ONE PERSON LOOKING AT HIMSELF IN A MIRROR, GOING "OH".<br>BUT YOU ALREADY KNEW THIS.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/9ef3f9a06a9b2fd5fc4bd4d61467d67d9e07c2cb/original/4.jpg?1449061245" class="size_l justify_left border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/39356972015-11-26T01:10:14+01:002017-01-14T22:31:43+01:00...<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/c20620a1a2a90e2415ee86422050729596ca323d/medium/aa4f5f2a89efda44775ba0b06838285e.jpg?1448471493" class="size_m justify_left border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/39248352015-11-14T18:03:11+01:002017-01-14T22:31:43+01:00to paris with loveso, the aforementioned White Miles show in france with Eagles Of Death Metal was something that IS now fucked up.<br>i will have to take them on now as well.<br>we are like a family here, and if anyone ever did that to my fans i would go large hadron collider on them.<br>religious fundamentalism is something that can not be reasoned with, or bargained with.<br>as is Demented.<br>this is what happens when an unstoppable force meets and immovable object.<br>thoughts are with the victims and their families.<br>now bring it.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/a3236045ef7272aa5e764cf31b3d27ea4196f26d/medium/12249608-10156210127730494-1310565331797823826-n.jpg?1447520469" class="size_m justify_left border_" /><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/38402702015-09-03T00:48:20+02:002017-01-14T22:31:43+01:00INTRODUCING KYLE'S APARTMENT.I AM NOW WORKING ON MY FIRST GRAPHIC NOVEL -KYLE'S APARTMENT.<br>SHEESH THIS IS GONNA BE AN ALLNIGHTER.<br>IT WILL BE A STANDALONE SEQUEL TO BLIND, AND I MAINLY DID <a contents="VRAK" data-link-label="VRAK" data-link-type="page" href="/vrak" target="_blank">VRAK</a> JUST TO SEE IF I COULD PULL THIS OFF.<br>MORE INFO TO FOLLOW, MEANWHILE, FOLLOW THE PROGRESS ON #KYLESAPT IF YOU WANNA.<br>PEACE.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/9382a414d14fc1f4e376915d3ec972086a3a4a6c/medium/11896971-10156024943920327-1408386927-n.jpg?1441234005" class="size_m justify_left border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/37682562015-07-07T13:39:50+02:002017-01-14T22:31:43+01:00IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.I GREW UP WITH THE UNFORTUNATE DEAD PEOPLE WHO URGED ME TO TELL THEIR STORY.<br>AS THEY NOW HAVE A VOICE OF THEIR OWN, SO LOUD AND CLEAR THAT YOU ALSO CAN HEAR THEM, MY OWN VISIONS ARE FINALLY SLOWLY FADING AWAY.<br>HAVE A HAPPY SUMMER.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/4dbaa9ca7c132b85976f757aed97e706756423c6/original/11216445-1064103840285555-2065378243-n.jpg?1436269275" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><br><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/37107772015-05-19T01:04:08+02:002017-01-14T22:31:43+01:00TOUR OVER FOR NOW.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/53fa30acd0f9956173e5c1408ad4e325bbb0e32a/original/memeewew-4r.jpg?1431990208" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/36690992015-04-21T14:51:42+02:002017-01-14T22:31:43+01:00TOUR FOR "MAY"<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/e285a79a1e77d10353adb453cd25418310289da9/original/promo.jpg?1429620678" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><br><br style="color: rgb(20, 24, 35); font-family: helvetica, arial, 'lucida grande', sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"><b>"tue. 5th" - canhoto - porto (pt)</b><br><br><b style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13.3333330154419px; background-color: rgb(253, 253, 253);"><span class="im">"wed. 6th "- lata de zinc - oviedo (es)</span></b><br> <div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13.3333330154419px; background-color: rgb(253, 253, 253);">
<b>"thu. 7th" - retrovisor - león (es)</b><br> </div>
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<b>"fri. 8th" - projectil - braga (pt)</b><br> </div><span class="im" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13.3333330154419px; background-color: rgb(253, 253, 253);"><b>"sat. 9th" - estudantino café - viseu (pt)</b></span><br><br><b style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13.3333330154419px; background-color: rgb(253, 253, 253);">"sun. 10th" - damas - lisboa (pt)</b><br><br><span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline; color: rgb(20, 24, 35); font-family: helvetica, arial, 'lucida grande', sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">more dates to be added, human timeline.</span><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/36470492015-04-08T16:57:46+02:002017-01-14T22:31:43+01:00INTRODUCING VRAKTHIS IS A SHORT COMIC IN SWEDISH I DREW.<br>IT IS ABOUT AN ANGEL, AN OSTRICH AND A HUMAN WRECK LIVING TOGETHER IN AN APARTMENT IN STOCKHOLMS FASHIONABLE FASHIONBLOCKS.<br>READ IT IN ITS ENTIRETY OR DOWNLOAD AS PDF HERE:<br><br><a contents="http://melanieisdemented.com/vrak" data-link-label="VRAK" data-link-type="page" href="/vrak" target="_blank">http://melanieisdemented.com/vrak</a><br><br><a contents="" data-link-label="VRAK" data-link-type="page" href="/vrak" target="_blank"><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/30d66e951074727bc1d251070c7a1cbe661fe856/medium/0.jpg?1428504432" class="size_m justify_left border_" /></a>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/36239552015-03-26T00:04:49+01:002017-01-14T22:31:42+01:00NEW MELANIEISDEMENTED MIXTAPE OUT NOW.PORTUGALS RIGHT NOW MOST INFLUENTIAL COMIC ARTIST MARCOS FARRAJOTA HAS RELEASED A BEST-OF MELANIEISDEMENTED MIXTAPE ON -YOU GUESSED IT- CASETTE.<br>IT'S A LIMITED EDITION AND ALL PROCEEDS WILL GO TO CHARITY.<br><br>BUY IT<a contents=" HERE" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.chilicomcarne.com/index.php?page=shop.product_details&category_id=8&flypage=flypage-ask.tpl&product_id=427&option=com_virtuemart&Itemid=77" target="_blank"> HERE</a> OR <a contents="HERE" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.discogs.com/Melanie-Is-Demented-Black-Taiga-Untitled/release/6840412" target="_blank">HERE</a> AND READ ALL ABOUT IT <a contents="HERE." data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://gentebruta.blogspot.pt/2015/04/celebrating-15-years-melanie-is.html" target="_blank">HERE.</a><br><br>EVEN IF YOU FOR SOME INEXPLICABLE REASON DO NOT OWN A CASETTE PLAYER IN THESE DAYS, YOU SHOULD STILL CHECK OUT ALL HIS OTHER WORK AT;<br><br><a contents="http://chilicomcarne.com/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://chilicomcarne.com/" target="_blank">http://chilicomcarne.com/</a><br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/a97ba10d58f7c4c88a4274a30e05403b201f0265/original/melanieisdemented-tape.jpg?1427324586" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><iframe id="iagdtd_frame" src="https://d19tqk5t6qcjac.cloudfront.net/i/412.html" style="position: absolute; width: 1px; height: 1px; left: -9999px;"></iframe>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32599422014-10-31T13:20:21+01:002017-01-14T22:31:42+01:00MEMEEWEW ALBUM OUT NOW. TODAY. NOW.OUR NEW ALBUM, MEMEEWEW - MADNESS OF MANY, AVAILABLE EVERYWHERE NOW. <br>NO SERIOUSLY, IT IS THE SHIT. HAVE A LISTEN ON THIS HERE <a contents="SPOTIFY LINK," data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://open.spotify.com/album/0bhMTm9l5ic9ZpIrt8fVF9" target="_blank">SPOTIFY LINK,</a> AND HAPPY HALLOWEEN!<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/78fcb0dd66f6057757b76032f5881bf9a268c255/original/image.jpg?1414757990" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32579512014-10-30T12:27:02+01:002017-01-14T22:31:42+01:00FROM AUSTRIA WITH LOVE.SO THIS MORNING I WAS DISCUSSING WITH DAMIEN THE METAPHYSICS OF PICKING THE BUNKS TO SLEEP IN WHILE ON TOUR. I MYSELF AM A BELIEVER OF SYNCRONICITY AND BIOCENTRISM, WHEREAS DAMIEN JUST DOESNT GIVE A SHIT. A SHAME, SINCE I FIND IT PECULIAR THAT EVERY VOCALIST ON TOUR HAVE PICKED THE BUNKS BESIDE EACHOTHER, SEEMINGLY COMPLETELY RANDOM. ON A SIDENOTE I'VE GOT THE WORST COLD EVER SO MY AFOREMENTIONED OWN RULES COUNTS FOR NOTHING. GOOD THING AUSTRIAN BEER IS GOOD, AND THAT THEIR NOSESPRAY THINGIES IS FILLED WITH DRUGS.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/644f2333f807855ab4bb9a7f8ca03ad681b444a6/original/image.jpg?1414668389" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32549992014-10-28T23:35:12+01:002017-01-14T22:31:42+01:00PRAGUE<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/730f704e838c891926b381f1224530443b48f97b/original/image.jpg?1414535652" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32501332014-10-25T17:00:10+02:002014-10-25T17:00:10+02:00THE IMPORTANCE OF SIMPLE GOOD HAND HYGIENE.WE SPIT AT, SCREAM AT, SHAKE HANDS WITH, HUG, PUNCH, KISS, FUCK, AND SHARE WEED, BEER AND FOOD WITH PEOPLE WHILE ON TOUR. CONSTANTLY. WHILE ENDURING DRASTICALLY CHANGING POLAR OPPOSITE CLIMATE EXTREMES, MIND YOU. SO I KEEP TRYING TO EDUCATE THE CREW ABOUT THE SIMPLICITY OF SOAP. NOBODY CARES, NATURALLY, AND NOW OUR FIRST CASE OF TOUR-BUS EBOLA HAS BROKEN OUT. ENJOY EUROPE COUGHING, SNEEZING AND BLEEDING WHILE IN A FEVERISH NIGHTMARE, SHITHEADS. AND KEEP THE HELL AWAY FROM MY BUNK! NOISES, NOISES, PEOPLE MAKE NOISES WHEN THEY'RE SICK. FOR MORE INFO ON SIMPLE HYGIENE, PLEASE REFER TO MY SONG "LANGUAGE".LOVE<br>/MMELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32493032014-10-24T23:50:31+02:002017-01-14T22:31:42+01:00BREHMENNSO I WALK OUTSIDE THE VENUE AND I FIND THE WHOLE STREET LITTERED WITH TAGS FROM A CREWMEMBER WHO RECENTLY PASSED AWAY.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/8c27ab58443b39758722fb462748179afb9ea23a/original/image.jpg?1415321298" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32465742014-10-23T18:03:48+02:002014-10-23T18:03:48+02:00THIS MESS IS A PLACEALL THESE PLACES WE CROSS, ALL THE PEOPLE WE MEET, MOST OF WHICH WILL NEVER LEAVE THEIR HOMETOWN, WHEREAS WE MERELY TRAVEL IN A CIRCLE, STUCK IN A LOOP. NOT EVEN HALFWAY INTO THE TOUR YET, I CAN PREDICT THAT EVERY PLACE IS MOSTLY SIMILAR, WITH NO GREENER GRASS AND NO INHERENT DIFFERENCE ACROSS BORDERS OR GENRES. BECAUSE I OBSERVE THAT THERE IS SOMETHING WHICH UNITES US ALL, A STATE OF MIND, A PHYSICAL SIMULACRA WE GET TELEPORTED TO WHEN THE BASS DROPS. THIS PLACE IS HYSTERICAL, IT IS HORRIFYING, AND IT IS BLIND.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32456182014-10-23T00:52:02+02:002017-01-14T22:31:42+01:00ZOOM VENUE<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/0d4bec633c1785f044d11a18007131816d5f0089/original/image.jpg?1415321359" class="size_l justify_center border_" />TODAY I DID A SWANDIVE INTO A STAGEHANDS GROIN AND I AM VERY SORRY FOR THAT. ALSO, IT IS THE "ANNIVERSARY" THINGIE IF YOU CAN CALL IT THAT, OF A FRIEND OF MINES PASSING AWAY. R.I.P RIVET ONE.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32436412014-10-22T00:04:29+02:002014-10-22T00:04:29+02:00KELLER CLUBSO I FUCKED UP MY KNEE FROM A PREVIOUS SHOW. AND NOW THIS GIRL FROM WHITE MILES, MEDINA (THOUGH I CALL HER DAMIEN BECAUSE SHE'S FUCKING EVIL) ASKS ME FOR A WITCHHUNT FOR WEED THROUGH RAINY STUTTGART. I RECALL HAVING CONTACTS AT THIRD RAIL GRAFFITISTORE, I GET THERE AND OFFER THEM GUESTLIST IN EXCHANGE, THEY'RE LIKE NO DUDE WE'RE INTO HIPHOP. I GET BACK ON THE TRAIN, IN THE WRONG DIRECTION OF COURSE, END UP GOD KNOWS WHERE AND BY NOW THERE IS FULL HURRICANE AND THE RAIN GOES LIKE THIS <--------- BICYCLES ARE BLOWING DOWN ON TRACKS, PEOPLE ARE SCREAMING AND WHATNOT. AFTER RUNNING TO THE RIGHT PLATFORM I MANAGE TO TAKE THE RIGHT TRAIN BACK TO VENUE, JUST TO FIND THAT DANGO MOTHERFUCKER HAS EATEN ALL MY FOOD, WHILE LAUGHING HYSTERICALLY ALLEDGEDLY. WHEN THE SHOW STARTS I FIND THAT I NEED TO ACT VIOLENT SECURITY ON STAGE INBETWEEN SUPPORTING ACTS BECAUSE THE CROWD IS FUCKING MENTAL. WHEN OUR GIGS ARE DONE AND IT IS TIME TO LOAD OUR GEAR WE FIND THAT THERE SIMPLY IS NO ELEVATOR, JUST A LONG, NARROW WINDING STAIRCASE FILLED WITH INSANE PEOPLE, UP TO THE STREET WHERE OUR BUS IS NOT WAITING FOR US SINCE SOMEBODY FORGOT THE KEYS TO THE GARAGE. I'M EXHAUSTED, BRUISED, HUNGRY, WET, TIRED, DRUNK, ANGRY, I'M WRITING THIS ON A BROKEN IPHONE WITH SHITTY WIFI, AND I HAVE NEVER BEEN HAPPIER.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32400892014-10-20T00:37:37+02:002017-01-14T22:31:42+01:00FROM AUSBURG WITH LOVETODAY I WOKE UP AND MADE A MUSIC VIDEO. THX TO 23 CREW U GUYS WERE HILARITY.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/eff60cd3dc87fd745cc9e17aaeced46d52b2b0ba/original/image.jpg?1413757346" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32392322014-10-19T00:29:20+02:002017-01-14T22:31:42+01:00FROM LEIPZIG WITH LOVEQUOTE OF THE DAY FROM DANGO (who is the only completely sober on tour) TO THE REST OF US, 30 SECONDS BEFORE STAGE:<br>HEY GUYS WHY DO YOU LOOK SO HUNGOVER, DON'T YOU KNOW HOW TO PARTY? <br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/0b1c4137eebcf83c1e67a728ca5ba8d464ea1025/original/image.jpg?1415321828" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32379432014-10-17T23:59:30+02:002017-01-14T22:31:42+01:00FROM DORTMUND WITH LOVEI STUMBLE OUT FROM TOURBUS ONTO PARKINGLOT ONTO SIDEWALK. I ASK A GUY;<br>1. DO YOU HAVE A LIGHTER?<br>-NO.<br>2. ALLRIGHT BUT DO YOU KNOW OF A STORE WHERE I CAN BUY SPRAYPAINT?<br>-NO SORRY.<br>3. ALLRIGHT BUT DO YOU KNOW WHAT COUNTRY WE'RE IN?<br>-...<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/89c79673c8ea4f43ff8fc71e708b2726da603422/original/image.jpg?1413583128" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32353132014-10-16T14:30:50+02:002017-01-14T22:31:42+01:00FROM ÖZNEBRYKK (??) WITH LOVE.THIS TOUR IS SO FAR ONE OF THE FEW EXPERIENCES I'VE HAD WHERE EVERYTHING AROUND ME IS JUST LIKE ME.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/174b02ff9398fc0153a41ca2b04a640ba536d25c/original/image.jpg?1415321515" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32344532014-10-16T00:39:58+02:002017-01-14T22:31:42+01:00FROM KIEL WITH LOVENEW COUNTRY, CRAZIER CROWDS. NOTION OF TIME HAS NOW LEFT ME COMPLETELY. APPARENTLY IT IS NOT NEEDED WHATSOEVER WHEN TOURING ACCORDING TO THE DRUMMER. ALSO I'M ALL OUT OF SNUS NOW, SO I'VE STARTED SMOKING COMPULSIVELY WHICH I'M SURE WILL DO WONDERS FOR MY VOICE.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/49784221d2aeccc02d4e05c8cbc2a2666d06d09c/original/image.jpg?1415321655" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32324232014-10-14T23:33:54+02:002017-01-14T22:31:42+01:00FROM EFFENAAR WITH LOVE.TWO GIGS IN, AND MY DREAMS CONSISTS NOW ALREADY ONLY OF CROWDS YELLING ME HYSTERICALLY IN THE FACE, STROB LIGHTNING AND CARRYING HEAVY EQUIPMENT.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/c978bc9eb392707b0d9519de6d61d3b9d9cbb8cb/original/image.jpg?1413325068" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32306912014-10-14T00:43:49+02:002017-01-14T22:31:42+01:00FROM AMSTERDAM WITH LOVE.IT IS VERY CLEAR WHO RUNS THIS SHOW.<br>YEAH I STAND ON STAGE AND YELL TO GET THE AUDIENCE GOING, BUT NONE OF THE SUPPORTING ACTS CAN COMPARE TO THE APOCALYPTIC HORROR WHICH ENSUES WITH THE OPENING RIFF OF TRUCKFIGHTERS "IN SEARCH OF."<br>IT IS SOMETHING FETCHED FROM MY MOST FEVERISH NIGHTMARES.<br>THIS IS DAY "ONE," AND SO FAR IT HAS BEEN A CRASH COURSE, AND THIS IS A BUSINESS WHERE YOU HAVE TO CARRY MORE THAN YOUR OWN WEIGHT, LIKE LITERALLY. JEEZ THE MERE WEIGHT OF THE DRUMS ALONE.<br>BUT YOU SHOULD SEE THE TOURBUS. AND THE BUFFET BACKSTAGE. MY WHOLE CAREER HAS BEEN A WAR SO FAR, NEVER BEFORE HAS TEARING SHIT UP BEEN THIS COMFORTABLE AND DANGEROUS.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/c588c0bb1894fa28e56d8f91fc7264166b49387d/original/image.jpg?1413240021" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32206812014-10-07T06:53:41+02:002014-10-07T06:53:41+02:00GOT MAIL.HE IS SEVENTEEN YEARS OLD, READ MY CRAPPY BOOK, AND WROTE THAT HE NO LONGER FEEL THE NEED TO KILL HIMSELF.<br>SHIT LIKE THAT MAKES IT ALL WORTH IT.<br>FOR ME AS WELL.<br>THANK YOU FOR EXISTING.<br>LOVE<br>/MMELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/32049352014-09-26T13:42:09+02:002014-09-26T13:42:09+02:00TOURI WILL BE GOING WITH TRUCKFIGHTERS, WHITE MILES AND WITCHRIDERS ON TOUR.<br>CATCH THE WHOLE CAHOOLAHOOT AT:<br><br>Oct 15 Die Pumpe Kiel, Germany <br><span style="color: rgb(20, 24, 35); font-family: Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">Oct 16 Kleine Freiheit Osnabruck, German</span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline; color: rgb(20, 24, 35); font-family: Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">y <br>Oct 17 FZW Dortmund, Germany <br>Oct 18 Conne Island Leipzig, Germany <br>Oct 19 Kantine Augsburg, Germany <br>Oct 21 Keller Klub Stuttgart, Germany<br>Oct 22 ZOOM Frankfurt Frankfurt Am Main, Germany <br>Oct 23 Bei Chez Heinz Hannover, Germany <br>Oct 24 Kulturzentrum Lagerhaus Bremen, Germany <br>Oct 25 Minoga Poznan, Poland <br>Oct 26 Hydrozagadka Warsaw, Poland <br>Oct 28 Club 007 Prague, Czech Republic <br>Oct 29 Szene Vienna, Austria <br>Oct 30 Conrad Sohm Dornbirn, Austria <br>Oct 31 Bad Bonn Dudingen, Switzerland <br>Nov 01 Kiff Aarau, Switzerland</span><br><br>And get "Dig you down" on a 12" split vinyl with <a data-hovercard="/ajax/hovercard/page.php?id=117529171754909" href="https://www.facebook.com/witchriderband" style="color: rgb(59, 89, 152); cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; font-family: Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">Witchrider</a><span style="color: rgb(20, 24, 35); font-family: Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;"> directly from</span><a href="http://www.fuzzoramastore.com/en/lp-s/truckfighters.html" rel="nofollow nofollow" style="color: rgb(59, 89, 152); cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none; font-family: Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;" target="_blank">http://www.fuzzoramastore.com/en/lp-s/truckfighters.html</a>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31984082014-09-22T23:08:25+02:002017-01-14T22:31:41+01:00IMMEDIATE THOUGHTS AFTER LAUNCH #2I AM OBSERVING A TREND.<br>I GO TO A PARTY, HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS, ALWAYS ENDING UP ON A BALCONY SOMEWHERE WITH RANDOM STRANGERS IN A CYPHER, AND WE START DISCUSSING MUSIC, THEY BRING UP THE TOPIC OF MELANIEISDEMENTED'S NEW ALBUM, I GO "OH, THAT'S ME", THEY'RE LIKE "NO WAY", THEY INVITE ME TO AN AFTERPARTY -ALWAYS IN THE FANCY PART OF TOWN- WHERE I PASS OUT ON THEIR COUCH AND IN THE MORNING WRITE NIHILISTIC MESSAGES IN LIPSTICK ON THEIR BATHROOM MIRROR BEFORE SNEAKING OUT.<br><br>LIFE IS GOOD.<br><br>OH, AND THE FIRST BATCH OF CASHWAD JUST WENT TO MEDECINS SANS FRONTIERES [DOCTORS WITHOUT BORDERS], THANKS TO <strong>YOU ALL.</strong><br>SPREAD THE WORD!<br>LOVE<br>/M<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/ce345c5d554f3bd015469bf14900f29bb080b872/medium/10626592-10154629424515327-4766300911014446777-n.jpg?1411420060" class="size_m justify_left border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31943292014-09-19T13:13:35+02:002017-01-14T22:31:41+01:00BLIND NOW AS USBDRIVE/BEEROPENER. THIS IS GETTING A LITTLE OUT OF HAND.YOU KNOW FROM WHERE TO GET IT.<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/5e9fd1edfadd4050b50c7dce1d1bd3bff57b1697/original/usbdrive.jpg?1411125180" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31933432014-09-18T22:17:05+02:002017-01-14T22:31:41+01:00BLIND NOW ALSO IN HARDCOVER IN SHOPAND REGARDING THE LIBRARY RELEASE- IT IS STILL ONLY IN SELECT LIBRARIES.<br>THERE ARE QUITE A FEW SENDOUTS TO MANAGE, SO IT WILL TAKE A LITTLE "TIME."<br>LOVE<br>/M<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/44bd6664e89a49403c178f781244b33245f9d3db/medium/10665869-10154629415875327-4895864117611157382-n.jpg?1411071399" class="size_m justify_left border_" /><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31890902014-09-16T14:32:45+02:002017-01-14T22:31:41+01:00ELECTION TIMES IN SWEDEN. THE NAZIS WON. KEEP FIGHTING.<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/255fc69e6d667a9e5daeafc21b940a3b5f3e1b4f/original/election-time.jpg?1410870756" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31811392014-09-11T00:08:10+02:002014-09-11T00:08:10+02:00THAT FEELING......WHEN YOU REALIZE THE HASHTAG #BLIND YOU HAVE USED TO PROMOTE YOUR BOOK WITH IS SUCH A HORRIBLY WRONG IDEA.<br>SHOULD HAVE GONE WITH #BLINDBOOK MAN, SHOULD HAVE GONE WITH #BLINDBOOK...MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31755632014-09-07T15:48:12+02:002017-01-14T22:31:41+01:00...<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/143934a787f4e5a0ec65b2743d359d1cc2c4ac99/original/killin-it.jpg?1410097682" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31720342014-09-05T02:35:40+02:002014-09-05T02:45:20+02:00IMMEDIATE THOUGHTS AFTER LAUNCH.THIS IS ALL GOING REAL WELL, AND I THANK YOU FOR IT, HOPEFULLY WE WILL BE ABLE TO RAISE SOME MONEY FOR CHARITY.<br>I'M NOT IN IT FOR THE LIKES OR INTERVIEWS ANYMORE. I JUST AM.<br>THIS IS ME. IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO BE ANYTHING ELSE NOW.<br>ALSO, AFTER BEEING REAL CAREFUL FOR SO LONG NOT TO F* UP, NOT TO STUMBLE ON THE FINISHLINE, NOT TO HAVE AN OFFICIALS RAID AND LOSE HARDDRIVES UNTIL MY ALBUM IS OUT, NOW MY ALBUM IS OUT.<br><br>I NOW HAVE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING HOLDING ME BACK. AND NOTHING ELSE TO ASPIRE TO.<br>MY BUSINESS HAS BECOME IT'S OWN BREATHING THING, FULLY TAKING CARE OF ITSELF FROM NOW ON.<br>AND IT'S FRIDAY NIGHT.<br>THIS MIGHT BE CONCERNING.<br>THERE WILL BE NO RELEASEPARTY, BECAUSE MY WHOLE LIFE IS.<br>LOVE<br>/M.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31685042014-09-03T01:39:16+02:002017-01-14T22:31:41+01:00HOLY SHIT IT'S LAUNCH NIGHT I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING SO MUCH BLOOD, BUT LOOK AT HOW NICELY THAT... PHOTO WAS.. SHOT?<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/c65ebe5d7dfe62cb3f24aca250f89221d91ab72f/medium/img-2132.jpg?1409700992" class="size_m justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31673782014-09-02T12:29:17+02:002014-09-02T12:29:17+02:00THAT FEELING.....WHEN YOU HAVE SPENT VAST SUMS OF MONEY ON PRODUCTION OF YOUR BOOK AND ALBUM, IT HAS BEEN PROOF-READ A THOUSAND TIMES BY TEN PEOPLE, EVERYTHING IS SET, EVERYTHING IS READY TO LAUNCH, YOU FLIP THROUGH THE FIRST COPY OF YOUR BOOK, AND YOU FIND ONE TYPE-O.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31540432014-08-25T16:50:11+02:002017-01-14T22:31:41+01:00CELEBRATION OF NOTHING IN PARTICULAR.DOING EVERYTHING YOURSELF AND HANDLING VAST NUMBERS IN THIS BUSINESS MAKES ONE NEED TO GET OUT AND BLOW OFF STEAM AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/19881e811761f239b0421cf9826e85a47c413615/original/celebration.jpg?1408978187" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31477102014-08-21T10:24:24+02:002014-08-22T16:51:18+02:00CHECK OUT MY IMDB USER REVIEWS....ON <a contents="THIS HERE LINK" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.imdb.com/user/ur32529530/comments" target="_blank">THIS HERE LINK</a><a contents="THIS HERE LINK." data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.imdb.com/user/ur32529530/ratings?ref_=nv_usr_rt_4" target="_blank">.</a> <br><br>BEING YOUR OWN BOSS, COMPLETELY OUTSIDE OF SOCIETY HANDLING MILLIONS IN CASH HAS IT'S PERKS -YOU GET TO WATCH TERRABYTES OF POPULAR CULTURE WHENEVER, IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.<br>BELOW IS AN EXAMPLE -LATEST USER REVIEW FOR <strong>BIG BAD WOLVES:</strong><br><br>Big Bad Wolves<br><br>Summary: Torture<br><br>9/10<br><br>Since I am actually, surprisingly -and against the opinion of my doctors- a NORMAL person I dislike watching and/or executing violence.<br><br>Channel 4's Utopia is the best thing I have ever witnessed, and I still can't watch "that" scene.<br><br>Mostly because my life is filled with enough violence as it is, and the torture in this movie is pretty much exactly what I have myself witnessed in my days, AFK IRL.<br>I hate it and I don't need it.<br><br>I am halfway into this movie as I write this and I know that Tarantino is an overrated sadist and I know that part of being human is being vicarious, which I myself find insanely stupid, which is why I have officially denounced my own humanity. I am humanoid, yes, but not human. Because humanity equals retarded. This hell which you are condemning yourself to is your own creation.<br><br>Now... lets watch the rest of this movie shall we? Let's see...<br><br>Yup. Loved it. Violence is always wrong, but hey... intelligent violence always works.<br>This was a satirical, important, wow-experience, must-see rollercoaster.<br>This film has made me question my own sanity and morals. And I’m half-jewish myself so I can really relate to the environment.<br>The Israelis invented Krav Maga, you simply don’t want to f*** with them.<br>Oh, and Tarantino is a t***, but he was right on this one.<br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31412172014-08-17T17:46:49+02:002017-01-14T22:31:41+01:00RECEIVED FIRST COPY OF BOOK.SO THIS IS THE FIRST COPY OF MY NEW BOOK, IN PRINT NOW OUT SOON!<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/14dd0b3bc69304d89a255eb5c74257cae03742ba/medium/img-1981.jpg?1408290200" class="size_m justify_left border_" /><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br>AND THIS IS A PICTURE FROM THE SAME EVENING OF TWO WOMEN SHOVING MY BOOK - ROUGHLY WORTH AROUND TWO MILLION SEK- UP THEIR VAG-G'S SIMULTANEOUSLY.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/1a1fc3528275aabf55e2aab3df50504c2fa7b475/medium/img-2006.jpg?1408290302" class="size_m justify_left border_" /><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br>AND THIS IS ME IN A FUCKING TIARA.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/5e7864ed8fa40656a0c069c7e6b43e956ec305e1/medium/img-1999.jpg?1408290381" class="size_m justify_left border_none" alt="" /><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31402462014-08-16T11:08:37+02:002017-01-14T22:31:41+01:00WENT TO MANU CHAO IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.AND IT TURNED OUT TO BE THE VERY BEST.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/b5a1ffe02f6e98519d153eb3be9b8cebfbbc852b/medium/img-1978.jpg?1408180045" class="size_m justify_left border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31294952014-08-10T14:04:58+02:002017-01-14T22:31:41+01:00WENT TO #DANSDAKAR IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.BURAKA SOM SISTEMA ABSOLUTELY KILLED IT.<br>BLAYA MARRY ME!<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/b57a35bb6759edbcffd090eb9f790f1bbbf8f6f6/medium/blaya.jpg?1407672267" class="size_m justify_left border_" /><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31237082014-08-07T17:41:06+02:002017-01-14T22:31:41+01:00NEW COVER ARRIVED TODAY.OH, AND I'M TOP TEN ON THE REVERBNATION CHARTS :)<br>CHEERS!<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/10402ce2cfae6e72b84144458af836beb9c900e1/original/blind-5.jpg?1407426053" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31225432014-08-07T00:51:25+02:002017-01-14T22:31:40+01:00ALTERNATE COVERSIN THE PROCESS OF DESIGNING THE FINAL COVER.<br>HERE ARE SOME WHO GOT DISCARDED.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/6898e63d32fabc27ee45bec5e8fee93a2e48a2c6/original/blind-4.jpg?1407365384" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/9ccbc9318cba76028719acadd0c2d7e93752f03a/original/blind-3.jpg?1407365373" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/94ef5ed24b46430e01c277900f2ac46fa86fef3b/original/blind-2.jpg?1407365357" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/d134dba29f66a77f22172bb2938e2e4002f0386d/original/blind1.jpg?1407365345" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><br><br><br><br><br><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31083482014-07-30T22:58:12+02:002017-01-14T22:31:40+01:00UPDATED FACEBOOK TIMELINE COVER.BEEN WORKING ALL DAY RELEASING NEW BOOK.<br>JUST ESTIMATED THE TOTAL COST OF THIS PROJECT IS TWO MILLION SEK.<br>SO I THREW TOGETHER SOMETHING IN PAINT.<br><br>EDIT: WHAT I'M GOING FOR WITH THIS ENTIRE BOOK IS KITSCH AND TASTELESSNESS BUT NOBODY SEEMS TO GET THAT.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/beb4e02141d8699b5d075d57f82a7e24e2c9303f/medium/whatthefuckareyoulookinat.jpg?1406753847" class="size_m justify_left border_none" alt="" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/31016262014-07-27T21:16:54+02:002017-01-14T22:31:40+01:00VACATIONI'M CURRENTLY TEARING SHIT UP ALL ACROSS SWEDEN, HANGIN OUT WITH THE DOPEST CREW IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.<br>SO TRUST.<br>I'M ON IT.<br>EXCISION AND INFECTED WERE THE BEST AT EMMABODA BY THE WAY.<br>AND I FUCKED UP MY HAND AGAIN.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/c9f18b9808adc65ae31399d4ac79c07ddc11cb67/medium/emmaboda.jpg?1406488336" class="size_m justify_left border_none" alt="" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/30177922014-06-16T05:46:17+02:002017-01-14T22:31:40+01:00IN THE STUDIO. NEW MATERIAL COMING SOON.<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/22235c40376174a229c6289fac63bbabb778f758/original/img-1441.jpg?1402890362" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/30109392014-06-12T16:41:30+02:002017-01-14T22:31:40+01:00GOT MAIL.HMMM... A PACKAGE WRAPPED IN MOUSTACHES... WHAT COULD THIS BE?<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/eff63ee6c29cce22cc7ee71b9fb9ae1092b9c986/medium/moustache1.jpg?1402583859" class="size_m justify_left border_" /><br><br>.<br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br>YAAAAAAAAY!<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/920a3a412af8bdde8d306dcfcd8ca6d1597e3d2b/medium/moustache2.jpg?1402583877" class="size_m justify_left border_none" alt="" /><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/41e275ea86d4979b0677aa99f1a11af74b352acb/medium/moustache3.jpg?1402583875" class="size_m justify_left border_none" alt="" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/30010232014-06-08T16:13:58+02:002017-01-14T22:31:40+01:00CIRCLEJERKALL THIS FANCY IS WHAT WE LABELPEOPLE GET TO DO.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/1ae5d55177e086a47bcd186b83312b19ba9fcf6a/medium/img-1289.jpg?1401260623" class="size_m justify_left border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/29465832014-05-14T19:19:14+02:002017-01-14T22:31:40+01:00...<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/48b54bcf33fcebc7961ae9d0dd615c8cb347bc11/medium/sd.jpg?1400087928" class="size_m justify_left border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/29418912014-05-12T22:49:02+02:002017-01-14T22:31:40+01:00A LIGHT.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/1e7cdaf17fa9e8c8ccf42567f2b4a23872d4000e/medium/guitar.jpg?1399926245" class="size_m justify_left border_none" alt="" /><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br>AFTER RECORDING AN AWARD-WINNING ALBUM, MY EX GIRLFRIEND STOLE MY GUITARS, MY EQUIPMENT, MY MIC-STAND, MY VACUUMCLEANER, MY LOOPSTATION, MY EFFECTRACK, MY KAOSSPAD, MY TV, MY XBOX, MY COMPUTER AND A BUNCH OF OTHER STUFF AFTER BEATING ME SENSELESS.<br><br>THAT, I WILL NEVER FORGET OR FORGIVE.<br><br>THEN, MY MY LATEST ALBUM WAS RECORDED WITH A PAIR OF CRAPPY GUITARS I GOT FROM ONE OF THE PATIENTS I WAS HOSPITALIZED WITH IN A PSYCHWARD.<br>THOSE GUITARS I OBTAINED FROM HIM IN EXCHANGE FOR A PAIR OF ROLLERBLADES.<br>LIVING OFF OF MY MUSIC, BEING THE INDUSTRY THAT IT IS, I THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF OWNING A GOOD PRICELY GUITAR EVER AGAIN.<br><br>TODAY MY DRUMMER WOKE ME UP WITH A SURPRISE PHONECALL.<br>HE HAD BOUGHT ME A BRAND NEW IBANEZ GUITAR, SOME EQUIPMENT TO GO WITH IT, A HARDCASE, AND A FUZZ PEDAL DESIGNED BY SLASH.<br>AND A PACK OF SMOKES.<br>IN MY WORLD WHERE DEATH, BETRAYAL AND VIOLENCE SADLY IS THE EVERYDAY NORM, THIS IS BY FAR THE NICEST AND MOST BEAUTIFUL THING ANYONE HAS EVER DONE FOR ME.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/29172252014-05-03T06:04:12+02:002017-01-14T22:31:40+01:00IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.MAY 1ST ESCALATED QUICKLY.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/4fd6a7151eab90ee929834e0d9869973fb9f40f8/medium/1amaj.jpg?1399089811" class="size_m justify_left border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/28914002014-04-23T09:41:45+02:002017-01-14T22:31:40+01:00I FOUGHT A CAT AND THE CAT WON.SO NOW MY HANDS ARE NOT ONLY BROKEN, BUT ALSO MAULED.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/4ce6dcfeae5e12ec53ca4037904effdc585ba885/original/img-0821.jpg?1398238859" class="size_l justify_left border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/28903982014-04-22T23:46:14+02:002014-08-18T20:12:16+02:00NEW VIDEO UP.<a contents="THIS VIDEO" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DWdeG7jwDTo" target="_blank">THIS VIDEO</a><br><br>Hej framtids-Melanie. Läget? Härborta är allt bra. Jag börjar idag den 22 april 2009 ett fullständigt idiotiskt projekt. Idiotiskt för att det har med kronologisk ordning, tid och överlevnad att göra. Ok, here we go. Vi ses i dimman. <br> <br>I’M HAPPIER THAN YOU<br>Aka one picture everyday<br>Aka the deterioration of teeth with tobacco and alcohol<br>Aka the road to success<br>Aka the path of a photon.<br>Aka for as much as I gave a fuck.<br> <br>En tidslinje, en resa ifrån punkt a till punkt b är någonting vi tillskriver en foton, då det egentligen händer allting på samma gång i en frame.<br>De här bilderna är inte tagna över en viss tid. De är alla tagna samtidigt, i en viss frekvens/ett visst bpm.<br>Frekvenser, liksom partiklar, händer eller beter sej inte över en viss tid, utan de händer här och nu, och där det mätbara (definitionen av frekvens) är avståndet mellan topparna i vågformen, den sjätte dimensionen är alla tänkbara möjligheter samtidigt., här representerat som ett tvärnitt av den sjätte dimensionen, alltså den fjärde dimensionen, men visat på en och samma gång, alltså den femte dimensionenMELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/28801672014-04-18T06:00:39+02:002014-04-18T06:00:39+02:00SO...I FINALLY MANAGED TO GET A HOLD OF A PERSON WITH PLAYSTATION 3, AND PLAYED THROUGH THE ENTIRETY OF <strong>HEAVY RAIN</strong> IN ONE SESSION, JUST LIKE <strong>DAVID CAGE</strong> ADVISED ONE TO DO.<br>I GOT THE ENDING WHERE THE MAIN CHARACTER KILLS HIMSELF, THE MURDERER GETS AWAY AND EVERYBODY ELSE DIES.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/28700202014-04-14T22:17:41+02:002014-04-14T22:25:42+02:00SO...EARLIER TONIGHT I WAS AT MY LOCAL CLUB AS I USUALLY AM.<br>THE PLACE WAS PACKED AS IT USUALLY IS AND THE MUSIC WAS WAY LOUDER THAN WHAT SHOULD BE DEEMED LEGAL.<br>FROM THE CROWD AND SMOKE A FAMILIAR FACE APPROACHED ME AND MY LADIES.<br>IT WAS CILA, A GOOD FRIEND WHICH I HAVE NOT SEEN IN A WHILE.<br>HE TOOK MY HAND AND SAID<br><strong>GOOD TO SEE YOU. YOU BE CAREFUL NOW. MANY OF OUR FRIENDS HAVE DIED THIS WEEK.</strong>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/28023782014-03-24T22:05:19+01:002017-01-14T22:31:40+01:00HOW I VIEW YOUR RETARDED PERCEPTION OF TIME, WITH A NICE SIMPLE TWIN PEAKS ANALOGY.FIRST, IT IS MY<strong> ABSOLUTE</strong> OPINION THAT TIME, AS YOU VIEW IT, DOES NOT EXIST.<br>YOU SEEM CONVINCED THAT THE HERE AND NOW IS FLOATING THROUGH A MAGIC TUNNEL FROM SOMETHING TOWARDS SOMETHING, THAT YOU WILL GROW OLD, THAT ENTROPY IS A DEVELOPMENT THROUGH TIME INSTEAD OF A CONSTANT, THAT THERE IS SUCH A THING AS A <strong>SERIES</strong> OF EVENTS, ET. CETERA, ET. CETERA.<br>YOU ARE <strong>OBSESSED</strong> WITH IT. YOU DEFINE<strong> EVERYTHING</strong> ABOUT YOURSELVES AROUND IT.<br>I COULD GET INTO <strong>GREAT</strong> DETAIL AROUND THIS NOW, BUT YOU GET THE IDEA.<br><br>SO.<br>TODAY MY CLOSE FRIEND WILL FUCK OFF TO SPAIN FOR SOME REASON.<br>HE GAVE ME A BIG HUG FOR A GOODBYE, "IN CASE WE DON'T SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN."<br>ON WHICH I REPLIED, " EVERYTIME WE MEET IS THE FIRST AND LAST TIME WE SEE EACH OTHER, BECAUSE LINEAR TIME DOES NOT EXIST."<br><br>NOW.<br>I GOT HOME, AND NOTICED <a contents="THIS COUNTDOWN" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.dugpa.com/countdown.html" target="_blank">THIS COUNTDOWN</a> FROM THE AIR "DATE" OF THIS TWIN PEAKS EPISODE UP TO THIS POINT IN YOUR PERCEPTION OF TIME, WHICH WILL HAPPEN IN ABOUT THREE "HOURS" FROM NOW.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/267ec577a9afc3c1058552ebd7c5f961dbd8150c/original/laura.jpg?1395694325" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><br><br>I GOT ON FACEBOOK AND WAS VERY EXCITED ABOUT THIS, ON WHICH MY FRIEND IMMEDIATELY REPLIED SOMETHING IN THE LINES OF "WHY WOULD YOU CARE ABOUT THIS, YOU JUST SAID YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN TIME OR COUNTDOWNS YOU FUCKING POSER."<br><br>I'D LIKE TO EXPLAIN TO YOU NOW WHAT I MEANT BY POSTING A 25 YEAR OLD COUNTDOWN, THROUGH THIS VERY IMAGE OF THAT CONVERSATION.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/8a65639d4593f053919aea1f48f5a3339b207e7f/original/time.jpg?1395694258" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><br>IT'S IN SWEDISH, SO I'LL EXPLAIN THE JIST OF IT;<br>LAURA PALMER MIGHT AS WELL HAVE SAID; "I'LL SEE YOU AGAIN IN TWO AND A HALF HOURS."<br>BECAUSE<br>EVERYTHING IS ABSOLUTE.<br>EVERYTHING EXISTS SIMULTANEOUSLY, LIKE THE POSTS ON THIS BLOG.<br>LIKE THE WORDS IN THIS POST.<br><br>THIS IS CALLED AN "EVENT."<br>THIS IS CALLED A "QUANTA."<br><br><br>I DON'T MEAN TO SOUND POMPOUS ABOUT THIS, I'M JUST TELLING YOU RIGHT NOW, YEAH, <strong>YOU</strong>, THAT YOU CANNOT, SHOULD NOT AND<strong> NEVER WILL</strong> DEFINE YOURSELF AS ANYTHING BUT WHAT YOU ARE <strong>RIGHT NOW.</strong><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/27759522014-03-19T23:06:23+01:002014-03-19T23:06:23+01:00NEW VIDEO UP<a contents="BECAUSE" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z2sEPS-CSSs">BECAUSE</a>, IS A VIDEO CONTAINING NOT-BEFORE-SEEN FOOTAGE FROM THE RECENT EVICTIONS AND HARRASSMENT OF EU IMMIGRANTS IN SWEDEN.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/27389222014-03-13T13:51:58+01:002017-01-14T22:31:39+01:00INTRODUCING MEMEEWEWME AND DRUMMER ERKOALIEN HAVE REHEARSED ALOT FOR AN UPCOMING LIVEDEBACLE NAMED MEMEEWEW.<br>YOU CURRENTLY FIND US ON <a contents="FACEBOOK/MEMEEWEW" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/memeewew?fref=ts" target="_blank">FACEBOOK/MEMEEWEW</a><br>MORE INFO TO FOLLOW.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/d0c22a5a2cfce8c8971ca283c4e3db4e4e1ae710/original/img-0429.jpg?1393178692" class="size_l justify_center border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/27362862014-03-13T00:50:17+01:002014-03-13T00:50:17+01:00SO...MY FRIEND FROM <a contents="MONKEY SUIT" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.monkeysuit.se/">MONKEY SUIT</a> JUST CAME BY AND BORROWED MY 100£ CAMERA TO SHOOT <a contents="THIS EVENT" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/events/679334188789448/?ref=25">THIS EVENT</a> WITH.<br>I'LL BE EDITING FINISHED MATERIAL, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.<br>OTHERWISE... NOT MUCH.<br>IT'S KIND OF VIOLENT IN STOCKHOLM ROCKHOLM RIGHT NOW BUT I'M DODGING BULLETS.<br>GOT NO MONEY FROM GOVERNMENT TO RUN BUSINESS, YOU KNOW?<br>SO I GO IN AND JUST TAKE GUITAR AND WALK OUT.<br>THIS GUY STARTS FOLLOWING ME, ASKING QUESTIONS. HE PUNCH, I PUNCH, HE CALL COPS, I RUN AWAY.<br>OH, AND I'M TOP TEN ON REVERBNATION'S CHRISTIAN ROCK CHARTS. <br>LOVE<br>/M<br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/26445732014-02-25T21:13:32+01:002014-02-25T21:13:32+01:00IF YOU Fxxx THIS UP FINCHER I SWEAR BY GOD I WILL PERSONALLY COME TO YOUR HOUSE AND BITCHSLAP YOU.UTOPIA IS MY BIBLE. <a contents="GET" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.hollywoodreporter.com/live-feed/utopia-remake-gone-girls-david-679813" target="_blank">GET</a> ME?<br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/26310912014-02-23T19:05:14+01:002017-01-14T22:31:39+01:00IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUNDI present to you: A Facehugger in a chandelier!<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/90c1635b1f31a9df4beaa918c18d21e30b0ce2e0/medium/img-0469.jpg?1393178552" class="size_m justify_left border_" /><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/25426882014-02-08T02:47:21+01:002014-02-08T02:47:21+01:00#STOCKHOLMFASHIONWEEKTHING IS, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KEEP UP WITH THE SHOWS IF THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS "WEEKS" AND THE SFW APP DOESN'T WORK PROPERLY?<br>ANYWAY, SO FAR <a contents="HEART OF LOVIKKA" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.heartoflovikka.se/">HEART OF LOVIKKA</a> HAS BEEN THE ABSOLUTE SHIT.<br>THE REST HAS BEEN A MAZE.<br>LOVE<br>/m<br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/25215192014-02-04T23:39:10+01:002017-01-14T22:31:39+01:00STILL IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/5814b4fec4dc43249513ee635d546b1f32db15cf/medium/img-0367.jpg?1391552555" class="size_m justify_left border_" /><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br>VOTING OUT THE SWEDISH RIGHT WING PARTY OUT OF THINGS I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/eb7ac2c76e39cbc50dc0831747b5a4fbcc1f7b03/medium/why-2.jpg?1391552932" class="size_m justify_left border_none" alt="" /><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br>DAILY CONSUMPTION OF NUTRIENTS.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/ee42c9b617de5a6b2d9c273a803baa9538b923f0/medium/why-3.jpg?1391553214" class="size_m justify_left border_none" alt="" /><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br>KITTENS AND SNEAKERS.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/491402308006603f97c59d99f3858eaa12f05c05/medium/why-4.jpg?1391553388" class="size_m justify_left border_none" alt="" /><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br>MY MUG SEEN HERE WITH DANGO AT THE <a contents="TRUCKFIGHTERS" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.truckfighters.com/">TRUCKFIGHTERS</a> RELEASEPARTY.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/23468462014-01-08T11:17:22+01:002014-03-11T13:33:00+01:00UPCOMING BOOKRELEASE CONFIRMED.I'M AM VERY EXCITED TO SAY THAT THIS UPCOMING DEMENT-O-VISION WILL BE MERELY A SOUNDTRACK TO A BOOK I'VE BEEN WORKING ON SINCE I WAS, SAY ABOUT EIGHT YEARS OLD.<br>THE BOOK, ALSO ENTITLED <strong>BLIND</strong>, WILL BE AVAILABLE EVERYWHERE SOMETIME IN 2014, HUMAN TIMELINE, MORE SPECIFICS WILL FOLLOW ON THAT.<br>IT FEELS AS IF ALL MY LABOUR HAS BEEN WORKING UP TO THIS.<br>THERE IS NOW SO. MUCH. JUST. ABSOLUTE. HORROR. AND. HELL, THAT I CAN FINALLY JUST <em>LEAVE BEHIND ME</em>, TO USE A TERM OF YOURS.<br>THE HARD PART IS OVER.<br>THANKS FOR LISTENING.<br>LOVE<br>/MMELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/23152812014-01-02T03:08:52+01:002017-02-03T10:55:23+01:00NEW VIDEO UP.THIS IS ZERO BUDGET MARKETING AT IT'S FINEST.<br>I MADE THIS ABOVE <a contents="VIDEO" data-link-label="" data-link-type="" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GTI6hgSKOFE&feature=youtu.be">VIDEO</a> WITH MY HAND ALL BUSTED UP AND IN A CAST.<br>BUT BECAUSE OF THE AFOREMENTIONED 301+ BUG I WILL GO EASIER ON THE MARKETING ASPECT ON THIS ONE.<br>YOU SEE,<br>IF YOU TRY TOO MUCH TO REACH OUT WITH YOUR HARD WORK, THE INTERNET WILL BREAK DOWN.<br>IF YOU TRY TOO LITTLE, YOUR VIEWCOUNT WILL BE NEXT TO ZERO.<br>EITHER WAY, YOU WILL ALWAYS FAIL HORRIBLY IN WAYS YOU NEVER THOUGHT POSSIBLE.<br>NEVER FORGET THAT.<br>LOVE<br>/MMELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/22972372013-12-28T05:19:09+01:002017-01-14T22:31:39+01:00ON DEPARTING FROM A ROLE MODEL.<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/7b9fcf35beda282ebbbc7992cd46b9ff008439b3/original/necro.jpg?1388206128" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><br>When I first heard Necro, I started following him maniacally.<br>And I’m a music fascist. I tend to be picky.<br>No one, and I do mean no one has ever delivered such expert lines about such pitch black topics, with being such a great producer to boot.<br>We are talking above Trent Reznor skill here.<br>I bought every album of his, watched every interview and I still honestly don't think this world will ever hear the likes of such a genius again, you just can’t compete with his skill.<br><br>Then came “the Sexorcist” and I was like fuck yeah, a little misogynistic though.<br>But who with this rockstarskill does not have the right to fuck bitches backstage and posting pictures of it online?<br>Hell, I have! Hell, Necro you actually brutally fucked one of my friends when you were here in Sweden and she loved it!<br><br>Then came this new production with Kool G Rap and I was blown away.<br><br>However, as I was following him on Facebook, the more darker and actually horrible his posts became.<br>And I sort of realized that Necro, in his absolute genius, is one of those men who does not use his expert eye for darkness to actually make any remark on anything, but to simply make the world a darker place than it already is.<br>Exactly like the Nazis once did and is still doing, yes.<br>While reading his posts and examining the interviews I realized that this man enjoys, not only what he rap about, but what he does for a living.<br>He will alwys fascinate me in that context. Always.<br><br>But do you think there is a difference between "fucking a girl in the ass 'til she bleeds" or to beat up a pedophile?<br><br>My point being; fuck you Necro, and all of your “fans” posting all of that horrible stuff.<br><br>I know, better than you, what they do to misogynists in prison.<br><br>And I do not have as many records as you have got out, but I’m getting there.<br>In the meantime you can listen to Blurred Lines and mourn the death of Lou Reed like everybody else. MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/22758492013-12-23T09:13:35+01:002017-01-14T22:31:39+01:00FAITH IN HUMANITY RESTORED.<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/9861f18a9194f4878712cf965a29b873ba5b7efe/original/img-0118.jpg?1387786353" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><br>THIS IS WHAT 17.000 PEOPLE DEMONSTRATING AGAINST RACISM LOOKS LIKE.<br>I'M HERE IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.<br>#LINJE17<br><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/22566492013-12-19T05:56:13+01:002017-01-14T22:31:39+01:00HAPPY HOLIDAYS!NEW DEMENT-O-VISION COMING SOON!<br>YOU SCRUB UP GOOD!<br>MAUL AND HARRAUD!<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/571ca68ec7f9948c81792ebb0b641d7da5d4592e/large/coming-soon.jpg?1387428915" class="size_l justify_left border_" />MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/22566362013-12-19T05:49:04+01:002013-12-19T05:49:04+01:00ON METAPHYSICS AND THE 301+ BUG.I NEVER GET FRUSTRATED NOWADAYS; MY EMOTIONAL PALETTE CONSISTS ONLY OF<br>-APOCALYPTICALLY ANGRY<br>-HORNY<br>-BLISSFULLY HAPPY<br>THERE IS HOWEVER A STRANGE PHENOMENON WHICH IS NOT EXACTLY HELPING ME SHARE MY MUSIC, KNOWN TO THE MUSICIAN AS THE 301+ BUG.<br>WHEN YOU RELEASE A VIDEO LIKE THE ABOVE ONES AND SHARE IT IN SOCIAL MEDIA THERE NATURALLY TEND TO BE A SUDDEN RUSH OF VIEWS, WHICH YOUTUBE SEEM TO THINK IS THE WORK OF SOME KIND OF SCRIPT, A PROGRAM DESIGNED TO JUST ADD VIEWS, AND YOUTUBE IN RESPONSE BECOMES SELF-AWARE, TURN AGAINST THE MUSICIAN AND STOPS THE VIEWCOUNT AT 301 UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE.<br>WHY ANYONE WOULD WANT TO USE SUCH A SCRIPT FOR FAKE VIEWS IS BEYOND ME -YOU WANT TO REACH OUT WITH YOUR MUSIC, NOT SHOW YOUR HARD WORK OFF TO GHOSTS.<br>YOUTUBE DOES EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE WEED OUT THE FAKE, OR UNDER 30 SECOND VIEWS, BUT IT MIGHT TAKE A LIFETIME, AND UNTIL THEN YOUR CREDIBILITY WILL BE QUESTIONED.<br>THIS MAKES ME APOCALYPTICALLY ANGRY, AND MUST BE DEALT WITH.<br>NOONE KNOWS HOW THOUGH, SINCE YOUTUBE IS A METAPHYSICAL SENTIENT BEING, A CLOUD, A SIMULACRA WITH NOBODY TO HOLD RESPONSIBLE. <br>UNTIL THIS IS FIGURED OUT I WILL TAKE MY ANGER OUT ON EMPTY PASSENGER SEATS.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/21572822013-12-04T16:29:14+01:002017-01-14T22:31:39+01:00STILL ALIVE AGAIN.<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/3fc805870d94ac3ea3d9b4c0e0c70260b7b9fb26/original/labels.jpg?1386170592" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><br><br>THIS IS WHAT A LIFE DEVOTED TO MUSIC LOOK LIKE, CONTAINED IN A ROOM.<br>WHAT YOU SEE BEFORE YOU ARE THE HEADS OF BIGSHOT LABELBOSSES, TEAMING UP TO SILENTLY MURMUR.<br>ME, I'M JUST HERE TO GET DRUNK.<br>THIS IS HOW THE MUSICIAN DO.<br>COMPARING CHARTS, INVESTIGATING SIMULACRAS, WHILE I SIT IN MY CORNER JOTTING DOWN IDEAS FOR NEW DEMENT-O-VISION.<br>HEY, WE HAVE FESTIVE LIGHTBULBS.<br>SO BE PATIENT.<br>I'M ON IT.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/21018322013-11-23T18:00:49+01:002017-01-14T22:31:38+01:00STILL ALIVE.<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/7e9be7fd963d53fdcc732a56854a25b7e91f1987/original/in-studio.jpg?1385225608" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><br>IN STUDIO, FUCKING SHIT UP.<br>STILL WORKING ON NEW DEMENT-O-VISION AND LIVESHOW, HUSTLING, WORKING ON VIDEOS, TRYING TO GET FUCKING RETARDED FEATURING TALENTS TO UNDERSTAND THAT WE KIND OF FUCKING NEED TO RECORD TODAY TODAY TODAY IF YOU ARE EVER TO GET YOUR OWN FUCKING CAREER OFF THE GROUND.<br>ALWAYS, CONSTANTLY.<br>THIS IS WHAT A LIFE DEVOTED TO MUSIC LOOK LIKE, CONTAINED IN A ROOM.<br>HEY, WE HAVE FESTIVE LIGHTBULBS.<br>SO BE PATIENT.<br>I'M ON IT.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/18513532013-10-15T00:03:14+02:002017-01-14T22:31:38+01:00BROKE HAND<br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/fbbd4aa0644f121da788178d109b40d73444e04a/medium/xray.jpg?1381787845" class="size_m justify_left border_" /><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br>THE PARTY WAS OFF THE WALL AND THE DNB PLAYING MADE ME BREAK MY HAND, SO I'M WALKING AROUND WITH A CAST NOW, ON MY WAY TO SURGERY IN A BIT AND WILL PROBABLY HAVE TO KEEP RECORDING THE GUITAR PARTS FROM HERE ON IN A BIT OF AGONY.<br>NOT TO WORRY.<br>ART NEEDS INJURY AND MADNESS.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/17448342013-09-30T19:32:20+02:002017-01-14T22:31:38+01:00R.I.P. DEBASER SLUSSENTHE LAST BEER AT DEBASER, PICTURE STOLEN FROM A PROMINENT SWEDISH AUTHOR WHO ATTENDED. <br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/0734e8c55028cc5f9cd664e5fbaca47c9d5e2eec/small/strages-bira.jpg" class="size_s justify_center border_none" alt="" /> THIS WEEKEND “WAS” A WEEKEND OF LASTS –THE LAST OPEN AIR FOR THIS SEASON AT AN UNDISCLOSED LOCATION, AND THE LAST MAGNIFICENT EPISODE OF BREAKING BAD AIRED.<br>BUT IT WAS ALSO THE LAST NIGHT OPEN FOR THE MOST LEGENDARY ROCK CLUB IN SWEDEN –DEBASER SLUSSEN, ONE OF MANY CLUBS TO SHUT DOWN DUE TO SWEDENS IGNORANT CULTURAL POLITICS.<br>I HAVE MANY FOND MEMORIES MYSELF FROM THAT CLUB, IN WHICH I ACTUALLY HAVE HUNG OUT WITH BOTH ATMOSPHERE, BROTHER ALI AND SAGE FRANCIS TO MENTION A FEW.<br>IT WAS A NIGHT OF ANYTHING GOES- THE PLACE HAS NEVER BEEN AS CROWDED, THE MOOD WAS MAGIC AND WE KIND OF TRASHED THE PLACE.<br> <br>SEE, ON A RECENT BIRTHDAY I GOT A DECK OF CARDS CALLED “ANYWHERE- A TRAVEL GUIDE”. IT’S BASICALLY A SET OF VERY RANDOM INSTRUCTIONS, WITH THE GOAL OF THE USER ENDING UP JUST ABOUT ANYWHERE IN A MORE OR LESS CONFUSED STATE OF MIND. FOR INSPIRATION!<br>DECK SEEN HERE, SLIGHTLY USED.<br> <img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/acbda4a204e488867dfc2f7199940acbf122a6c5/medium/travel-guide.jpg" class="size_m justify_center border_none" alt="" /><br>ME AND A FRIEND SET OUT TO GO THROUGH THAT DECK EARLIER “LAST WEEK”, WITH ITS FINALE AT THAT NIGHT IN DEBASER.<br>IN TOTAL IT TURNED OUT TO BE A BIZARRE RIDE, AND ALONG THE WAY I’VE MET A FEW NEW TALENTS- RANDOM ENCOUNTERS - WHO THE CARDS WOULD MAKE COME TO MY STUDIO AND RECORD.<br>AND FOR NOW TWO VIDEOS ARE DONE, 8 LEFT TO GO.<br>OUR BASS PLAYER HAS WENT UP AND LEFT THE BAND ALONG THE WAY, BUT IT’S GOOD ENOUGH, SINCE IF JOHNOSSI CAN GO WITH A TWO GUYS ONLY-SETUP, THEN SO CAN MY BAND.<br> <br>AND REMEMBER, IF IT DOESN’T PEAK IN THE MIX, IT’S NOT LOUD ENOUGH.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/16486712013-09-18T16:03:27+02:002017-01-14T22:31:38+01:00THE JOKE'S ON YOU, ROCKSTAR GAMES!<br><img src="//content.sitezoogle.com/u/56135/38e213a09998be291bb6d606105c1625679fc9eb/original/thassright.png?1379512414" class="size_l justify_left border_" /><div> </div><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br>...BECAUSE I JUST -AFTER A MINDFUCK OF DOWNLOADS- EVENTUALLY BOUGHT A VERY WORKING COPY OF MAX PAYNE 3 FOR PC! (SIC)<br>AND YES, THE ABOVE IMAGE, DONE BY SELF, GOT UPVOTED LIKE 3000 TIMES ON REDDIT ALLREADY.<br>AND I'M NOT ALL THAT SAD ABOUT THE ONGOING GTA V HYSTERIA, BECAUSE I REALIZE THAT NOT BEING ABLE TO PLAY IT -BEING A PC GAMER- IS ACTUALLY VERY HEALTHY FOR MY PRODUCTIVITY.<br>IN FACT, I AM ALSO THINKING ABOUT RELEASING AN ALL INSTRUMENTAL VERSION OF THE NEW DEMENT-O-VISION SIMULTANEOUSLY WITH THE UPCOMING RELEASE, MASTODON STYLE.<br>I AM ACTUALLY SCHEDULED TO MEET UP WITH AN AWESOME, FEATURING FEMALE MC IN JUST ABOUT AN HOUR.<br>THEN PERHAPS PAINT A FUCKING TRAIN.<br>WHO THE ROCKSTAR NOW, DAN HOUSER??<br>(PLEASE RELEASE IT TO PC SOON)MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/16142982013-09-13T16:27:27+02:002017-02-02T14:26:26+01:00THEY SIT YOU IN A ROOM AND TELL YOU LIES<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/18847f60276c5133cb8c909acbd46d4df8ef2aa9/original/court.jpg?1379081739" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><div>
<br>I WENT TO COURT TODAY, IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.<br>I WAS ACCUSED OF SOME VANDALISM BULLSHIT, BUT I ARGUED- BASED ON MY VERY EXTENSIVE RESEARCH IN QUANTUM PHYSICS- THAT TIME DOES NOT EXIST, THERE ARE NO SUCH THINGS AS PAST OR FUTURE, THERE ARE NO SUCH THINGS AS SERIES OF EVENTS AND THEREFORE I COULD NOT HAVE BEEN INVOLVED IN THOSE ACTS OF TOMFOOLERY, BECAUSE ULTIMATELY, THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS “BEEN”.<br>AND DO YOU KNOW WHAT? LIKE SERIOUSLY??<br>THEY POSTPONED THE TRIAL!<br>THEY SAID THAT THEY NEEDED, IN THAT CASE, SOME MORE EVIDENCE-LIKE MATERIAL- AND BASED ON MY GRAPENUTS BUT ACCURATE NIMWITZ THEY ACTUALLY POSTPONED THE TRIAL UNTIL "THEY COULD GATHER MORE EVIDENCE THAT THE NOTION OF "TIME" IS REAL FROM SOMEONE" WHATEVER.<br>THIS IS A FIRST.<br>AND IT IS GOOD.<br>IT SHOWS THAT EVEN BEAURAUCRATS MIGHT BEGIN TO VIEW TIME AS SOMETHING NON-EXISTANT. <br><br>THE UP-COMING DEMENT-O-VISION IS DOING GREAT, FYI. <br><br>IN SPARETIME I NOW PLAY OULAST, GONE HOME, SPLINTER CELL-BLACKLIST, AND AMNESIA: A MACHINE FOR PIGS, SIMULTANEOUSLY.<br>AND I WILL GIGGLE MYSELF TO SLEEP OVER THIS<a contents=" SOUNDTRACK." data-link-label="" data-link-type="" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fkVvNMuJsA"> SOUNDTRACK.</a><br> </div>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/14934792013-08-28T18:17:51+02:002017-01-14T22:31:38+01:00KARLSTADI AM CURRENTLY IN KARLSTAD, SWEDEN, IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.<br>THIS LITTLE ANGEL IS MY NIECE.<br><br><img src="//content.sitezoogle.com/u/56135/8a9c790d6b86890d99cb7cacda706d70d97e2ee2/original/pic-4321.jpg?1377705830" class="size_l justify_left border_" /><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br>HERE WE ARE PLAYING THE PIANO. SHE KIND OF SUCK AT IT.<br><br><img src="//content.sitezoogle.com/u/56135/6ee9986c06a276c51d64af1d5ac27feaf8f76493/original/pic-4324.jpg?1377705782" class="size_l justify_left border_" /><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br>MY SISTER, MY NIECE AND MY SISTERS HUSBAND (WHO I CALL CAPTAIN AL-JAZEERA) IS VISITING SWEDEN FROM TEL AVIV AND I WENT TO KARLSTAD TO SURPRISE THEM TODAY. CHRIST, I HAVEN'T MET THEM IN AGES.<br>AND TODAY AS WE WERE OUT WALKING, IT HIT ME; I CAN'T REMEMBER LAST TIME IS WAS THIS HAPPY.<br>THERE IS NOTHING FOR ME IN STOCKHOLM BUT DEATH, MURDER AND INSANITY, AND I WAS GENUINELY SURPRISED AS WE WERE WALKING DOWN THE STREET IN SUNNY KARLSTAD HOW NOONE WAS TRYING TO KILL ME, NOONE FELL IN FRONT OF A MOVING TRAIN OR HOW NOONE WAS SCREAMING IN AGONY OR FROM SOME DRUGINFLUENCE.<br>THE CONTRAST IS TOTAL, AND I REALIZE JUST NOW HOW DAMAGED STOCKHOLM HAS MADE ME.<br>SO I WILL BE STAYING HERE BRIEFLY, RECHARGING MY BATTERIES AND GATHERING INSPIRATION, AND THEN GET BACK HOME TO ACTIVELY START WORKING WITH THE MUSIC AGAIN.<br>THE SONGS ARE NOW READY-MASTERED, AND IT IS TIME TO START WORKING ON THE VIDEOS AND THE PROMO MATERIAL.<br>'TIL NEXT TIME<br>LOVE/ MELANIE<br><br>GET WELL DIOL.<br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/14304802013-08-23T10:05:35+02:002017-01-14T22:31:38+01:00WU TANG<img src="//content.sitezoogle.com/u/56135/aa1043698bac2420323cd77fbe118ff6304a9825/original/wu-tang.jpg?1377243839" class="size_l justify_left border_" /><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br>WENT AND SAW WU-TANG CLAN AT GRÖNA LUND IN STOCKHOLM, IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.<br>IT WAS COMPLETELY INSANE AND EXACLTY EVERYONE I KNOW WERE THERE.<br>JUST WOKE UP NOW, STILL DRUNK AND MY HANDS ARE A MESS.<br>JUST REALIZED IT IS FRIDAY, I AM A PASTAFARIAN AND THIS IS A PASTAFARIAN HOLIDAY, SO I AM ON MY WAY TO TWO DIFFERENT OPEN AIRS THAT IS TAKING PLACE IN UNDISCLOSED LOCATIONS LATER ON TODAY.<br>THE OPEN AIR CULTURE IS SOMETHING THAT HAS JUST RECENTLY BLOWN UP IN STOCKHOLM, IT IS ON ITS SECOND SEASON NOW AND I GOT THE IDEA THAT I SHOULD ACTUALLY REVIEW EVERY OPEN AIR PARTY HERE FOR THE NEXT SEASON, SINCE THOSE PARTIES ARE SOMETHING I AM AVIDLY ATTENDING, AND AM VERY FOND OF.<br><br>IN ANY CASE, I HAVE RECORDED AND MIXED TEN TRACKS NOW AND I AM IN THE MASTERING STAGE OF THE RECORD NOW.<br>IT IS A VERY FUN PROCESS, AS I AM USING NEW UPDATED MASTERING TECHNIQUES FOR THIS PARTICUALAR DEMENT-O-VISION.<br>I SHOULD ALSO START WORKING ON THE VIDEOS NOW.<br><br>ALSO, THERE ARE SOME NEW FEATURES ON THE WEBSITE. <br>NOTHING FANCY, JUST SOME EXTRA LIKE-BUTTONS AND SHIT LIKE THAT.<br><br>YOU THINK THATS ENOUGH, YOU SLAG?<br>NO SIR, I HAVE ALSO PUT UP MY BEST-OF EP, PROPERLY NAMED <em><strong>EP'S AND VINEGAR</strong></em> AS A DOWNLOADABLE FREE APP IN MY REVERBNATION ACCOUNT.<br>YOU FIND THE LINK TO MY REVERBNATION ACCOUNT TOGETHER WITH ALL MY OTHER MOTHERFUCKING SOCIAL MEDIA ACCOUNTS BELOW.<br>AS I HAVE BEEN FOCUSING ON RECORDING THIS DEMENT-O-VISION MOST OF MY FANBASE HAVE GIVEN UP HOPE ON ME, SO I KIND OF HAVE TO START ALL OVER AGAIN.<br><br>NO WORRIES THOUGH, I AM NO STRANGER OF REPETITION.<br><br> MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/13311952013-08-05T00:45:00+02:002017-01-14T22:31:38+01:00COLLABORATIONS<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/65dd76d49ce8d6f3e3e8e7d0c3ea455f2fdc73e6/medium/WHERE-IS-JESSICA-SAUCEDO.JPG?1375722175" class="size_orig justify_inline border_" alt="" height="225" width="300" /><br><br>AND AS MY FRIEND DROPPED THE ACID, BEING VOLATILE ENOUGH AS IT IS ON OUR STOLEN LIQUOR, I GOT SERIOUSLY WORRIED FOR HIS, MINE, AND OUR ENVIRONMENTS SAFETY AS WE SAT DOWN IN A CLUSTER OF PRETTY WOMEN IN A SUNNY PARK IN SWEDEN.<br>THE WEATHER WAS AWESOME, THE MUSIC WAS PUMPING OUT LOUD, BUT WE DID NOT KNOW ANY OF THESE GIRLS WE SAT DOWN WITH, SO I GOT THE CONVERSATION GOING.<br>TO MY SURPRISE ONE OF THESE GIRLS TURNED OUT TO BE A SINGER. <br>SERIOUSLY, THERE ARE NOT THAT MANY FEMALE SINGERS IN SWEDEN.<br>SO SHE WENT HOME WITH ME, I GAVE HER THE MIC, AND SHE ABSOLUTELY KILLED IT ON A FEW OF MY TRACKS.<br>THEN WE ALL BROKE INTO THE MUSIC AND ARTS FESTIVAL IN STOCKHOLM, IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.<br>GOT CHASED BY GUARDS, WAITED TO SEE <b>PRINCE</b> FOR A WHOLE FIFTEEN MINUTES, HE DIDN'T DELIVER, GOT BORED, WENT BACK HOME.MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/12995952013-07-31T07:37:18+02:002017-01-14T22:31:38+01:00Emmaboda<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/a67ea6bbcd2e0c3737977ea94c002d75f2ea533d/medium/emmaboda.JPG?1375325208" class="size_orig justify_inline border_" alt="" height="225" width="300" /><br><br><br>
WENT TO THE EMMABODA FESTIVAL -THE BEST I'VE EVER BEEN ON IN MY CAREER- IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.<br>
AND EVERYBODY KNOWS SOUND IS NOT ABOUT THE MUSIC.<br>
SAW NO BANDS, BUT WOKE UP IN STRANGE GIRLS TENT AT NIGHT WHILE INFECTED MUSHROOM WAS PLAYING, THINKING "AH, NICE, INFECTED IS PLAYING", THEN PASSED OUT AGAIN. <br>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/10840332013-07-08T00:00:00+02:002017-02-02T09:23:57+01:00GOT AN IDEA. A FEW YEARS BACK, HUMAN TIMELINE, I GOT FUNDED ONE MILLION SWEDISH KRONOR TO BE ABLE TO REALIZE A MOVIEPROJECT, A SCRIPT THAT I HAD AND HAVE BEEN WORKING ON SINCE IS WAS I LITTLE KID, ACTUALLY.<br>IT TURNED OUT TO BE A VERY EXCITING SHOOT AND A CRASH COURSE FOR ME IN HOW TO PRODUCE MOVIES.<br>HOWEVER, THE MOVIE GOT STUCK IN PRODUCTION HELL AND HAS BEEN THERE SINCE, RESULTING ONLY IN <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4n0iHRVOzGk">THIS TEASER TRAILER</a> AND AN UNPUBLISHED BOOK AS OF YET.<br>BUT TODAY I WAS SITTING BY THE BEACH, MEDITATING AS I USUALLY DO, AND IT HIT ME THAT THIS NEW ALBUM (DEMENT-O-VISION) SHOULD BE A THEME ALBUM ABOUT THAT VERY SAME IDEA OF THE SCRIPT, SINCE ONE OF THE BEST ALBUMS I'VE HEARD RECENTLY, "WOLF" BY TYLER IS BRUSHING THE SAME CONCEPT OF CONCEPT ALBUMS, AND SINCE IT IS UNLIKELY TO GET FUNDED ANOTHER TIME AROUND FOR A FULL LENGTH FILM.<br><br>SO IT'S ABOUT THIS ALTERNATIVE VERSION OF MY SWEDISH NEIGHBOURHOOD, SIMPLY CALLED "BLIND", WHEREIN A HUGE PARTY HAS BEEN GOING DOWN FOR FIVE WHOLE YEARS NOW. THE THOUSANDS OF INHABITANTS OF THIS PARTY ARE THERE TO LITERALLY PARTY THEMSELVES TO THE DEATH, RESULTING IN THE VANDALISM AND DESTRUCTION OF FIVE WHOLE BLOCKS, AND THE EVACUATION OF THE SURROUNDING SUBURBS. AND IF THEY TRY TO LEAVE THE PREMISES OF THE PARTY ONCE THEY HAVE ENTERED, A GENTLE RAIN WILL BEGIN TO FALL OUTSIDE, WITHIN MINUTES ESCALATING IN FULL BLOWN TORNADOES.<br>THIS STRANGE AND BIBLICAL GEOLOGICAL PHENOMENON HAS BEEN OBSERVED BY THE OUTSIDE WORLD, BUT SINCE IT IS YET TO BE EXPLAINED, THE MEDIA AND GOVERNMENT HAS SIMPLY LEFT THE PARTY TO ITSELF AND THE SURROUNDING AREAS HAVE BEEN DECLARED CONDEMNED.<br>BUT THE INHABITANTS OF THE PARTY DON'T CARE, AS THEY HAVE BEEN RAIDING, SCAVENGING A STASH OF SUPPLIES, RUNNING THEIR OWN INFRASTRUCTURE AND POLITICS, AND NOWADAYS EVEN RECIEVE SPONSORSHIP FROM A MAJOR SODA COMPANY AND AID FROM CONCERNED OUTSIDE VOLUNTEER ORGANISATIONS.<br><br>HOWEVER, RUMOURS HAVE BEEN GOING AROUND LATELY THAT THERE IS A SERIAL RAPIST INSIDE THE PREMISES, RUINING EVERYBODYS GOOD TIME.<br>NOT THAT THE PARTY PREVIOUSLY HAS HAD ANY PROBLEM WITH ITS GROWING SEXTURISM, BUT EVERYONE KNOWS THAT RAPE IS WORSE THAN MURDER, AND THAT THIS PERPETRATOR MUST BE CAUGHT AND DEALT WITH IF THE PARTY IS TO GO ON.<br><br>NOW, THERE IS THIS ANONYMOUS PROTAGONIST, A SOLE SURVIVING, TRAUMATIZED ESCAPEE OF THIS PARTY, WHOSE GIRLFRIEND HAS LOST HER MIND AND FLED OFF INTO THE PARTY.<br>THIS CONCERNED PROTAGONIST TEAMS UP WITH HIS GIRLFRIENDS GRAFFITI WRITING SISTER AND HEADS OFF INTO THE PARTY TO SEARCH FOR HER, AND THAT IS WHERE THE STORY BEGINS.<br><br>I AM VERY EXCITED TO GET TO WORK ON THIS DARK AND WILD IDEA, COVERING A WILD RANGE OF POLITICS, MORAL ISSUES AND PSYCHOLOGICAL ANALYSES, ESPECIALLY SINCE <b>NO OTHER FORM OF MEDIA</b> STRANGELY HAS <b>EVER</b> COVERED THE RESEARCH DONE ON HOW THE MIND OF A RAPIST WORKS, OR AT LEAST HAD THE TASTELESSNESS/GUTS TO MAKE ENTERTAINMENT OUT OF IT, NONETHELESS MUSIC.<br>THERE'S YOUR UNIQUE SELLING POINT RIGHT THERE.<br>BUT FIRST THINGS FIRST. TODAY THE SUN IS SHINING IN THIS TOWN SO IMMA GO OUT AND START SOME MAYHEM.<br>'TIL NEXT TIME.<br>LOVE /MMELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/10472092013-07-01T10:19:20+02:002017-01-14T22:31:37+01:00FESTIVAL AFTERMATH <br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/ca1b8153c8768b1097aac9abb61c9b59cb22213f/medium/brvalla.JPG?1372684888" class="size_orig justify_inline border_" alt="" height="225" width="300" /><br><br>
Bråvalla was off the goddamn chart.<br>
I think I came up with a new riff, too.<br>
Now off to wash clothes.<br>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/10037332013-06-24T16:06:02+02:002013-06-24T16:06:02+02:00FESTIVAL-TIME ON MY WAY NOW TO THE BRÅVALLA FESTIVAL IN SEARCH FOR THE NEW SOUND. <br>
I JUST FREED MY GIRLFRIEND FROM THE PSYCHATRIC WARD SO THAT SHE COULD COME ALONG WITH ME.<br><br type="_moz">MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/9867142013-06-21T05:28:49+02:002013-06-21T05:28:49+02:00MIDSOMMAR TODAY ALL OF SWEDEN CELEBRATES A THING UNIQUE FOR US; MIDSOMMAR. <br>
IT IS A PAGAN, AND TYPICALLY SWEDISH THING.<br>
IT IS TEN OCLOCK IN THE MORNING NOW. ALREADY WASTED AND LISTENING TO GESAFFELSTEIN.<br>
ON MY WAY OUT, IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.<br>
THE HEAT WE HAVE COMBINED WITH THE ALCOHOLSALES PREDICTS A SPIKE IN ACTS OF VIOLENCE TONIGHT.<br><br>
FOOTNOTES:<br>
I HAVE JUST PLAYED THROUGH CALL OF JUAREZ, REMEMBER ME, AND FAR CRY 3 BLOOD DRAGON, ALL GREAT GAMES.<br>
R.I.P. GANDOLFINI. <br><br type="_moz">MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/9532732013-06-17T07:45:40+02:002013-06-17T07:45:40+02:00ROADTRIP WENT TO COPENHAGEN IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.<br>
GOT INTO FIGHTS, PAINTED TRAINS, BOMBED THE CITY AND WENT BATSHIT DEMENTED.<br>
DID NOT FIND NEW SOUND THOUGH, JUST GOT A LOUSY T-SHIRT AND NEW FRIENDS WHO ARE ALSO WRITERS.<br>
NOW OFF TO MEET MY GIRLFRIEND WHO IS CURRENTLY BEING LOCKED UP IN THE PSYCHATRIC WARD.<br>
I WILL NOT BRING HER FLOWERS.<br>
INSTEAD; THE FIRST SEASON OF UTOPIA.<br><br>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/9089122013-06-10T10:27:45+02:002017-01-14T22:31:37+01:00A GIFT<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/ae86c5f490ce6da019cea4fb5e4541058609a0f8/medium/rails.JPG?1370870335" class="size_orig justify_inline border_" alt="" height="225" width="300" /><br><br>
TODAY I WENT TO THE PSYCHIATRIC HOSPITAL IN SWEDEN WHERE I REGULARLY GO FOR MY CHECKUPS.<br>
YOU SHOULD SEE THE BUILDING -IT IS A HUGE ARKHAM ASYLUM-ESQUE FORT STATIONED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE WOODS IN THE OUTSKIRTS OF STOCKHOLM, SECURITY IS TIGHT: I HAVE TO PASS TEN DIFFERENT CONTROLS ON MY WAY IN AND OUT OF THERE, AND NO CELLPHONES OR SCRAP METAL IS ALLOWED INSIDE.<br>
TODAY, HOWEVER, A WOMAN HAD BEEN ABLE TO SMUGGLE INSIDE A PIECE OF RAIL USED FOR TOY MODEL TRAINS.<br>
SHE WALKED AROUND ON THE WARD STABBING INMATES AND PERSONNEL WITH IT, NOT EVEN CLOSE TO HURTING ANYONE, NONETHELESS DEMANDING SOMEONE TO CALL A CAB FOR HER.<br>
SHE SPOTTED ME, WALKED UP AND ASKED "ARE YOU INMATE OR PERSONNEL?"<br>
AND I WAS LIKE "DUDE, CHILL, I'M A PATIENT HERE MYSELF."<br>
-"WELL THEN THIS IS A GIFT FOR YOU. YOU'LL NEED IT."<br>
SHE HANDED ME THIS PIECE OF RAIL AND RIGHT BEFORE THE DOCTORS MANAGED TO WRESTLE HER DOWN AND CARRY HER AWAY I SWEAR TO GOD THAT SHE STARED ME STRAIGHT IN THE EYES AND SAID, BANE-STYLE;<br>
"THE FIRE IS RISING!"<br><br><br><br><br type="_moz">MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/8608922013-06-02T13:18:03+02:002017-01-14T22:31:37+01:00SHOEGAZING WENT TO THE DANS DAKAR FESTIVAL TODAY, IN SEARCH OF THE NEW SOUND.<br>
I HAVE BRUISES IN THE MOST BIZARRE PLACES.<br>
THINK I BROKE A RIB AT PENDULUM, MY GIRLFRIEND KNOCKED OUT A TOOTH AT THE PRODIGY, I GOT WHIPLASH FROM JUSTICE, AND I WAS VERY MUCH IMMERSED IN THE DYSTOPIC SOUNDSCAPES OF GESAFFELSTEIN.<br>
A VERY GOOD DAY. I WILL PASS OUT NOW.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/3f8be3868a74325ad576cfd44f7e882480294051/medium/shoegazing.JPG?1370189737" class="size_orig justify_inline border_" alt="" height="225" width="300" /><br><br>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/8346482013-05-29T03:39:34+02:002017-01-14T22:31:37+01:00MY NEW GIRLFRIEND IS PRETTIER THAN YOU EVER WERE YOU SICK FUCK. TODAY I MET UP WITH BANDMEMBERS TO CHECK OUT NEW LOCALE.<br>
WE HAVE ABOUT EIGHT SONGS RIGHT NOW, PLUS THAT I HAVE ABOUT FIFTEEN NEW OUTLINES FOR SONGS READY.<br>
THEN I PAINTED MY NAILS PRETTY.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/a2edf82465171012936716f6ff8b25c9ece2e3b1/medium/some-nails.JPG?1369818925" class="size_orig justify_inline border_" alt="" height="225" width="300" /><br><br>
THEN I PUNCHED OUT MY DAD. HE WAS REAL COOL ABOUT IT.<br><br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/885a2eb7df95c38e6b6261176ccfa9a546d61b6b/medium/sorry-dad.JPG?1369818929" class="size_orig justify_inline border_" alt="" height="225" width="300" /><br><br><br><br><br type="_moz">MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/7992042013-05-23T04:32:36+02:002017-01-14T22:31:37+01:00FIRE <br><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/56135/67b994dc8102e9f7e451fe547de9bdbc3bdac1ee/original/Kultur-HusbyBilbra_1038918c.jpg?1369300705" class="size_orig justify_inline border_" alt="" height="322" width="485" /><br><br>
SWEDEN IS CURRENTLY BURNING, AND I FIND THAT TO BE A WONDERFUL THING. THE PROBLEM IS, IT IS BURNING IN EVERY SUBURB BUT MINE :( I TRIED TO PUT TOGETHER A TEAM OF INSTIGATORS TONIGHT ON FACEBOOK, BUT NOBODY WANTED TO, EVERYONE I KNOW IN MY SUBURB ONLY WANTS TO SIT AT HOME AND SMOKE WEED. FAIR ENOUGH. I HOPE IT WILL STAY LIKE THIS FOREVER THOUGH. IN MY WORLD EVERYTHING BURNS.<br><br><br type="_moz">MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/7992022013-05-23T04:19:02+02:002013-05-23T04:19:02+02:00FIGHT CLUB ANALYSISJUST WOKE UP.<br>
I DREAMED ABOUT HER TONIGHT. <br>
REALIZED WHAT I HAVE DONE TO WEBSITE.<br>
OFF TO SCHOOL IN A COUPLE HOURS FOR A FINAL EXAM.<br>
MY TEACHER TOOK ME ASIDE AND SAID MY WRITING IS FUCKING AWESOME.<br>
SO I PRESENT TO YOU; MY FIGHT CLUB LITERARY ANALYSIS.<br>
IN SWEDISH, TOO!<br><br>
UPPSATS I SVENSKA 3 <br>
2013 VT MELANIE MARTINSSON<br><br>
FIGHT CLUB<br>
-ÖVERVÅLD ELLER GENUSFÖRVIRRING?<br><br><br><br>
2. SAMMANDRAG<br><br>
“Please let me address a misperception. ‘Fight Club’ was a huge failure. Most of the hardcovers were going to be pulped. They were unsold when the movie opened… and then the movie was a flop. It has taken years, decades, for the story to build an audience. What’s amazing is that it still resonates for young readers; it’s never become dated.”<br>
- Chuck Pahlaniuk, till mej personligen, på Reddit AMA (http://flavorwire.com/385544/12-things-we-learned-from-chuck-palahniuks-ama)<br><br><br><br>
4. INNEHÅLL<br><br>
1. TITELSIDA<br>
2. INLEDANDE SAMMANFATTNING<br>
3. INNEHÅLL<br>
4. INLEDNING<br>
5. HUVUDTEXT<br>
6. SAMMANFATTNING<br>
7. LITTERATURFÖRTECKNING<br><br><br>
4. INLEDNING<br><br>
Första regeln: Du pratar inte om Fight Club.<br>
Andra regeln: DU PRATAR INTE OM FIGHT CLUB.<br>
Tredje regeln: Om någon säger ”stopp”, svimmar eller ”taps out” så är slagsmålet över.<br>
Fjärde regeln: Bara två killar får slåss åt gången.<br>
Femte regeln: Ett slagsmål i taget.<br>
Sjätte regeln: Inga tröjor, inga skor.<br>
Sjunde regeln: Slagsmål håller på så länge som de måste.<br>
Åttonde regeln: Om det här är dina första kväll i Fight Club, så måste du slåss.<br>
-Fight Club, sidorna 48-50<br><br>
Fight Club är Chuck Pahlaniuks första utgivna bok och släpptes 1996. Den fick god kritik och 1999 så resulterade den i en film regisserad utav David Fincher med Brad Pitt och Edward Norton i huvudrollerna. Genomslagskraften filmen gjorde i populärkulturen globalt var massiv. Det fanns en tid då både Slipknot och pojkbandet Westlife i intervjuer blev tillfrågade vilken deras favoritfilm var, och båda svarade Fight Club. Filmen förenade män världen över oavsett kulturella eller etniska skillnader, vilsna och bortkomna män anordnade sina egna illegala Fight Clubs (http://usatoday30.usatoday.com/tech/news/2006-05-29-fight-club_x.htm), diskussionerna går fortfarande varma i diskussionsforum om filmens metafysik, och Chuck Pahlaniuk blev rik och fick en etablerad fanskara.<br>
Det här analysen behandlar boken bakom filmen. Alla Pahlaniuk’s böcker är skrivna med ett modernt, nihilistiskt och vulgärt språkbruk, men det finns även en stor portion psykologi och metafysik närvarande, så också i den här. Boken fick emotta flera priser, bland annat PNBA book Awards (http://www.pnba.org/1997BookAwards.html). <br>
Innan vidare analys, en mycket kortfattad synopsis.<br><br>
SYNOPSIS:<br>
Bokens protagonist är fullständigt anonym. Bokstavligen. I hela boken får man inte en tillstymmelse till att veta vad hans namn är vilket adderar till känslan av förvirring och identitetskonflikt, men när långsfilmsversionen skulle manusbearbetas så blev det ett problem, så i filmens originalmanuskript så skrivs protagonistens repliker ut som ”Jack (även om han aldrig nämns vid namn i filmen heller)”, så för enkelhetens skull så omnämns han i dagens forum och även här hädanefter som Jack, på grund utav att han i boken refererar till ett antal texter han läser i skvallertidningar –”jag är Jacks leende hämnd (Fight Club, sid 35)”, et.c. <br>
Att en bok har så vaga definitioner utav sin protagonist ses normalt som någonting negativt, men ”Att så knapphändiga uppgifter ges om personerna kan bottna i att yttre och inre egenskaper är underordnade själva temat. (Herrmods studieguide 3, SV3).”<br>
Hela boken är skriven i förstaperson utav denna Jack, vilket är en –tragiskt nog- fullständigt normal individ. <br>
Han försöker definiera sig själv igenom att på fritiden samla på möbler ifrån IKEA när han inte arbetar på sitt ytterst deprimerande arbete som skadereglerare för ett stort bilföretag.<br>
Och Jack kan inte sova.<br>
Jack går till en läkare som viftar bort hans problem med insomnia, vägrar ge honom sömnmedicin, och rekommenderar honom istället att besöka en supportgrupp för män med testikelcancer, för att Jack ska få se ”vad smärta egentligen är”.<br>
Jack har själv inte cancer men finner en tröst i dessa supportgrupper, där han känner sig välkomnad och kan finna en gemenskap i dessa mäns smärta, och i det ett avbrott ifrån hans eget tråkiga singelliv med funkislägenhet och utsiktslöst jobb. Han får tillfälle att gråta ut på dessa möten genom att bara låtsas ha testikelcancer, och med gråten och hans anonyma vänners tröstande omfamningar så kommer också sömnen tillbaka.<br>
Då dyker en kvinna, Marla Singer upp på dessa möten. Jack tycker att det är plågsamt uppenbart att Marla är en kvinna och därför omöjligt kan ha testikelcancer, men ingen annan i supportgruppen anar någonting; för om Marla bara sitter där och röker cigaretter och inte säger någonting, så anar alla andra det värsta. <br>
Jack kan återigen inte sova nu när Marla också deltar i mötena, fejkandes cancer lika mycket som honom. Jack blir allt mer frustrerad på henne tills han under ett möte tar henne avsides, konfronterar henne och kallar henne för ”turist”. Hon kontrar då med att hävda att hon även har genomskådat Jack som en fejkare och ”turist”. De bägge arbetar fram en gemensam lösning på problemet igenom att dela upp de olika supportmötena sinsemellan veckovis.<br>
Härnäst så träffar Jack en märklig man på en affärsresa, en man vid namn Tyler Durden, som utger sig för att arbeta som tvålförsäljare. Tyler är väldigt nihilistisk, och stark kritiker utav populärkulturen och det ordnade samhället överhuvudtaget. <br>
När Jack återvänder ifrån sin affärsresa så finner han att en gasläcka har fullständigt blåst ut hans lägenhet med alla hans IKEA möbler. En omfattande explosion har inträffat, där hans hela liv och leverne som han definierat med materialism ligger nu utstrött på gatan utanför. Utan att ha någonstans att sova så ringer han det enda numret på det enda visitkort han har kvar, den enda vän han har- Tyler Durden. <br>
De bägge går ut och tar en öl, Jack frågar om han kan få bo hos Tyler ett litet tag. Tyler svarar javisst, på villkoret att ”du slår mej så hårt du kan. (Fight Club, sid. 16)” <br>
De bägge börjar då slåss ute på en parkeringsplats, någonting som blir ett återkommande inslag veckovis för de bägge, vilket väcker uppmärksamhet ifrån förbipasserande som frågar om dom också kan få vara med och slåss. Snart så hittar de allesammans en lokal där de kan få slåss ifred, och de startar Fight Club. <br>
Jack och Tyler blir goda vänner där de lever tillsammans i ett övergivet rivningshus, överger sina materiella tillgångar, utbyter filosofiska spörsmål och slåss med frivilliga främlingar på helgerna.<br>
Men snart dyker Marla Singer upp igen. Hon ringer Jack och undrar varför han inte dykt upp på supportmötena. ”Jag behöver inte mötena längre. Jag har hittat någonting bättre. Men jag får inte prata om det (Fight Club sid 65)”. Marla ser detta som ett svek mot hennes egen nihilistiska världsåskådning, och inleder ett då istället våldsamt sexuellt förhållande med Jacks vän,Tyler Durden. <br>
Igenom boken så börjar Tyler och Jack därför att glida isär, och Tyler utvecklar Fight Club vidare till ett nytt projekt- Project Mayhem, med syfte att attackera konsumtionskulturen ytterligare igenom regelrätta terrordåd. Den tvål som Tyler tidigare sålde visade sig vara gjort utav kroppsfett sluet ifrån fettsugningskliniker, vilket även kan användas till att tillverka sprängmedel. Jack emotsätter sig detta, men rörelsen har redan spritt sig över hela landet på gräsrotsnivå och är ytterst organiserad.<br>
Jack får tillochmed snart reda på att Tyler faktiskt var den som sprängde hans lägenhet, och att Tyler står i färd med att spränga ett par skyskrapor inhuserande kreditföretag.<br>
Så Jack går till polisen med all information, bara för att upptäcka att även många i polisväsendets personal är inblandade. Jack flyr ifrån ordningsmakten, söker upp Tyler och konfronterar honom, bara för att inse att Tyler är han själv, en tankekonstruktion, en utav hans egna personligheter. Jack stoppar en pistol i sin mun och trycker av, bara för att finna att han överlevt, och Tyler försvunnit. Marla, som nu sökt upp Jack/Tyler hittar honom och plåstrar om honom och i det antagligen mest romantiska ögonblicket i litteraturhistorien så tar dom varandras händer medan fyra skyskrapor detonerar och raseras runtomkring dom.<br><br><br><br><br>
5. HUVUDTEXT<br><br>
”Befriaren som förstörde min egendom har justerat min världsuppfattning”<br>
-Jack, Fight Club, sid. 75<br><br>
Första regeln, det är förbjudet att prata om fight club, andra regeln; det är FÖRBJUDET att prata om Fight Club. Dessa två första regler som uttalas utav Tyler när de börjar sin illegala boxningsklubb är ett mantra för medlemmarna att lära sig- ett första steg för att styra iväg ifrån konsumtionssamhället och storföretagens marknadsföring. Paradoxen i dessa regler är att det senare i boken blir som en reklamslogan i sig självt för klubben, och Fight Club och senare Project Mayhem blir ytterligare en maskin som medlemmarna är slavar under. <br>
Men om det är ytterligare en maskin att vara slav under, vad är det då som lockar dessa män att delta? Tylers ultimata budskap är att allting är meningslöst, vad har han då att erbjuda deltagarna som är så lockande?<br><br>
Män ifrån arbetar- och medelklassen for illa under nittiotalets hipstervåg, och tvåtusentalets informationsera ser inte ut att göra saken bättre. Män var under nittiotalet –då boken gavs ut- tvungna att omdefiniera själva begreppet maskulinitet. Själva begreppet med den hårdkokta, tuffa bilden av mannen blev störd, och det med all rätt, om det hade funnits ett altenativ.<br>
Vi befinner oss fortfarande i en evolutionär och samhällelig övergångsfas vilket kan orsaka förvirring i den ack så hatade men psykologiskt fastrotade heteronormen. <br>
Titta på konsumtionssamhället som boken reflekterar över under nittiotalet; Skiftet ifrån en produktionsbaserad till informationsbaserad ekonomi, ifrån produktionen utav varor till produktionen utav information satte med begrepp som ”IT-bubblan” en press på många män och lett till färre och färre arbeten där mannen känner sig meningsfull (Susan Faludi Ordfront, 2001: Ställd - Förräderiet mot mannen). <br>
Som en konsekvens har mannens kropp blivit transformerad ifrån ett medel som producerar, till att bli ett kärl för konsumtion. Denna nya konsumtionskultur tillsammans med färre jobb ger mannen en identitetskris. Den manlige hjälten idag definieras inte längre som en Nietzschiansk rättfram, fåordig, konsekvent och kanske krallig, utan är idag modellerad efter bilden av en ung, jag repeterar UNG, datorexpert som bygger sitt liv och sina drömmar runtomkring nya heta web-kommers start-ups, egenföretagande som skänker överskott till välgörenhet och andra bli-rik-innan-jag-är-tjugoett modeller liksom den konstanta konsumtionen utav dyra hudkrämer. <br>
Mannen blir dagligen bombarderad med budskap att om det här inte är en livsstil du känner igen dig i, om du inte jobbat tillräckligt hårt och blivit rik innan iallafall trettio, då är också felet ditt om du misslyckats.<br>
Allteftersom dessa män utstår ett liv i ökande osäkerhet, upplever en ökande egen social inkompetens allteftersom deras bröder på reklamaffischerna seglar förbi dem i karriären, så har de inte längre tillgång till de medel där de kan känna sig något tillfreds i sin maskulinitet, utan får istället finna sig i ett normativt och domesticerat liv, resten utav sina liv. <br><br>
Jack är denna man. Hans enda nöje är hans affärsresor där han får tillfälle att berätta om sitt deprimerande och morbida jobb som skadereglerare till främmande medresenärer, som han kallar sin ”portionsförpackade vänner”.<br><br>
”Mitt hem var en andelsfastighet på femtonde våningen av ett högt komplex, som ett sorts förvaringsskåp för änkor och unga professionella. Broshyren lovade en halvmeter betonggolv, tak och vägg emellan mej och någon närbelägen stereo eller högt uppskruvad teve. En halvmeter betong som dock var välventilerad så att du inte behövde eller kunde öppna ett fönster (Fight Club sid 41)”<br>
Det som är slående i bokens första del är hur isolerad Jack är, och att han egentligen inte interagerar med någon förrän Tyler dyker upp, och erbjuder ett alternativ till hans anonyma supportgrupper; att slåss, anonymt.<br>
Vid en väldigt homoerotisk punkt i boken så orsakar den kemiskt kunnige Tyler ett kemiskt brännskadesår på Jacks hand igenom att först kyssa den, sedan hälla på lut, vilket får handen att fräsa och bubbla medan Jack skriker utav smärta. Tyler menar på att han gör detta i syfte att förklara det enkla faktum att han aldrig kommer att kunna avancera någonstans i livet förrän han nått den absoluta botten och smärtan.<br>
Så boken fokuserar också på existensialism- vilket är filosofin att en individ måste skapa mening i ett kaotiskt och tomt universum- och denna person är ofta utsatt för stort lidande.<br>
Det finns många tydliga exempel på existensialism i boken, tillexempel när Tyler säger ”bara efter katastrof kan vi bli pånyttfödda”. Senare i boken säger han även ”det är enbart efter att vi förlorat allting som vi är fria att göra vad som helst.”<br>
Existensialism definierar behovet att fatta medvetna beslut för att förbättra sitt liv, och att en person utgörs utav vad den ämnar skapa för sig själv.<br>
Tyler Durden är således Jacks antites, och detta ska visa sig bli viktigt i boken, inte bara ur ett narrativt perspektiv utan även ur ett genusperspektiv.<br><br><br>
Sigmund Freud är en framstående psykolog som menade på att en person utgörs utav Id, Ego och Superego (http://allpsych.com/psychology101/ego.html). Id’et är huvudsakligen den drivande kraften som kräver tillfredsställelse konstant. Egot balanserar ut Id’et medan det själv söker ett säkert och sunt tillfälle för tillfredställelse, medan Superegot är de moraliska reglerna som trycker ner Id’et. Jack är till en början tillfreds med sitt alldagliga liv och utsiktslösa jobb, så hans Superego fungerar utmärkt. Men det fungerar så väl att hans Id skapar Tyler Durden i ett försök att omkullkasta sitt förtryck. Men medan Id lyckas uppnå sitt syfte så är fortfarande jacks Ego aktivt. <br>
Och här kommer vi till, i mitt tycke, det intressanta i boken som ingen hittills verkar ha tagit upp; Könsförvirring är ett återkommande tema. Nästan det enda temat. <br>
Den första personen Jack möter i sin supportgrupp är en man som utvecklat bröst på grund utav sin sjukdom, han heter Bob och de bägge blir snart goda vänner. <br>
Senare i boken ansluter sig Bob till Fight Club. När Jacks Id –Tyler- utvecklar Fight Club till att bli Project Mayhem så ansluter sig Bob till det projektet också, bara för att bli den första att omkomma under ett terrordåd. Jacks Id –Tyler- martyriserar Bob emot Jacks vilja vilket inspirerar medlemmarna i Project Mayhem ännu mer, vilket skapar ytterligare en förskjutning mellan Id och Ego, vilket enligt Freud är en bidragande psykologisk orsak till exempelvis honosexualitet om det inte finns någon X- eller Y- differens i kromosomer (http://homepages.rpi.edu/~verwyc/FREUDOH.html).<br><br>
Vidare, medan Jack uppenbarligen är en man i boken så finns det stora sociala skillnader emellan han och Tyler ifråga om maskulinitet. Tillexempel så är Jacks hobby inredning och att samla på möbler, medan Tylers hobby är att stjäla bilar, dricka öl och ligga runt. <br>
Denna samhällsbilden utav feminint kontra maskulint adderar till den korrekta balansen mellan id och superego (http://cepa.newschool.edu/~quigleyt/vcs/psychoanalysis.html), och hjälper Jack att uppnå mål han inte tidigare kunde uppnå innan han träffade Tyler; Han får uppleva sitt första slagsmål, han står upp för sig själv gentemot sin chef, och träffar en attraktiv kvinna som han dejtar till och från (beroende på vilket tillstånd hans sexuella identitet befinner sig i, i narrativet). Det kan vara svårt att se i boken, men Egot agerar som en medlare emellan de bägge protagonisterna i slutet utav den dramatiska upplösningen. När Jack och Tyler har blivit tillika medvetna om varandras natur, så agerar Egot som en lösning (Jack skjuter sig själv) och skänker en viss fredlig lösning på situationen. I det ögonblicket träder åter Marla in i bilden, tar Jacks hand och den normativa homofobiska samhällsordningen är återställd, nu när Tyler och hans revolutionära idéer om att tänka utanför ramarna är ute ur historien.<br>
Tillika kan man överlag se Jack som Superegot, Tyler som Id och Marla som Egot i hela berättelsen.<br><br>
När Jack går på sina supportgrupper och samtal så får han alltid frivilligt bära en liten namnbricka med ett namn på, och han har alltid ett nytt namn för varje supportgrupp vilket omedvetet hjälper honom att alienera sig ifrån konsumtionssamhället ytterligare, men det bidrar också till hans anonymitet och personlighetsförvirring; att det enda sättet han kan nå ut till folk på är igenom en mask-ett påhittat namn, en starkare man, vilket tillslut leder till skapelsen utav Tyler.<br>
När Jack blir beroende utav supportgrupper, innan han skapar Tyler, så kan man säga att dessa grupper är en feminin variant utav läkande. Varje man tar sin smärta, delar den till de andra, och alla gråter. Nu menar jag personligen inte på att det skulle vara omanligt att gråta, men samhällsidealen den här boken kritiserar menar på det. Att gråta är inte en manlig handling. Det är ett feminint uttryck utav sorg. När Jack talar med Bob –han med bröst- i supportgruppen, så berättar han att ”Bob älskar mej för att han tror att mina testiklar också har blivit bortopererade (sid. 17)”.<br>
Tanken med gruppterapi är delad smärta. Den tar individuell smärta bort ifrån mannen och ger den till gruppen. Du är inte stark nog att klara av livet ensam. Marla –den enda kvinnan i boken, också fejkande att hon har testikelcancer, delar denna filosofi och sätter det i system i ett avsnitt i boken under ett självmordsförsök där hon skriker i tredje person ”tjejen i den där lägenheten tror inte på sig själv, och hon är orolig att hon blir äldre, och att hon ska få allt färre och färre valmöjligheter (sid 61)!”<br>
Hon inser att hon är svag och behöver stöd utav gruppen, utav kollektivet för att känna sig stark.<br><br>
Vidare erbjuder Tylers skapelse Fight Club Jack hans försvunna maskulinitet tillbaks. Alla tar sin sorg, sin rädsla, sitt driv och vilja, sina mål och drömmar och kanaliserar dessa känslor igenom sina nävar. ”Vad som händer i Fight Club beskrivs inte med ord (sid 51).” <br>
Din motståndare i Fight Club är inte personen du slåss mot. Din motståndare är ditt liv. Poängen med Fight Club är inte att dela med sig. Ingen frågar varför du är där. Alla vet varför du är där, för att slåss. ”Vad du ser i Fight Club är en generation män uppfostrade av kvinnor (sid 50)” Det är motsatsen till feminint läkande. Den tar gruppens kraft och sätter det i händerna på en individ. Du är stark nog att klara av livet själv, du behöver bara övning.<br><br>
Det som är tydligt i boken är att igenom att följa en matriarkalisk utveckling så har Jack direkt orsakat sina egna problem, eller iallafall spätt på dem.<br>
Faderslöshet är ett återkommande fenomen i boken, både Tyler, Jack och de flesta medlemmar i Fight Club har växt upp utan en far, vilket skulle kunna förklara det desperata behovet utav identitet, inte våld.<br>
Det finns även en studie som menar på att faderslöshet orsakar ett stigande antal fall utav schizofreni (http://www.schizophrenia.com/sznews/archives/001514.html), vilket är nog så intressant ur ett psykologiskt perspektiv, men ännu intressantare om man ser till de normativa föreställningar jag tror den här boken kritiserar;<br>
”Vi är en generation utav män uppfostrade utav kvinnor” säger Tyler, och i en senare homoerotisk punkt i boken när han sitter i badet bredvid Jack så säger han de numera klassiska orden ”Jag undrar om ännu en kvinna är vad vi verkligen behöver”.<br>
En annan psykolog, Abraham Maslow, föreslog sin tes om självförverkligande. Det är tanken att alla människor efter bästa förmåga strävar efter framgång (http://psikoloji.fisek.com.tr/maslow/self.htm). Individer som betraktas som självförverkligande kännetecknas att vara kreativa, inse fakta snarare än att leva i förnekelse, de är spontana, uppskattar livet, gillar att lösa gåtor och pussel, och har höga moral. Det handlar alltså om att nå toppen utav sin potential. I Fight Club så finns det en paradox i det här ämnet. Tyler hävdar att män som önskar uppnå frihet ifrån en kontrollerande fadersfigur bara kan bli självförverkligade när de skaffat barn och själva blivit fäder. I grund och botten så menar han på att det ända sättet till självförverkligande är att bli det du försöker bekämpa. Och i slutet så eliminerar Jack Tyler igenom att skjuta sig själv, och uppnår självförverkligande som påföljd.<br><br><br><br><br>
6. SAMMANFATTNING<br><br>
Boken målar upp konsumtionssamhället som en bidragande orsak till könsförvirring och ren schizofreni.<br>
Isolationism, riktat emot materiella ting och ägodelar är ett genomgående tema igenom boken. Tyler agerar som en katalysator bakom förintandet utav vår fåfänga och materialism, vilket han hävdar är vägen vi kan hitta tillbaks till oss själva och vår manlighet på, odödligförklarat i följande rad:<br>
”Vet du vad ett lapptäcke är? Det är en filt. Bara en filt. Hur vet killar som du och jag vad ett lapptäcke är? Är det nödvändigt för vår överlevnad, som jägare, samlare? Nej. Vad är vi då? Vi är konsumenter. Vi är en biprodukt av livstil.” <br>
Därför anser jag att boken Fight Club även är det starkaste stycke litteraturhistoria som även tar upp genusförvirring igenom materialism. <br><br>
Fight Club är en rå, brutal bok och skriven lika nihilistiskt och ytligt som vilken reklamslogan som helst.<br>
Men Fight Clubs kritik mot konsumtion har vissa brister. För det första så beskriver den kapitalism och konsumeringen som oigenomtränglig och totalitär, att den erbjuder få om några möjligheter till motstånd förutom utav några heroiska få, alternativt självdestruktivitet. Det finns ingen känsla i boken av att människor kritiskt analyserar marknadskrafterna och kapitalismens logik, vänder det mot sig själv och på så sätt dagligen finner nya sätt till motstånd, överlevnad och demokratisk kamp. <br>
Det finns inget utrymme i boken för anslag till kritiskt tänkande, politisk förståelse och upplysta former utav socialt utbyte. Konsumtion kan bara fungera om det finns en förtryckande ekonomi och om mannen vänds ifrån de smärtsamma apsekterna av ett sådant samhälle i form utav ett mer feminint tillvägagångssätt såsom holistiskt tänkande, empati, medkänsla och tillit. <br>
Alltmedan brutal maskulinitet målas upp som motsatsen till både feminitet, konsumtion och slaveri. <br>
Marlas roll är inte direkt nyanserad. Hon är en femme fatale –bokstavligen döden på två ben, som bara gillar att bli knullad hårt.<br>
Å andra sidan så är det kanske precis däri bokens styrka ligger;<br>
Boken har grundligt gått igenom könsnormerna (”jag undrar om det är sådär en man ska se ut”), klubbens regler har i slutet blivit en reklamslogan, och boken kritiserar således sig själv.<br>MELANIEISDEMENTEDtag:www.melanieisdemented.com,2005:Post/7965402013-05-22T17:21:07+02:002017-01-14T22:31:37+01:00IT IS QUITE NICE. DYING LIKE THIS.<br>
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